School Is A Battle Of Wills

Amari High School, Aoyama-Itchome, Tokyo

A quiet school day. Young people talking with their friends, Teachers giving classes, In the lower part of the school are the young boys playing soccer. And in our class, there is our teacher Xian mentioned the difficult test that I would have to face today. Because right after this class, the physical exams of the girls would be carried out in the infirmary. I think there is no need to mention the terror I felt when I heard that, along with the cold sweat that ran all over my body. Today was precisely the day that I feared the most, just hearing that, a cold sweat that ran through my entire body. 

You didn't have to be very smart to know the main reason, my body. Nanami's body is not something that can be said to be quite childish despite its size. When people see me it will only raise more suspicions about what the hell I am. And as if that wasn't enough, after that, the underwear I wear isn't very innocent either, because due to difficulties of my proportions, the only underwear that doesn't rip when I try to put it on is for slightly older girls. First I tried to wear boxers, but most of them tore before reaching the right place, the ones that did manage to get there were so tight that it was uncomfortable for me to walk. And with the panties a similar story happened, the only ones that came to not bother me were a little more "showy" and to make matters worse, later I had to make space for the tail, so let's say that I don't have a single piece of intact underwear. And that was not the biggest problem, my chest has been a separate problem because there is nothing that fits my needs. A girl with my chest proportions and height is simply not supposed to exist, or we are a very hidden minority. We really had to order them made custom made, because the few that I found were very loose and the truth is that I hate that they go bouncing when I'm running, especially while I'm running for my life in a gunfight. And because I don't use a sports bra, because there was no size for me, they were all small, but the worst thing was when I tried to use them by force and I almost suffocated to death, the store clerk had to cut it with scissors. In short, all the horror that has happened these past two months combined into one intensive one-hour segment. 

I had to escape! My dignity depends on it! The first attempt was the old trusty of my younger years, escape from school as if it were a prison, but one of the teachers saw me climbing the fence and I had to escape again to lose sight of him. The second try trying to be busy with something else, but trying to find Xian to help me, but I couldn't find her, it seems to be the class from before it was her last one for the day and she left early, probably to help my mother with her I work for the Alliance. The third option was an accident but that wouldn't help me today, the physical test is right in the infirmary, they'll just take me there ahead of time.  The third option was an accident but that wouldn't help me today, the physical is right in the infirmary, they'll just take me there ahead of time. My luck ran out when a member of the disciplinary committee grabbed me while he was trying to hide me in the music room. And he ends up forced to go against my will. 

There was me and the rest of the girls in my class. And the horror began. First of all, they asked us to take off our clothes, I tried to be the last at least for what I stayed talking to Tamamo trying to buy time, but they scolded me again for that and asked me to hurry up. Having spent all my options I already knew that everything was lost, it was already unavoidable. Accepting my fate, I took off my uniform and sat on a bench waiting for everything to end. I was surrounded by beautiful girls in their underwear and all I could feel was the lack of oxygen from my anxiety. But this wouldn't be like me if something didn't get worse every two minutes, so what happened this time? 

"Okay girls keep your distance from Elise because this is exactly what she has been wanting to see since she arrived!"
"Be careful and don't let her take advantage of the situation"
"Surely she will not be satisfied with her girlfriend and will try to do something to another girl too" mention one of my classmates, Yukiko Aragaki, a girl who almost always has expensive things. 

"Hey!"
"I already told you that I wouldn't do anything at school!"
"I just prefer girls, but I'm not going to bother with the subject either"
"The truth is that I would rather if everyone just ignored me" I said try to defend myself.

"My God but look at the size of those Boobs!"
"Are you even able to see down?"
"Wait, you sure don't need it, your big butt sure warns you of everything around!"
"Don't worry, I assure you that if you come to sleep with me I'll get you in shape in no time!" Said another classmate, Aoyama Kyouko.

"Excuse me?"
"What did you just say?"
"What do you mean by that?" 

