Diary Entry

I had to write this down as the most incredible thing happened today, and I want to be able to remember every moment of it as vividly as I do now. Even thinking of it now, fills my stomach with excitement, and I can barely think clearly, my mouth just smiles at the memory and I drift off, thinking of his eyes, his beautiful sad eyes looking straight into mine. I had no idea I could feel this for another man, that a man could make me feel this way. But also, that girl. I will never forget her and her amazing body, everything I had wanted in a woman. My head is spinning and I can't think clearly, I can still smell him on me, and the fire, and the leather. And the sight of her naked breasts. I need to start from the beginning, but even as I start writing my dick is hardening and I am losing focus.

I was just taking a walk through the woods, trying to clear my head of all the craziness of the last few years. All those people I thought I had lost forever. My friends, family, and colleagues. I never would have thought I could miss my colleagues, but when they are gone forever, it somehow feels different and the annoyances seem to disappear. Now they are back and think things can go back to how it was before, but how can they? The world changed and so did I. And he helped me accept that today, and I hope I helped him, at least in some small way. I cannot believe I am writing this, but I met Bucky Barnes. And I fucked him.

I have gotten distracted again. I was walking along, and saw some smoke not too far in the distance in front of me, further into the woods. It was early evening, just starting to get dark so I thought maybe it was some guys hanging out, and I could join in or something. Thinking back now it was pretty dumb, I should have gone home. I could have been killed and buried out there. But something was drawing me, I felt like I had to be there. As I walked closer I got a funny feeling that I wasn't alone, but I ignored it and pressed on. Looking back, maybe it was that girl, following along a similar path?

I arrived at the fire, it was small and smouldering, and crackled occasionally with smoke filling the air. The smell as I breathed it in was intoxicating, grounding me in the moment. Somehow different to normal camp fire smoke. There was a man there. He was hunched over it, with a blanket around him and he was staring so intensely into it, I didn't think anything could rouse him. Next to him on the ground was something shiny and black, it seemed to glisten slightly in the light. At that point I panicked slightly but couldn't move, I felt so entranced by the fire. I took a step back and a twig snapped under my feet, causing the man to turn and stand quickly, clearly shaken.

As he stood, his blanket fell off revealing his naked torso and his missing arm. I had never seen a more perfect male body before. Even though his arm was missing, he just looked perfect and I felt confused. Was I attracted to him? I realised who it was and could not believe it. Bucky!! As he gained composure he half smiled and said "can you give me a hand?" I laughed and felt more at ease, looking down I realised it was his arm that was glistening in the light. I picked it up for him, and as I did I couldn't help but put my hand on his chest. He looked down at me at me inquisitively, and as he did so the fire crackled loudly bringing me out of it.

I stepped back apologising, but he just smiled. He reassured me it was ok, and still had this funny smile on his face. He asked if I knew who he was, and all I could do was nod, why didn't I play it a bit cooler?! I could have said Hulk or something...Still looking straight into my eyes, he told me about the fire, and that what he was burning was meditative, and heightens all senses and feelings. (So maybe this is why I feel this way, is this sensation even that real? What if I wake tomorrow and it is gone?) So we kinda got to talking, and it was nice, like we had always known each other.

I kind of went on a rant about the snap, and how the people that went don't get it, and he just listened. I feel bad because he was gone, but what he said to me made sense, I guess. He told me that I shouldn’t blame the people that came back for wanting their lives back, and it isn't easy for them adjusting to a world that had moved on from their very existence. I think he is right, and maybe I should spend a little longer thinking of others rather than what I am going through. But how do you adjust to a world that moved on? We need to find the way together, not like these flag smashers I keep hearing about.

I called him Bucky, and it was so odd, but in a nice way, like I was talking to the man and not the news story. He looked at me as I said it, and there was a sadness in his eyes, it was like looking into a lifetime of regret. He told me hearing his name again was strange, he was so used to being the Winter Soldier and people thinking of him that way. Thinking of him as a killer, someone to be feared. Hearing him talk like that, and seeing him doubt himself...this beautiful, funny, soulful person call himself a killer, and be so remorseful...

