Interesting writing technique: After the start of the first angel battle,we cut to after the battle at the start of the second episode. And how it affected Shinji. By showing the EFFECT first,it really locks watchers into believing that's how the character felt during it instead of how the CAUSE could deviate to numerous developments. Reversing the order of the CAUSE and EFFECT.

I'll find the show/Anno's answer if I finish the last half of the show.

 The show has been building their relationship to the point where I believe an imbalance between them would represent the ego,id,superego breaking apart a person's happiness and their spiral into depression. The ego,Shinji, is questioning why do they (his companions) have to be so noisy? Is it worth being with them?

Episode 12 becomes much more interesting when you realize that it starts with

N.G.E is a fucking master piece of writing clearly conceived by Hideaki Anno as a response or look at his depression. I'm on my very first viewing of the entire show where I've gotten to ep 11. In the last scene, I've realized as they talk about the stars

If you've stumbled here,you're at the right place....to witness a self critic who wanders this site in hopes of finding a novel to fill the hole inside myself through purpose or pleasure.