"That girl is Aoyama Kyouko"
"Just like you, she is openly lesbian but no girl goes along with her"
"I think what she said was that she wanted you to go out with her" Haru said in my ear to give me more context.

Yes, I see why, who would like to go out with a person like her?

"Just look at her, she looks like she is a cross between a fox and a cow!"
"Surely those boobs are fake!"
"There's no way a five-year-old would have boobs in the first place," Said the gyaru leader of the others.

But what about all these people? What did I do to them? I haven't treated anyone badly yet!

"Come on, don't you want to try what it feels like to do it with a different girl?"
"Oh it's just that you're already so bored of doing it with your girl every night that's why you developed that way, like a pair of boobs with legs, instead of growing up"
"Come on we can have a threesome tonight that you will never forget" Kyouko spoke again.

"What a vulgar way of speaking, that is not worthy of a respectable woman"
"At most that of a drunken bricklayer"
"From here I can see that you pretend that you like women only because of the fact that you have been rejected so many times by men"
"And how would that not happen, if even they have more dignity in themselves than you" said Tamamo with a precision of the devil to hurt my adversary only with her words.

"Come on, for now, you say that, but let me show you that with one hand you will leave your keychain for a real person!"
"Yes, girls who pretend to be royalty are my favorites" Kyouko said as she tried to hold onto Tamamo.

I immediately hit that girl's arm before she even got close to Tamamo

"Touch her with one finger and I'm going to rip your skin off while you're still alive!" I acclaim while protecting Tamamo.

"Ach"
"Like you can walk normally with that bitch body"
"Surely you have even slept with the dogs"
"After all it seems that you like to continue wearing that stupid headband"
"Aren't you just a toy of some man who paid you to modify your body so  voluptuous ?"
"Surely he bought you from your parents to be able to leave you in such a lasciviously way"
"Like a stupid whore"

Nanami's image flashed through my head.

The time she was crying in her room falling after the heads of an important noble family also called her in the same vulgar way.

The time she comforted me when my hands were all covered in blood and sweat from training.

The time she smiled so sincerely for just mentioning that having her close to her reminded me of the warmth of home

The time she said goodbye to me, I still didn't know it would be the last time.

There were many things she hated, how others treated her like a trophy, her parents, Atlantis, the blind devotion she received from her servants. But what she hated the most was that they did not respect her for her body, many thought that she was only made to have sex and not be a person. She always fought so that others wouldn't see her that way, and unfortunately, only the people closest to her were able to see beyond that. She tried a lot, worked a lot, and sacrificed a lot so that people would remember her for something other than her body.

I couldn't leave this like this!

I'm not going to let some stupid shit treat Nanami like that!

"Bitch run"
"Run if you want to at least prolong your death!"  I said while looking for the knife that I had in my uniform.

"Elise!"
"Stop there!"
"You are not going anywhere!"
"Your eyes are changing color"
"We can't let others notice" Tamamo said as she grabbed me by both arms and lifted me up so I couldn't do anything
"Haru take off that girl's sunglasses and bring them to me"
"It is important!"

"Here you have"
"But what is it for?"

"Elise calm down!"
"Remember where you are!"
"Do not do anything that later brings us problems!"
"Please control yourself!"
"Nothing aggravated has happened, okay"
"We'll fix this later with a cool head"
"You got nothing to prove here or to her"
"Haru, bring me a glass of water"
"She just says it because she doesn't know anything"
"Have this, drink this better" Tamamo wouldn't stop talking while hugging me.

"It's alright let me go!"
"I already understood this crap"
"I'm not going to do anything, just leave me alone!"
"I'm going to finish this stupid thing in one go and that's it" I said skipping the line and being the next to be examined

"I didn't know that Elise really hated being talked about her looks" Haru said.