I couldn't help myself. I went over to him and just hugged him, I felt his body heave slightly and my neck get wet from his tears. It just made me pull him close. I could feel him more fully know. His hard muscles against my own rather less defined body. It felt odd, so different to how girls feel. But kind of nice? I could feel each individual muscle pressed hard against me. I think I also felt his dick stirring and I couldn't help but wonder if the serum had an effect on that as well.

He stood back, apologising. It was so odd seeing this man so vulnerable, I know he is not the Winter Soldier in his heart, but still...He told me he missed Steve, and broke down crying so I embraced him again. He was definitely getting hard, and so was I. I told him that was understandable, they were close friends of course he would miss him. I could not believe what I heard next, but it turned out Bucky loved Captain America, Steve Rogers. But Steve did not feel the same, he only ever wanted Peggy, and just did not think of him in that that way. I held him tightly, and with butterflies in my stomach whispered into his ear that I could be Steve for him, if it would help. He took a step back and looked at me, staring at me with his beautiful sad eyes, the light from the fire highlighting his super soldier body, every inch perfectly muscular and firm. The scent from the fire filled my lungs and I felt transfixed on him. I guess he must have seen something in me, because he didn't say anything but strode forward and kissed me softly but firmly.

His lips were surprisingly soft, and I liked the feel of his stubble rub against me. He put one hand against my face, and when we stopped he looked at me and there was a hint of a smile, that spark was in his eyes and I felt weak. "You're the first..." was all I managed to get out and he just laughed slightly and said "me too!" but then he frowned and said "my arm..." He looked ashamed and I assured him he was perfect. He wanted to take it off, and just be Bucky, not the Winter Soldier or an Avenger or anything else. I let him know that his arm does not define him, he is perfect with or without it. But I wanted him to be comfortable.

He looked so grateful and thanked me. He took it off and I walked over to him, put my hand on his chest and kissed him, whilst moving my hand over to where his arm was severed and said to him, "I guess I will just have to give you a hand..." and started moving my hand back across his chest, and lightly tracing down his hard, defined 6 pack and started rubbing my hand across his dick and he moaned gently. I grabbed more firmly and kissed his neck and his moaning got louder, and he stood there, this powerful man surrendering himself to me, trusting me entirely. I could feel how big his dick was and I was so turned on but a little nervous. What would he think about me? And would I be any good?

With hands slightly shaking, I unbuckled his jeans and pulled down his briefs. His dick really was big, but not overwhelming, just perfect in every way. I guess my nerves must have shown on my face as he smiled at me and said we didn't have to do anything more, but I shook my head and told him I was fine, but it was my first time. He laughed slightly, and then calmly said, "mine too, remember...", so I just had to kiss him some more, and the passion built back up, before I knew it I was back down on my knees and had his dick in my mouth. His hand was gently stroking my head as I tried my best to take it all down into my throat. Judging by his moans I was certainly doing something right. I felt so powerful having this man entirely trust me, and that I was able to make him feel so good.

I started to feel more confident and upped the pace, clasping my lips around, slurping all around his rock hard dick. His moaning intensified and he gripped more tightly onto the back of my head, thrusting into my mouth and swearing under his breath. I was gagging slightly from his dick going back so far, but with one final hard thrust he came in my mouth and I swallowed it all down, surprised by how good it tasted. I thought I heard him say "Steve" but in all the excitement I can't say for sure.

As we were both catching our breath we both heard a noise, sort of breathless and whimpering. Thinking perhaps an animal had been trapped or something, I walked over to where the sound was coming from and it seemed like it got quieter but it was strained. I carried on walking and suddenly came across the source of the noise. A girl was sat there, and from this position she would have had a perfect view of what we had just done.

I would have died of embarrassment if I hadn't seen what she was doing. She had this cute little skirt on and she was laid back with her hand up it. Her other hand was on her breast and she was squeezing it hard. She had pulled up her top and her bra so I got a perfect view of her, and she had the most amazing breasts I had ever seen. Any doubts I had about liking women were removed as my dick twitched just at the sight of her. She had clearly just finished cumming and her cheeks were flushed, but maybe that was from being caught fingering herself. We both stood there frozen staring at each other. I was unable to take in what I was seeing when Bucky came up behind me and gasped "Woahhh!", which seemed to bring us to our senses.

