Sorry to hear that. Sometimes having an escape can make this world far more manageable. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to reach out 

I've come to terms with it a long time ago. I'm also grateful for what I have. I know there are others out there worse off than I am. Thanks for the offer. I appreciate it. I used to want to be a writer myself, but some stuff happened and I kind of lost the spark for it. Reading others works makes me smile though. I love seeing the worlds other make even if they use one that already exists as their canvas. 

If you ever get the spark back i do have some story ideas that i know i cant do justice. Coming to terms with life is a huge part of growing and getting older. Just dont let the shadow win. 

They already did once but I've got good family and friends who helped me come back from that. It's one of the things that taught me to apricate what I have so much. I am curious about these idea's you mentioned though. If you wouldn't mind sharing.