"Elise has had problems with her appearance for a long time"
"She hates that people remind her of how she looks"
"So I would appreciate if you understand that when you talk to her" I think I hear Tamamo in the background, I don't care anymore.

The next lesson was physical education, it seems that we would start with gymnastics, which I also hated to death also from past experiences. I was already fed up with today, I just went to the roof and started to eat a snack that I bought to pass the time. Hell, it seems that no matter what side of the world you're on, school is a horrible place for people who just want to be quiet.  Why the hell am I still doing this? Actually, I should have left a long time ago, if I'm going to be surrounded by people like this, I'd rather not keep coming back before I cause some tragedy myself. Those stupid bitches if they only knew what happened would understand the respect that both Nanami and I deserve, but nobody knows shit. They are only there to make others miserable, I really saved the earth just to have it full of shitty people.  If it is horrible to have lost the girl I loved just to save people from dragons. And these bastards there are making fun of her.

"So this is where you were all this time" Tamamo said speaking softly as she approached me.

"I do not plan to return to classes"
"I'm not in the mood for any more shit for today"

"Classes are over, I came to bring you your bag"
"...."
"Are you better now?"

"More or less"
"At least I don't want to kill her immediately when I see her"
"...."
"But I'm still upset"
"How can there be someone who treats others like this?"
"I didn't do anything to anyone"

"You know we all make mistakes"
"She doesn't know anything about what you've been through, and she sure saw you as an easy target to take out all the anguish she had accumulated."
"...."
"...."
"It was because of Nanami that you got angry right?"

"Is it so noticeable?"

"You usually only get angry about really serious things like when someone's life is at stake"
"Also how you look is something that we all know you are not interested in"
"..."
"But for someone as calm as you to get angry so easily, it can only be for one thing"
"Someone said something about someone, you care a lot"
"That's why you defended me from that girl"
"..."
"And you got much angrier not because they insulted you, you don't care about that"
"But because they were insulting Nanami's body, right?"

"This is so stupid really"
"...."
"You know, Nanami hated her body too."
"She also hated how she looked and what she stood for."
"Nanami's parents, the emperor of Atlantis wanted the royal family to be seen as Gods"
"So he commands to develop new techniques to make it possible"
"When all that was ready, the same emperor tried it with his wife"
"They used their daughter who had not yet been born to experiment with him and make her daughter the first artificially created Goddess"
"But normal people would not see that, only that a Goddess had been created by the Emperor and would continue the legacy of his family"
"But as you can see the result was not even remotely what was expected"
"They wanted her to have superhuman strength, be devilishly beautiful, faster than anyone, smarter than anyone, and with scary animal features"
"Something that would command respect out of fear, or as Nanami herself said, they basically wanted her to resemble the Egyptian God Anubis"
"The result?"
"A fox crossed a cow and maybe a dwarf"
"Outside of how she looked there was nothing special about her"
"And what is worse, her mother, the empress, had become sterile as a side effect of the experiment"
"So Nanami was seen as a disgrace in her family"
"Her father tried to have more children by any means possible to leave more offspring than Nanami and for them to succeed the throne, but her death and the dragons came before"
"...."
"She was always telling me how much she wanted people to treat her normally"
"But she always saw her own body as a memory of the mistake that was Atlantis"
"She just wanted to be a normal girl"
"...."
"That's why hearing them make fun of me I saw that they were actually making fun of Nanami"
"I just thought that she would have wanted me to defend her from their teasing"

"You really loved her a lot, didn't you?"

