The waves came and went, it wet his feet, legs, butt and chest. It would have made anyone cold, but not him, his skin in his limbs pruned. He had learned how to calculate the time using the using watch his father made using a stone in the middle of the open field. The shadow of the stone, followed the movement of the sun and was used to tell the time; it was unusable when dark but who needed a time when dark. But today, the sun had set for a few hours now and each second seemed like a year and each hour a lifetime.

“I am beginning to think the speed of time is variable, it speeds up when you enjoy things and slows down to a stop when you want it to run fast, for example when I go with father on his boat to, time seems to flow and the day tends to end in an hour. I hate this, I wish…. Sniff… things end quickly….” Banging his fist in the wet sands of the beach with all his might only causes his arm to get stuck in the sand preventing him from continuous banging. Jerking his arm out, he cries “Sniff… I hate this place… sniff… I hate chanda mama, why won’t he come to me. I hate myself…” Bang “I hate myself” bang “I hate this feeling” bang “I hate myself” bang. This time his hand really gets stuck, because he did not have a second hand, he did not have enough leverage this time to pull his hand out lying down “Aaargh” pushing down on his right foot he tried yanking his arm out, but instead his right feet sunk in. “AAAAAaaaarrrrrgggghhhh” he screamed at the top of his voice “Damn it, damn it, damn it” he screamed as he banged his left foot only for his slipper to get stuck in the sand. He slipped it off his foot and pushed it away from him, the slipper slid away just a few centimetres and stopped. Seeing this, he banged the heel of his feet in the beach, bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang.

He hurt the muscles in his thighs and hips but he continued, bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang,

he tore the tendons in his hips bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang,

a stone and jagged end of a few shells came in his way but he went bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang.

Before he realised he had dug a pit for himself and water was pooling in making it difficult for him to move his legs, but he still went bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

His body was straightening out because of the volume of the pit he was digging bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

Now his right feet had freed up, but since the pit was more towards his left, it was like he was hanging off of his right feet, his arms which was still trapped in the sand and back of his head till the back of his ears were now trapped in sand bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

The lubricant in his left hip were eroded away and every time he moved his hip, his bones rubbing against each other increasing eroding away each other bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

Because now the leverage was such that there was no sand supporting the back of his legs from his hips to his feet, his knees were now feeling the pain but he still went bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

His muscles started to tears up and so did his pruned up skin and the pool of water he was in now started to be dyed red but he still went bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

The three spectators to all this were looking at this scene with red-eyes, the father sitting at the beach had now closed his eyes, he could not even begin to imagine the frustration the child had, but he would die if this continued bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

Ditch was growing in the shape of a cone, wide at the top and thin at the bottom. Subsequently he lost the range in which he could freely swing his feet such that now the front of his foot was also hitting the ditch as well bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

It hurt as the sand filled his toes, it hurt as the nail tore off but he still continued bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

Then crack, his largest toe factured “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAArrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh” he screamed loudly so guttural were his screams, that it scared the nearly fishes and animals away. Grinding his teeth together he continued bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang

Now his kicks had lost all its strength, as his hip muscles tore up and his bones at the hip joint had eroded. His toes now were such that jagged ends of his feet bones were sticking out, this helped with the digging to continue. Now instead of bang the kicks were more like a splash in the water but he still continued splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash

The soil kept coming out of the ditch, he had lost all sensation in his left leg and his pain lessened. Spine twisted in a weird way because he was using his entire body now to get some momentum, splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash splash

When finally, his stuck right foot was free causing his whole body to strainghten out. The back of his head which was now deep in the sand till the back of his eyes slipped out because of weight of his body and now finally his arm was free. He no longer had strength in his hips, enough to move raise his body. His spine was damaged too, though his toes had not fallen off, but they were no longer joined either. His sunk into the pool of water in a featal position. A person will have a natural reaction, not matter how tired, to reach out for air. But even reflex actions needed muscles and bones to move and energy to move them. This boy had none of it left and perhaps no more conviction as well, conviction enough come out of the pool of water. Conviction enough to just straighten his right leg to push his face out of the pool of water merely 3 ft deep.

