[Mayuri's POV]

"Big Sis, can I also keep your hair as that Jyoti does?"

"Hmm, of course, you can. Anything that puts your mind at ease"

My mind at ease? but, I am not tense, am I?

"Big Sis, my mind's already at ease" don't know why Big Sis would lie to me like this...

"Mayuri!"

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Huh?! wh-what happened? why is Big Sis staring so intensely at me? did I do something wrong? bu-but that stare kinda turns me on

"Y-ye-yes" Ahhhh! My face's getting all hot

"Don't lie to yourself! Your mind's not at rest!"

There she goes again, spouting lies like that. I don't ever run away from anything, Big Sis knows that better than anyone. I don't ever lie to myself, so why is Big Sis saying all this stuff? I am not like Mother. It's Mother's hobby to run away, is Big Sis comparing me to Mother?

"Don't look away! Look at me!"

"Kyaaa! wh-what Big Sis, ge-get off from me" Big Sis's being too aggressive! what happened to her suddenly? Getting on top of me like this, forcing my head to look straight at her.

I don't know why, but I don't want to look into Big Sis's eyes right now. I think it's probably because of this violent heart.

Yeah, yeah! It's the heart's problem. Yup, that it! Big Sis confused my heart with the brain. There's no way my mind's not at rest, I mean, till now, all of my life, I have maintained a cool and calm mind. There's no way something is different so suddenly.

Bu-but it's not like Big Sis to confuse things related to me, is she telling the truth? Am I changing into Mother? Am I also going to run away? Am I also going to run away from Big Sis, run away from myself, when things get difficult?...

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NO! I am not! I am not Mother! I am not Mother!

Then is Big Sis lying? bu-but why?

Why does she need to lie to me? is Big Sis changing? is Big Sis getting affected because of all the filth outside?

Did someone do something to Big Sis? that she's behaving this way now? Who's this?

Who's the person, that's changing Big Sis?

is it that Jyoti? Abhi? the stress for the future?

Oh! it's the stress! that's what changing Big Sis. That's what forced her to speak all this stuff.

"Don't Close Your Eyes!"

The-There's no way I can do that! If I open my eyes and look at Big Sis then, then...then what?

Huh? then what?

why can't I find the answer? why can't I open my eyes?

Am I actually, abnormal?

Is that it? Did I find the answer to all these questions?

bu-but I am normal, there's nothing wrong with me. What's wrong is Big Sis's current behavior...

...

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HUH?! No, No, No, NO! I didn't think that. I didn't think that there's something wrong with Big Sis. I didn't point a fault of Big Sis. Big Sis has no faults, there's nothing wrong with her!

The-Then that means there's something wrong with me?

bu-but that's also not the ca-case...

why did I stutter telling myself this?

Do I not believe that there's nothing wr-wrong wi-with me...

No! No! I am Normal! Normal! Normal! —

"I said Open your Damn EYES! *SLAP*"

...

Huh? suddenly my cheeks hurt a lot.

It stings when I touch it with my hands.

did Big Sis slap me? ...huh? why? ... she never hit me... she never ... never

"Now! listen here! Mayu~♥"

Big Sis turning scary, she's acting scary.

Big Sis's left hand is forcing my eyes to be wide open, there's water coming out of my eyes because of the air hitting my exposed eyes. Her right hand, grabbing my cheeks with full force.

Big Sis moved her Face closer, her eyebrows are now making contact with mine. Her eyes are roughly one centimeter away from me, Big Sis's hot breaths tingling my nostrils. She applied more force to her right hand, my cheeks are now starting to hurt. My brain is telling me to close my eyes, but Big Sis doesn't let that happen.

I don't know this feeling. This is the first time, I felt scared of someone but at the same time my bottom is getting all hot and stuff.

"Your. Mind. is. not. at. rest."

"Big Sis is wron—mmmmmm"

Big Sis released my cheeks and shoved all five fingers of her right hand inside my mouth, forcing my mouth shut. An intense amount of saliva is forming in my mouth right now, making Big Sis's fingers wet with it.

"Your. Mind. is. not. at. rest"

She said it again... yeah, there's definitely something wrong with Big Sis today

"Your. Mind. is. not. at. rest"

Stop saying it, stop saying it, stop saying it! My mind's normal!.

Big Sis, pushes her fingers further inside my mouth, making my throat feel tingly

"How much can you lie to yourself?"

I am not lying! You are lying! You are spouting all this nonsense. What happened to my kind Big Sis?