"You already know the answer, I have never hidden it"
"..."
"If it wasn't for her I would have been dead a long time ago"
"..."
"It was thanks to her that I learned to fight well in the first place"
"And it was she who helped me train to defeat the dragons"
"..."
"Hell even after she died and I stayed in her body she left several of her assistants in charge of continuing my training"
"..."
"That's where I broke almost every bone trying to learn gymnastics and where my hatred of the subject was formed."
"Once the damned forced me to learn to dislocate myself and re-accommodate a leg to be able to do the stretch I needed"
"If I could time travel I'd make sure to kill them first"

"It must have been quite a difficult time for you"

"You have no idea"
"I have to learn everything"
"Learn to throw knives, use almost any melee weapon, fight unarmed"
"And that was the basics, in the advanced I had to learn with the Dark cloaks to lead to how to be a professional assassin"
"Stealth techniques, like hiding, stupid stick-fighting on the smooth side of a cliff on the stupid floating island, doing parkour, climbing walls"
"And by the time I was in this body, it was gymnastics, agility, how to fight using my legs mainly and how to use a giant sword despite my size as training to be able to use Avalon at least in some way"
"It is no exaggeration that everything I know how to do I learned by training with them and Nanami"
"If it wasn't for how much I went through training and preparing myself a long time ago I would be dead"

...

....

....

"Wait for a second!"
"Have you been manipulating me into talking about Nanami to put me in a good mood?"

"Well yes, but now you're in a good mood so you'll forgive me right?"

"You know that you are also important to me and I also love you"
"You didn't need to do that"
"You could just do what you always do"
"A hug, that would have been more than enough"

"Well yes, but this time I wanted to do something different"
"You got mad for her sake even though she's not here, so I thought you'd better also talk about what you remember about her and why she was special to you"
"After all, all this started because of her, right?"

"Okay okay, I'm fine now"
"..."
"Let's better go to the club that Haru make and apologize for being late"

After that necessary time to calm down again, I felt that I was myself again. And once again trying to fulfill my part, we went back to the Paranormal Investigation Club, better known as the club that Haru made because she had nothing better to do. But just before we reached the end of the hall where our classroom was we saw that the door was open, I don't think there were any more students eager to join when the club had not yet started with formal activities. Tama and I sneaked up and checked what was going on inside. 

"What you did this morning with Elise was very wrong Yukiko"
"You know that the fight that almost broke out afterward was your fault, right!"
"What would you have done if that had come to that?"

"Elise? The white dwarf?"
"The weirdest girl in the class?"
"She is the one who is acting bad!"
"To come like that and act like everyone should pity you"
"She is playing with everyone to make them do what she wants!"
"Just look at you! You've broken your tradition of being the delegate in the class and just formed the weirdest club possible for her!"
"What happened to Haru, my friend forever, the one who always obeyed the rules and calm"
"Ultimately we don't spend as much time together as we used to!"
"It's for her right! She also wants you as her girlfriend!"

"She has nothing to do with this!"
"I'm doing this because I want to!"
"And just like my grandfather I have always defended justice, what you did to her was wrong and you should apologize!"
"Also, I like men! I am a normal girl!"

"If so then why do you defend her so much!"
"She is the person who breaks the rules the most in this school!"
"It really seems like you want to be with her always!"
"What about me? Do I not matter too?"
"Let's keep doing the same as before!"

"I'm sorry Yukiko, but this is the first time that I can do something important completely on my own"
"This is the first time I can be me and show what I can do"
"I'm determined to see this through and see it through to the end"
"I'm not going to be the spoiled girl again, it's time for me to start moving forward too!"
"Elise can be a lot of weird things, but if there's one thing I know about her now, it's that she always does what she thinks is right"
"Like when she was the only one who defended Tamamo when Aoyama was bothering her and nobody did anything"
"Like when the whole class made fun of her and even if she tried not to offend anyone until she couldn't take it anymore"
"I can't be friends with someone who knowingly does bad things and doesn't intend to fix it"

"Stupid Haru!" It was heard before the sound of the slap was heard throughout the room.

Then the crying girl ran out of the room, opened the door with force and she ran into me head-on. I was prepared to take a similar hit, but all I saw was her yelling that this was my fault as she kept running. Haru was still inside, but without saying anything. Surely she had also been affected by what just happened. And all this happened because of me even though I did nothing. What a shitty day I was having today.