[ 9 ☽ 25 ☼ 2015 年 ]

Anonymous Submission:
"Yooooo how are you? I miss you~~ Twitter ain't the same without you"

Yooooooo, I've fallen very far behind with anime and manga.

I think I owe a story for what I've been up to for the past month. I suppose in order:

1). reddit - I never really used reddit before and discovered its expanses maybe in July. Then I became reddit-addicted for several months, though I'm not using reddit anymore.

2). agar.io - Is a SCARY game. Scary scary scary scary! At least, that's how I felt at first. Then I started playing it and got addicted. Interestingly, I think there's some kind of philosophical value about cells eating other cells. It's all about your ability to make judgements and also communicate with other players without using words. I think that is the coolest part about agar.io, in the sense language or human behavior isn't necessarily bounded by words or the fact that we need to look human. You kind of look at the game and realize that every little cell blob has somebody sitting behind the monitor and get kind of fascinated by the thought that in this petri-plate universe, we all have our own personalities and ambitions that can be represented by a simple circle on a computer monitor.

3). omegle - Recently, I've fallen to a place without redemption, in the sense that I've taken anonymity to the extreme and visited online anonymous chat roulettes. Now, before you start looking at matcha with judgmental repugnance, it's not actually as bad as it seems!

.............

Or well, lol, actually it is pretty bad.

90% of the people on anonymous chat rooms are looking for people to sext them. (Typical conversation: send me pics / nudes plz / im horny / asl? / add me on kik). The other 10% is okay though, which is what I'll talk about.

I'll start by talking about a tangent. I'm a huge fan of "Humans of New York". My favorite thing about the concept is that you can stop any random person the street and ask them about their life, and typically they will have some kind of vivid and powerful story. We are all human, I suppose, and it is human nature to have PROBLEMS and EMOTIONS and EXPERIENCES and FEELINGS. I love the Humans of New York project because I liken it to an attempt to document the voices of the Anonymous. Voices of everyday people, so to speak. Voices of everyday people whom we ordinarily do not surround ourselves with and people we ordinarily don't talk to.

Online anonymous chat roulettes have two properties I've very thankful for. 1: They are anonymous. 2: They are a near-perfect random sample of people I (matcha) would ordinarily never talk to. I guess you can say it is a statistically random people of everyday people.

So what has matcha been doing?

Well, basically I go through only chat roulettes collecting stories, listening to peoples problems, and in general just appreciating Life. I've pretty much be doing this since the start of September, and I've talked to a whole lot of people. For instance I spent several hours talking to a 42-year-old man who has four kids and wife who told him a month ago that she doesn't love him anymore and thinks they should get a divorce.

I spoke a 23-year-old blind music major (jazz/theory) who started freaking out in the middle of a conversation because he got a phone call that his dad (and his only family) got in a car accident.

I spoke to somebody who shared her report card with me and expressed concern about passing the National Exams of her country that are coming up.

I spoke to a pedophile who expressed his feelings about not wanting to be a pedophile yet unable to stop thinking about it incessantly.

I spoke to another person who grew up in a neighborhood of meth heads who apparently broke into his family's house (they didn't have evidence that their neighbors actually did it) before; he told me he will never apologize for having "privilege" since every family deserves to grow up safe and happy (he now lives in like a super-wealthy neighborhood somewhere).

Lots and lots and lots of people. Lots and lots of stories, feelings, emotions, experiences, and things that I've never felt or really understood before. And I really appreciate hearing those stories and the people who shared them with me when I ask.

So yes, that's what I'm doing -- lurking on the Anonymous portions of the Internet, doing Anonymous things, and reflecting on the meaning of life.

^___________^ It sounds like a very matcha thing to do, hmm?

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【 fwachan - written 1257 days ago 】