With the sun blinding my eyes and a nice view on the park, it was a very enjoyable winter day. Cold. A blue sky hovered above me, crispy clean. A bush rustled and some small animal scurried away. A spiderweb completely frozen into a very fragile ice sculpture hung between nearby branches. No wind, no people, just an idyllic scene of nature on a beautiful day mid-February.
I wished the tears flowing over my cheeks were from the sun. My chest was heaving. Breathing was difficult. My eyes were hurting and were red from crying. How did I get in this mess? This is not how it should have been! It was not what I planned. It was not what I dreamed. This was stuff I never could have imagined in my worst nightmares.
I had to make a choice. I had to come clean somehow. I desperately needed to fix this. I wasn’t prepared to lose everything. This wasn’t worth it…