Day 511,

Mists are out this morning.  It’s got me thinking again about the idea of intentionally staying up through the night so that I can use the Catacombs flashbacks to try to translate the cathedral chanting.  With the way those dreams have changed since going under the black lake, I want to think that I’ll be able to handle it better now.  

The harder part will likely be convincing the others that it’s not a terrible idea.  I know how against it Lin was before.  

It looks like we’re in for another lunar eclipse tonight.  The mists have stayed low to the ground all day.  

Lin and Maiko have shown up to check on me.  I’m told Cass had wanted to come too, but Lin and Vernon talked her out of it.  They didn’t explicitly say why, but I gather that it’s because they don’t want her to see me like I was during the last eclipse (if that even happens again).  Funny, I don’t remember telling anyone else about that night, but maybe I did and forgot about it.  Not that it would matter if I didn’t, seeing as how Maiko definitely did when I disappeared.  Not that I blame her.  I would have done the same in her position.  Probably would have wanted her to while in my own position even, had I been lucid at the time.  

The point is, they’re here with me now out of concern for my wellbeing.  Worried that when the moon goes red I’m going to go running off into the woods to join the sprites and never come back.  Not that they said that in so many words, but the implication was clear enough.  Or maybe I’m projecting again.  It’s a possibility that’s been on my mind ever since I realized the mists were staying low this morning.  

Is it wrong that I almost hope something like that will happen?  Not that extreme of course, but just a taste of it.  Now that I put it to paper, that outlook is a little concerning.  Mostly I think it’s because I haven’t had an encounter with the nature sprite since it brought me back from the pool.  I never thought I’d say this, but I miss it.  Just when I felt like I’d finally really accepted it as a permanent part of my life was the last time I saw it.  

I should talk to someone about those feelings.  Try to work through them instead of letting them fester.  Probably Pat.  I’m not sure the others would be able to really understand without worry for me clouding their comprehension.  Okay, wow, that sounds self-centered and pretentious.  And ungrateful.  

I really am happy that Lin and Maiko are here right now.  Here, on the porch late at night waiting for a moon that doesn’t seem to want to turn red after all.  At this rate it’ll be nearly morning by the time the eclipse starts.  And that’s assuming we haven’t all somehow misinterpreted the weather and this isn’t just regular ordinary condensation spread across the yard.  We’ve been waiting out here long enough for conversational small talk to run its course.  Hence this writing.

All those musing aside, it’s actually been a pleasant day today.  The usual rainy season market day activities of rest and laundry, but now with company.  I’ve been missing that, what with Maiko spending the days off from helping me teach with Lin.  That and the fresh fish.  But mostly the company.  It’s been cute seeing how they’ve rubbed off on one another.  And probably rubbed off on me too, if I’m being honest.

I’m rambling now.  Probably best that we all just call it a night while there’s still any kind of sleep to be had.