Hello. First, I want to thank you for reading this story. Each view from you guys makes me grateful that at least people read my works and there are people who enjoy it. And, I want to make it clear too that my personality isn't like my written characters and they are just fiction in case you judge me as an evil person for creating evil characters.
Uh, I won't beat around the bush again. I will enter the hiatus for a few months.
Even though I still can chat and laugh like normal in sosmed, I am really not fine behind the screen. Even as I was typing this, my hands were continuously shaking and my eyes were red from constant crying. Actually, I had written the explicit reason, but I decided to delete it. I just want you to know that I am in the most fragile mental condition in my life. But, no one in real life can sympathize and even
Anyway, I am not planning to commit suicide. Life must go on, but I am not fine. I will disappear in real life. Uh, not like ending life I repeat. I've decided to live alone. I need to calm my mind and go on mental therapy alone somehow. If u want to interact with me, maybe I will still be active in Scribble Hub Discord. Well, I am alone. If I don't chat with people, I will become crazy, won't I? Though I won't online for a few weeks maybe. Cuz aside from my mind, my body condition is affected too. I can't eat since yesterday. I am shaking and shivering.
I need to stop right now. I need to rest. At least we can get something sweet in the dream if we have a sweet dream. I want a sweet dream. Goodbye and see you again when I've calmed down. Once again thank you for reading. You are strangers, maybe some of you dislike this story, but at least you give my works attention.
Get well soon and best wishes
Get the help you need. Asking for help while in a bad place isn't weakness. I can't say I know what you're going thru but I hope these words offer at least some council in this moment.
thank you very much for showing concern, man. Your encouragement mean a lot for me
Hey men, i want to thank you for your work, i found it very fun to read so it's saddens me to know that you aren't okay, but i hope that you found the help that you need in maybe therapy or chatting, etc,. I don't know if maybe practicing some sport or training/working out can help you to cope a little bit but that is my recomendation that worked for me when i was down. Again, i'll be hoping that you can found the help that you need, i wish success in whatever you try to do, don't forget in take care yourself by eating and drinking properly so you can rest well too :) my regards and best wishes for you :x
Thank you for the encouragement. Im trying to practice what you've advised irl. Im doing light exercise, forcing myself to eat properly, and resting mostly.