“Aaaaaahhhhhh I can’t breathe” he thought, budebudebudebude the sound of bubbles air coming out of his lungs as he felt his life ebbing away

“I guess this is fine” he thought bude (bubbles)

“What can even do, even if I live” he thought bude (bubbles)

“I will become fish food if I live anyway” he thought bude (bubbles)

“Why go through the agony anyway?” he thought bude (bubbles)

As he slips into darkness of sweet sweet abyss mind tunes into an episode from his past, an episode which he should not remember anyway, an episode which was locked in his subconscious cause he heard it when he was less than a week old and was on the brink of death

In a sonorous voice "””Yeah kid, remember this well, pain is feeling which keeps you alive and as long you live you can achieve anything in life. Remember this kid and cry cry but dont give up, cause i wont as well"””

His eye shoot open red cause of the water around him. He starts puching his right leg trying to jump start it. It hurts, but it works and his face comes out of the surface of water

“I will not die, I will not give you satisfaction of killing damned fate, I will work work until I kick your bu…. Owah….” Bude bude bude bude

His leg slips in the itny ditch such that his right leg rise above him against the wall of the ditch, the left leg crunched up in a disgusting angle and his left hand behind him as back too is against the wall of the tiny ditch. He bent in a V-shape at his waist with his face below the surface. Pain the of his left leg suddenly acting up makes him cry up and he shouts into the water taking in water and starts to drown

“Not yet” he thought bude (bubbles)

He used the right leg to push up his back and his left hand to push himself up “Not yet” he thought bude (bubbles)

Just as he was about to get his face out of the water the walls of the ditch lost their integrity and expanded as his right leg slipped and he slipped again

“Not yet” he thought bude (bubbles), as his now free left hand jutted out of water to grab the walls of the ditch. At once he pulled himself up only to slip back in again as soon as the sand under his hand slid again.

Tired and fatigued, he could keep his eyes open, he should have been sweltering with fever had it not been for the cold water, his lungs were fillin up with water, were aching.

A long time ago an interrogator was asked what is the worst pain a man experiences is being burned by fire or is it the pain of being cut open. The interrogator replied “Neither, you lose your sense of pain after being burned beyond a certain limit, in some cases you start to feel pleasure. You get used to pain from a cut as well again some people cut themselves for that shot of endorphine which kicks in to assuage the pain”

“Then what is sir, would you care to explain” Asked the interviewer, annoyed by the obvious lies in his replies

“It is drowing of course”, replied the interviewer “the feeling of helpness as the you hold onto your breathe only to be forced to exhale to live, when you realize it was the biggest mistake you have ever made, because you have made yourself less buoyant and sink faster. Eventually you let your killer enter your lungs slowing it down as much as you can, waiting for the help which will not come. The slowly filling lungs burn from the inside as you scratch your body to cut it full of holes to let the water out flailing about, which turns out to be the second biggest mistake of your life because, you are using what little oxygen you have left in you and you allow more water to come in. Your diaphragm tries to move your lungs trying expel out the water but no matter how much it is compressed nothing changes and you feel the pricking feeling initially which instantly increases to a feeling of being stabbed into your heart, which you do not, so since your blood is not coming out the heart keeps pumping. Pumping harder to maintain what little oxygen it has left into you body but to no avail. As the burning and stabbing feeling increase you flail about more, but to no avail, you try to grab on to a branch but to no avail. Despair kicks in, causing you to flail about more and more but to no avail, you shout but no one can here, you pushand pull but can go no where. Eventually you wait for the tremendous pain to go away as you feel your life ebbing away into nothingness”

The interviewer was speechless “….”

“Not yet” he thought bude (bubbles), but his body was not responding

“not yet” he thought bude (bubbles), but his eyes were shutting down

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I should have said never”

As he used the base of his weirdly twisted left leg push against the bottom of the ditch.

“Splash”

The force was such that he summersaulted out of the out the ditch

He was now face down, outside the ditch and his shin bone seemed broken disgustingly.

He turned face to the side and went “UUUUUUUUUUUuuuhhhhhhhhhh huh”

“huh huh huh huh huh huh huh huh huh”

Taking deep breaths…………… he passed out, he had a smile on his face

 

 

 

 

 

Suddenly the soil beneath his body slipped and he started slidding into the ditch, just then a powerful hand grabbed him by the shoulder and pulled him out and placed him carefully away from the ditch with his head upwards

Both of them slept on the beach that night.

Next day the sun rose and so the did the boy and his father

“Pops” said the boy weakly

“Hmm?” responded the father

“I AM NEVER GOING TO GIVE UP”

“Heh” responded the father