BEEP! ... BEEP! ... BEEP~
The sound of machines beeping seems endless within my ears. With my languid eyes wanting to rest, a glance let me see my surroundings. Tons of doctors and nurses running around me in panic passes by my sight. I could feel my breathing getting heavier.
Before I completely closed my eyes, I saw those pair of obsidian orbs filled with tears and agony begging me desperately to hold on.
'I'm sorry but... I'm so tired already. Forgive me my ----.'
Beeeppp~~~
With the last sound of a long beep in my ears, everything around me turned black and there's nothing anymore.
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The moment everything turned black I knew I was gone.
I was born with a weak heart and my health had never been that perfect.
I grew up bearing endless pain and ate countless amounts of medicine to continue living.
I just want to be a normal person.
So desperate for a normal life,
I read books to learn everything I need to know.
I wanted to cure myself, which is why I learn medicine.
I wanted to know everything, so I learned Hacking.
I wanted others to like me, which is why I learned Psychology.
I want to fall in love, so when that person comes I fall in love with him.
Give him freedom and don't restrict him.
I gave him almost everything except for my purity.
I wanted our first time to be memorable. I wanted to give all of me when we got married.
But before I can give him my everything,
He left me.
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It was so painful that I chose to ignore it.
I wanted to numb myself, but it was no use.
I feel like I'm going to lose my mind which is why I destroyed it myself.
I killed my feelings of love.
And now, I no longer believe it.
I don't want to love anymore.
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Until that person came,
He entered my closed world without permission.
Gave me everything I want.
Pamper me. Care for me. Love me.
I was his everything.
He told me I was his everything,
Only he stayed by my side without question.
Giving me the warmth of love once again.
I was happy.
Extremely happy
But,
Time never let it slip.
My time is about to end.
Before I could tell him my feelings
My life has come to an end.
Abruptly. Painless. But evident.
I can hear his hoarse voice begging me to stay.
'I'm begging you... I will do everything. Anything! Please... Please Stay with me~'
But my body could no longer bear the pain.
Before my consciousness completely blackened,
The last thing I saw was those obsidian irises drowning in tears.
Deep darkness and overwhelming grief.
I made him cry.
I'm sorry. I wanted to say this but I could no longer move my body.
I am unable to do anything.
If there is someone there who can hear me.
Please hear my only life wish.
If there’s a next life,
I wanted to be with him.
Pamper him. Care for him. Love him.
Only him.
Him, who became my everything.
I am willing to give up everything.
Please
Please let me meet him again.
And when we meet again
I will tell him that.
I am willing.
You are my everything.
Please stay with me!
My ----!
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Before my consciousness is completely gone, I seem to hear someone’s voice.
{What a strong child. As you wish in exchange for your life in this world then this God of Destruction will heed your wish. I will also spare that young one who dared to destroy a world just because his love died.}
This voice tone was mischievous, but I can feel he is strong.
{Once everything is over. Remember to repay me. Child, who shares the same name as me.}
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I see endless darkness in my mind. My thoughts were all cleared up as if there's nothing inside my head anymore. I've tried to think and only remembered two things.
My name and that I'm dead.