She looked at us both, back and forth with a slight frown on her face. "I'm sorry..." she started saying,  her voice whimpering and face looking shameful. But then she looked me straight in the eye, and then down to my crotch, and her expression changed to surprise seeing the clear outline of my hard on. "I just wanted to get myself nice and wet, ready for you", as she said this she pulled her bra off completely, and I knew I had to have her right there and then. Her breasts were so perfectly round, nice and big but still firm and perky, I wanted to feel them in my mouth, squeeze them and rub my dick between them all at the same time. If I never see another pair like them in my life I could die happy, because they were so perfect.

Bucky laughed, and said "well, it would be rude to keep the lady waiting..." and smiled at me. His eyes lit up as he did, and he looked so handsome and sexy all I could do was say "O.K.!". Why do I have to be so awkward?! As I turned back around to face her, she looked up at me hopefully with wide, innocent eyes. I couldn't help myself and was straight on top of her, we kissed passionately, and her skin felt so soft and smooth against mine. It was amazing feeling my hand slide down her face onto her soft breasts. I squeezed hard and she moaned, it felt so good feeling them that I had to thrust my rock hard bulge up against her. I kissed her neck, sucking hard on it I knew I had to have her right there and then, and feel my dick shooting cum up inside her.

I pulled up slightly and grabbed both of her breasts in my hands. They felt so soft and incredible I just had to squeeze them hard again, rubbing her nipples to make them hard. As she moaned my dick pulsated, and I unzipped my jeans, slipping straight inside her. Her pussy was so wet there was no resistance at all, she just felt so tight around my throbbing cock. As I slid in she grabbed hold my arse, pulling me further in and rocking against me. As I fucked her I lost all control, and an animal instinct took over as each thrust was hard and deep. My climax was coming already, but staring into her eyes I could tell it was for her too and I carried on fucking her tight little pussy. Part of me didn't care whether she came or not, but as she did she scratched down the full length of my back and it made me cum deep inside her, sending it straight up to her womb.

"Good job!" Bucky said coming up behind me, "But fair is fair and I haven't tasted your cum yet..." I stood up and walked back a few steps. I could see my cum leaking out her and Bucky licking it up. His ass looked so good as he bent over, and this girl was clearly loving what he was doing as she moaned hard, grabbing hold of his head. It was so amazing seeing him eat my cum out of this girl, and how much they were both enjoying it. I told her she was making too much noise, and that I was going to have to muffle her. I walked around and straddled her, and slipped my now semi erect dick into her mouth, slowly thrusting in and out feeling her mouth sucking tight and she grabbed onto my ass pushing me further down.

I could feel my dick getting hard again and pulled out of her mouth, sliding it instead between her tits as she squeezed them together. I kept alternating between fucking her tits and fucking her mouth, and she stared up at me, so eager to please. She started moaning hard as she came, and I shoved my dick straight in her mouth to keep her quiet. The vibrations felt amazing as she clasped hard around me. "Well, I think I got all of it" Bucky said as her orgasm subsided and he stood up, his dick rock hard again. "I guess I don't need to muffle you anymore then" I added, standing up beside him.

She looked in ecstasy as she laid back for a moment, smiling happily to herself. But then she sat upright and looked at us both, "Oh...but you are both still so hard..." and with that she took a dick in each hand and started jerking us both off at same time and taking it in turns sucking. Her hands were so soft, but she gripped firmly around my dick, and I moaned hard as she worked away. "Maybe I need to keep you quiet!" Bucky said as he leaned across kissing me gently. We continued doing so while being pleasured, occasionally she rubbed our dicks against each other and tried fitting them both in her mouth at once but that was never going to happen.

I swore quietly as I could feel myself about to cum and panted hard just on the brink. She must have realised as she turned to me and opened her mouth wide with her tongue out, staring up at me desperately with her hands pushing her breasts up. The sight was enough to push me over the edge and I unloaded all over her face, the sight of which seemed to make Bucky do the same and she knelt there beaming up at us and asked if she did a good job. "You did real good!" Bucky said smiling back at her and patted her on the head. "You did!" I confirmed, and she looked so pleased with herself.

After that I laid back on the grass, aware of the fire and letting the fumes overtake my senses. I guess I must have passed out or something but I woke up in my bed. I am not sure how he found my address, maybe off my drivers license. I guess he carried me all the way home and put me into bed. I know it wasn't a dream as he left a note, "thank you for being Steve for me, but I like you for you...B.B"