"How much can you run away? for how long will you keep on denying it?"

I am not denying anything! *cough* *cough*, her fingers go further inside. Saliva starts overflowing from my mouth, dripping from the corner of my lips.

"You think you can get away with this?"

get away with what?! get away from lying to myself the whole life? but I am not! I am facing reality!

"Is the Mayuri I know, such a coward? who can't even face the truth"

I am not a coward! I am not Mother! bring my kind and angelic Big Sis back! This right here is not my Big Sis!

"I can pretty much guess, what kind of bullshit is going through your head. I am your Big Sis"

No, you are not! Big Sis would never say such cruel things to me! Big Sis always, she's always...

"I see. I am not spouting flowery nonsense at you, so you don't love me anymore? I get a little violent with you, and you start questing my love for you? Did you start doubting your love for me? is that what's going through your head? huh!?"

No! No! No! I am not thinking about stuff like that! I love Big Sis! I love Big Sis with all of my body and soul! I will Love Big Sis even if she starts abusing me. She's definitely being violent with me because of love. 

Big Sis's love for me is overflowing, it can't get a proper direction, so it's expressing itself in terms of violence.

"Good, never doubt our love. If for a single moment, you start doubting it, I would know but, what happens after that, even I can't comprehend"

Ahhhhh! suddenly Big Sis turned so cool. I would never doubt our love, even I don't know what I would do...... No, I know what I would do. I can totally imagine what I will do if I started doubting our love even for a single second.

Big Sis pulled her fingers out of my mouth, her finger's all wet with my saliva, the fluid is dripping down. Big Sis starts rubbing her wet fingers all over my face, I start licking her fingers whenever they come in contact with my lips.

My face feels kinda slimy, but it's given by Big Sis, so it feels good. Her left hand is still stretching my eyes wide open, a large amount of water is coming out of my eyes, mixing with the saliva on my face. My eyes are all red right now, there's an intense pain going through my eyes. If Big Sis keeps forcing my eyes wide open for a few more minutes, I think there would be some serious damage to them but I don't mind.

It will just be a gift given by Big Sis, it will be the sign of Big Sis's swarming love. Big Sis's uncontrollable affection, left a permanent scar on me. Doesn't that just sound so romantic! it's just like those fairy tales.

"Who's in front of you?"

"It's Big Sis" it's none other than my Big Sis.

"Who are you?"

"Mayuri"

"Was your mind calm before?"

"No" it wasn't. I started doubting Big Sis, I started thinking of Big Sis words as lies. There's no way my mind was calm.

"You know? why your mind wasn't calm?"

"No" I still can't figure out the reason.

"You realize? that you are running away from reality?"

"No, but if Big Sis says so, then I must be" I still don't get how was I running away, but Big Sis never lies so it must be true

"Want me to tell you, your problems?"

"Yes" I feel like I can't anywhere without getting a starting help

"Your minds a mess, but it has calmed down a lot now."

"Ok"

"You are not facing reality, You don't want to acknowledge something, You don't want to accept some things that's why you are making all these lies in your mind"

"What am I not acknowledging?" I don't get it.

"If I tell you the answer, then what's even the point?"

"Right"

"But the moment you figure out the answer, I will help you to the fullest to figure out the solution"

"Got, it" hmm, I am not accepting something...but what could it be?

...

"Umm, Big Sis, can you release my eyes" it's really hurting, not that I mind it though but I think that's what normal to say here?

"Why? do you fear something will happen?"

"Nope~♥" even if something did happen, then it's all because of love

Hahahahha~♥ I can't get enough of this affection!. A love that goes so far as to leave permanent marks on your body! AHHH! No! No! control! control yourself Mayuri! I know it's really romantic! but doing that to Big Sis would be... it would be... MMMMmmmm... Haaah...Hahhh...NNNnnnn... it's no good!

"I see!" Ohhhhh! such a bright smile Big Sis is showing.

The pain in my eyes feels good, the water coming out of it, mixing with the saliva and sometimes making its way inside my mouth feels sweet.

Numerous red veins are filling my eyes. Big Sis is showing no signs of releasing it.

I can just remove her hand from my face, but I don't want to do that. For some reason, this is making me feel really passionate

"Big Sis, what do you want to do?" Big Sis's eyes are shining, there's definitely something that she wants.

"Something Erotic"

"Then go ahead and do it" why is she hesitating?

