Humans are greedy beings. Even if one is a kindhearted person, they're still greedy on their own way. Like how parents take care of their own kid. It's because of their greed to love their own kid. And how a person who donates for charity is because of their own greed. Whether it's good or bad, greed has always been involved to everything.

And same goes to me. 

I'm Lukas Hanses, I'm about to be 1st year of highschool this year. I'm excited, but I know that this feeling will just be a disappointment in the end. 

I want to have friends. Everyone does. Even a loner wants to at least have someone they can talk with. 

But I'm scared. I'm concious of the reason why but my stupid self is just devoured by this feeling thus it's hard for me to even communicate with people. But just because it's hard doesn't mean I can't talk with people. Complicated isn't it? Well even me myself is confused.

I want to be greedy too. For attention, for love, for everything that I lack. But why can't I have all these? I tried everything- no. I did my best for everything but why?

I know that I'm still a highschool kid so I want those feeling of affection even if these things will disappear as I grow old. In the end, the fact that being a student is only a temporary thing, I want to grasp this opportunity before I step into an adult life. 

But what did I do wrong to have a life like this? I just want to be happy live everybody else. Am I really that worthless?