For someone that really wants to die while sleeping, I seem to keep being able to wake up. If an ROB asks, I'll even ask for obliteration if there isn't enough benefit. I still can't do sui... not that I don't want to .. but I still care enough that I don't want to affect the people in my life too much. Thus just praying to pass away in my sleep for almost a decade now.

Reading to pass time since I'm a NEET, that deliberately stopped going through doors and windows of opportunities because other than being a literal hopeless romantic, all I want to do is to not wake up anymore.

Need to read since it distracts me from finding ways to find a loophole in my scenario where I could die without feeling too much guilt.

I'm a logical overthinker that is too good when it comes to logical deductions when presented or given enough info.

had been delaying the plan for more than 200 days now... a bit bummed about it. Hoping to get the chance/reason to go through with it soon.