"That something is only erotic for me, it would mess with Mayu"

"Don't think about it, Big Sis. Nothing you can do will mess me up, it would just make me more pretty"

"Really?"

I nodded my head. Overwhelming emotions surged through Big Sis and she started crying. Big Sis pulled her hand away from my eyes and started caressing my cheeks. The saliva also getting rubbed on my cheeks.

"So, Mayu. You deserve punishment right?"

"Yes"

Big Sis's hand is caressing my whole face, wet squelch noises filling the air.

"You doubted our love earlier..."

the hand moved towards my left eye, and with two fingers Big Sis forcefully opened it wide.

"You didn't trust my words earlier..."

her lips are brought close to my face, and Big Sis kisses my naked eyeball. My left eye immediately tries to close down, but Big Sis doesn't let that happen.

My left eye started stinging again, more water gushing out of it. Veins started popping on my forehead, making it hurt my head.

"You just wouldn't listen to me..."

Big Sis's hand stopped caressing my face and moved towards my left eye.

"You just ignored everything I said..."

Big Sis's affectionate voice is making my heart beat frantically. Expecting what Big Sis would do, Happiness is surging through my whole body.

"AH!" it started stinging

Big Sis slightly pushed her fingers inside from the corners of my left eyeball.

"Does it hurt?"

"Don't make that worried face Big Sis, it doesn't hurt. I feel happy" I mean Big Sis's overflowing love is getting an outlet to pour onto. There's no way I wouldn't be happy. This is just like those fairies tales. The princess and the princess will do anything for their love.

"Mayu...Mayu......Mayu..."

"Yes, Big Sis......it's your Mayu" Big Sis's fingers go deeper inside, and she wrapped her fingers around my eyeball.

Blood started coming from the corner of my eye, it made its mark on Big Sis's fingers and started flowing down my face. It's literally tears of blood. The pure red and majestic blood mixed with the saliva on my face, turning into a slightly viscous fluid. The pain is surreal, it's making me nauseate, but the ecstasy is even more. It's easily overpowering this pain.

"Mayu, don't ever doubt me or our love again..."

"Yes, it's a promise" it's a promise for a lifetime.

"Also, If ever, I also start doubting you or our love—"

"Don't worry Big Sis, I will make sure to give you an appropriate punishment" there's no need to even ask that. I already know what I would do, but I hope that time will never come. It's our way of showing our immense love for each other, there's no way I would not do it.

"Ahhh...Mayu...You are just the best...I love you so much..."

"I love Big Sis more, AHH!" Big Sis started pulling my eyeball, the nerves attached to the eyeball are providing resistance.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! IT HURTS! IT HURTS! BUT!

"Ohhhh... Mayu... Mayu... My Mayu... My Mayu..."

"HAHAHAHA! BIG SIS! I AM SO HAPPY! FUCK!!!"

"heheheh~♥ but I am happier!"

"BIG SIS! BIG SIS! LOVE YOU! LOVE YOU! LOVE YOU! HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH♥ *PLOP*"

...

and the eyeball came out. Big Sis carefully handled the blooded eyeball and kissed the Iris, blood painting her lips red.

"Mayu... those veins hanging from your eyesocket looks pretty"

Big Sis came close to my face and kissed my lips, painting my lips with blood. The blood tastes sweet and salty. It's has a nice flavor.

"Mayu~♥ wait for a minute, I will get tissues to temporarily stop this overflowing blood, then we can go to the hospital"

"Yes!♥ as you say, Big Sis"

I touched the blood flowing out of my empty eye socket and started licking the fingers drenched with my blood. It tastes like a luxury, like the highest quality of elixir.

Today there's no limit to my joy, there's no limit to how happy I am feeling right now. I can't describe how much loved! I am feeling right now.

Such an overwhelming emotion of love and affection being poured onto me, it's a heaven on earth for a child not loved by his parents. It's the highest level of happiness a child can get whole parents abandoned her...

...

Huh? not loved by parents?......Abandonded?...

...

I see... so that's the answer.

I thought I didn't mind being abandoned. I thought I didn't mind being not loved by Mother... but that was just...

I see... so these are the lies I created... these are the things I didn't wanna accept...

I want to be loved by Mother, just like Big Sis's parents do.

I didn't want her to abandon me.

I don't want to say 'Thank you' to her for abandoning me, I want her to say 'Sorry' to me for doing so.

I thought I hated Mother, but it's a different kind of hate.

So, what do I want? ...

I just want ...

I just...want...

I...

another chance with her.