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I wake up from my sleep with a jolt of movement.

There's cold sweat on my body.

"Where... Am I?... Wait.... That's right... I was on the way of meeting Naomi's client."

I said that to myself.

"Hah fuh..."

It was the time before dawn. It seems that I wake up earlier than usual.

"Well, nothing can be done about it I guess."

I looked around me.

I was inside a carriage.

On the opposite side from where I just wake up, I saw Naomi there, still sleeping.

Her breathing is soft, not much noise can be heard coming from her.

It was a silent morning if i could describe it as such.

I looked outside through the small glass window.

On the outside, there's seems to be what remains from a bonfire.

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*Sigh...*

I sigh to myself.

'I felt complicated.

I just created what for this world probably an unfair advantage.

A weapon with the purpose of it's creation is overcoming the world.

I feel pride of completing her creation.

Yet, there's this anxiety that I felt every now and again since her creation.'

I stepped outside the carriage and lit the bonfire.

Thinking that maybe, the subtle warmth can help me calm my senses.

I take a look toward the palm of my right hand. 

 

It was shaking.

In fact, both of my hands is shaking

Everytime I remember about her creation, instinctively my hand would started shakes for the reason unknown.

It could be the senses of Fear.

Anxiety.

Doubt.

Or even.....

what seems to be, Happiness and excitement.

It's makes me uneasy...

Thinking about her creation and what this feeling could be.

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As for now I tried to clear my mind.

Or at least distracting my thought from what's here.

I started to think about my life this few months back.

I managed to become a magic blacksmith.

I managed to finished the school of blacksmithing within a year and go back to the village as soon as I possibly can.

I also somehow managed to semi smoothly run my business.

Hoping to help my village to be able to stand on it's own.

But, what's more impressive is that I even meet a noble, existence that is used to be so far away.

I never plan any of this to be happening, yet here I am.

It feels weird...

Not because I didn't like my job or my situation.

But, it's the opposite.

I feel blessed with this job and this day to day life.

I love this job and I enjoyed the free time that this job give me. 

To spend it with people around me.

But why?

Just a simple why...

Why am I thinking about how happy now I was as a blacksmith?

I said that I spent more time with people around me.

But most of that time was i doing my job.

I think about how I enjoyed living in this era of peace, when what i enjoy the most about blacksmithing is creating weapon.

A weapon.

Something that could be use to hurt.

But, even though this is true.

My mind seems can't let go both this job and my ideology.

Maybe I am a hypocrite.

But, if that's so...

If that's so....

Then, let it be.

If one day I will regret the decision that I made today.

I will fight to overcome that regret.

Because deep down. At least I know, that,

The time when I choose to make this decision.

I cared about people around me.

And I want those happiness to be long lasting one.

"Haa.... Fuh....."

I take a deep breath, and looked up to the eastern sky.

The sun already strated to rise.

And with that, I put off the bonfire.