I moved quickly before the doors closed on me,

 I didn’t want to put the box down to press the open-door button. 

As I moved toward my car, 

I couldn't help but smile 

 it was one of those things that made me smile no matter how bad the day,

 my car was a 2014 silver dodge charger with leather seats, 

I still remember the dealership salesman pitch  

“Like a bat out of hell, the ominously powerful Dodge Charger is a statement of speed and performance, if you don’t buy it, you’ll regret my good sir” he had said 

It was one of the only things I bought for myself way back when I was still a data analyst 

way back when I was single

 way back when I was way less sad than I'm right now   

I put the goddam box on the boot of the car took out my keys, 

hell it felt the keys were like a knife and mobile mixed into one 

as the keys came into my hands with a goofy smile on my face that I knew couldn't be removed.

“Hey there you silver beauty you had a good day,” I asked it as if it was alive

 like in the transformer

 somewhere in my mind, I knew that it no she couldn't answer 

but the heart wants what it wants 

I still fooled myself as I pressed the unlock button and the car chirped open  

“BAD,” I said in mock Suprise pretending the chirp was an answer to my question 

“Well, I bet you my left nut that it was, 100 times better than me,” I said while putting the God-damned box, in the trunk.

As I closed the trunk I noticed something completely odd,

 there was a bird 

a motherfucking bird that looked like an eagle but it was too small for it to be an eagle

 it was about the size of a crow a very small crow more like a pigeon with a slate blue back and a cream-coloured chest covered in dark markings,

 maybe it's a baby eagle or a kite or a flacon or a bloody hawk there are too many names for these guys. 

Not even a foot away there it was lying on the floor with its wings fully expanded and its beak open as it would bite me,

 strangely before seeing it, I didn’t hear anything strange but once it into existence in Infront of my eyes 

Suddenly I could hear everything 

the noise when it flapped its wing trying to fly I think, 

the noise when the talons made when it scratched at the floor, 

I move towards it,

 and as I got closer to it

 the more it struggled 

I didn't mind or rather didn't notice 

how increasingly feral it was becoming 

as I bent down to pick it up, 

Yes!, Yes! I know you don’t just pick up a scared creature but,

 in my defence, it was the first time I didn’t know what I was doing 

“Hey buddy,” I said in the most soothing voice I could conjure 

As I moved my hands to pick it up 

In a Flash

IT BIT me

 the fucker bit me. 

As I put my bleeding right-hand forefinger in my mouth

I looked at it with anger 

Look I was all for whatever self-protection mechanism the beastly kingdom had,

 but when you try to help someone and them in turn harm you then it’s a pain in the ass. 

I tried to suppress my anger and suppress the urge to just leave this bird to its fate 

I looked at it my most angry stare and said in my Monotone voice with my finger still in my mouth.  

“Listen here shit for brains I’m trying here to help you if you don't want my help keep moving and I will leave” like an actual idiot I tried to explain the situation to it like the bird would speak and understand English 

 “I m'entends” great now I'm speaking French  

But the strangest thing happen it stopped moving 

Does this thing speak French?

 Good Gracious God, please tell me that isn't the case,

 please don’t let that be the case

But to be on the safe side I continued in French  

“Hey my friend, just relax I will help you the best I can,” I said in French to it               

 This time the guy didn’t try to run from me or attack me, this time the mini eagle let me scoop it up. 

The poor thing was choiring 

“You don’t like the rain or the sun buddy,” I asked it 

looking outside at the weird whether the combination of the sunlight and a light drizzle of rain cloudy with a chance of sunshine 

I laughed at my self-made pun 

With the little guy in my hands,

 I made my way to the passenger seat of the charger,

 people always asked why I called it a charger, 

and not a car

 I always looked at them in a deadly serious manner I paid 30 grand for this car you are going to hear me say charger. 

As I opened the door to passenger door with my bleeding finger, 

It hurt like a thin needle in my finger 

But it was more irritating than painful 

 I still cursed the shit for brains as placed it on the seat, 

I took out my phone and opened the search lens app 

and took a pic of the little guy and searched the net,

 immediately I got my answer to my curiosity as to who this guy was 

 ‘The Peregrine Falcon’ 

“Huh, so you are a falcon” I looked at it lying on my black leather seat the irony of the situation 

I stripped my suit jacket and wrapped it around the falcon

 and then put on the seat belt on thinking that it would help the falcon keep stable

 while I derived to the nearest vet clinic 

 as I got in the driving seat I activated the car G.P.S, 

and type in the address of the nearest vet which was displayed on my phone, 

my GPS was one another thing I liked about my life I can’t even tell how many times this thing saved my ass, 

it made an alarm noise as soon as I cross over the speed limit multiple times it had saved from a ticket. 

As I was starting the car, 

I noticed the falcon becoming fidgety, 

I decided to talk to it in French God help I'm becoming a bird lady well bird guy 

“Hey, buddy you hungry? I know I 'am hungry, A good humiliation always made me hungry” I said in the soothing voice 

Seeing the thing calm down

 I continued as I pulled the car out of the parking complex 

and came to the tollbooth I pulled out my parking card put it on the scanner and the bar picked up opening, 

talking the entire time about myself my hunger, 

About my life, my late dad it was as if somebody had switched the On button on my sensitive side and I continued to talk to the bird in God dammed French. 

The GPS took me out of the Mississauga north towards Brampton,

 I personally never came here but the GPS never lies as it took me to the nearest vet which was another 20 min drive.  

The rain suddenly became fiercer but the sun was still shining it was as if the rain and sun were competing for my attention, I looked at the falcon 

“Look buddy Zeus and apollo want to talk to Me,” I said laughing at my joke 

As I drove through the bizarre weather the road become wide and open and weirdly empty, 

 Never in my life had I seen such an empty road,

 I felt my heart racing as I decided to speed up the car  

“Hey you ready to travel at speed, you can only imagine,” I asked the falcon as pumped the acceleration gamed the clutch and speeded from 50 kmph to 100 In no time at all with the road clear a little rain was fun to watch as the water droplet travel up like time itself was reversing with the sun illuminating the path I travel going faster and faster from 100, 101, 102, 105......And the faster I went the happier I feeling I hadn’t felt this relaxed in ages. 

But some out there didn’t want me to be this happy 

I remember hearing a screech, the falcon which I thought I was helping suddenly flew Infront of my face and scratched my eyes I lost sight for about a sec or so but that was enough. 

   One moment the road is there, wide open and safe, I'm cursing down this safe road in my 2104 silver dodge charger at breakneck speed and then next there was a screeching pain and loud noises, and then I remember the spinning was the worse as I regained my sight the first thing, I saw was the spinning 

I know everyone wants to hear about the crash after you meet a crash survivor the as I was also one of them once upon a time, I remember one of them telling me 

 "DAVID! I know you want to hear about the crash, I can see the questions in your brain as if they were cartoon birds flying around your skull. The thing is, there is the before, the slick road and the belief everything would be okay and the after, when I walked away from what many don't. It's as if it happened to someone else, if I'm honest, or perhaps as if I saw it in a movie one time. It was noise, mangled metal, and injuries that are healed up already." She had told me 

“Common April there must be more to the story than this?” I had naively countered 

How wrong I had been and how to write she had been,  

 Time slowed down for sure, but I didn't think much other than "shiiiiiiiit." My life didn't flash before my eyes. I did appeal to the Gods every single word I knew for him I said in mind begged him for survival to live I didn't want to die.  I wasn't faced with all my regrets hell I didn’t think of life at all I had in my mind was please let me live and if a survive I was going to peel the feathers of that DAMM falcon and barbecue it and then feed it to my dogs, but the time stretched out it felt like a long time before the impact I was done praying long before the impact. It was strangely calm between when I realized it was going to happen and impact, which I don't remember. All remember is the spinning and then the smell the rancid smell and pain did mention mind-numbing pain  

I came to as the car came to a halt strangely it was not upside down up upright on its belly, I remember thinking  

"oh",  

"you've been in an accident."  and then looking around me and adding "duh." 

I tried to move, but couldn't do more than lift my arms I tried to urge my body to move it but it didn't budge 

The rain poured on me I looked up the roof of the car was gone 

The icy rain poured down on me it pierced my white shirt stealing my body warmth  

As I started to feel cold,  

I began to look around

 Moving my head which caused me more pain,  

I was in excruciating pain  because of the broken ribs I think it was getting harder to breathe and then I felt something sweet in my mouth, seconds later blood started gushing out of my mouth 

First I lost my hunger where moments I go I was hungry and still thinking about barbecue

 I no longer had any hunger 

then I stopped feeling the pouring rain 

and then I stopped feeling the cold and the pain 

and felt a little dizzy as my vision darkened 

I cursed the falcon one last time 

as I somehow knew I wasn't going to survive for the EMTs to reach me 

then I saw a bright flash 

in which I saw my brother carrying around a sleeping child while Raquel next he was sleeping with her huge pregnant belly, 

I saw Susan happily talking to some guy over dinner at my favourite restaurant 

and I saw my mom lying on a bed with many people surrounding her and crying 

and then I saw nothing