Chapter 33: Lost Memories

“Is there something wrong Lord brother?”

Alice asked because of my silence, only then was I snapped out of my thoughts.

“No…” I quickly said as I fixed my wrinkled clothes in a dignified manner before standing up and bowing in front of the people who were cheering and saying how good I was with the piano.

“Thank you”

I said before I exited the crowd with Alice.

“-His face seems familiar… where have I seen that handsome boy before?”

“-Wow, what a handsome young man. Is he perhaps a noble?”

But as I walked whispers of people passed by my ear, however, I disregarded them thinking it was all bullshit. As for their reactions, since Alfonso rarely goes out the people of his town don’t know his face but rumours about him being horrible spread out like wildfire. I then continued walking with goals in mind when suddenly, Alice asked me again.

“Lord brother? What’s wrong?”

Hearing her, she was met with silence first before I responded.

“Nothing, I just want to check something”

“Hm?” She let out a disoriented gasp.

Alice however, kept on silently following me going in the alley.

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Time quickly passed by. As we continued walking I finally stepped in front of the alley, but Alice who was behind me looked way more confused. At that moment though, my legs suddenly trembled.

In the memories of Alfonso, since he was a disappointment in using swords and having no talent in magic, he was locked in their house and was forbidden to step outside as a punishment while being strictly taught how to behave like a noble that their family has criteria for. However, here comes Mary who helped him secretly go out at night while accompanying him. Since Alfonso was a curious little child at that time, he talked his way out with Mary, begging her to let him go outside. And because how Mary is pained to see Alfonso suffer, she wanted to make at least him smile even though what they did is forbidden. By secretly going out Mary made a secret passage for the two of them to enter. And that place lead to the alley I saw in the memories. Which is where I am right now. However, that memory was cut short when I saw a glimpse of the past Alfonso trying to go out without Mary. Since Mary had something to do with that memory. After that was only blank as if my mind was trying to block in remembering what happened there at that time.

I kept on having thoughts inside my mind but as I went deeper into the alley, my head started to spin as I felt fuzzy and puking.

“???”

My body trembled as the gust of wind soaring through my nose became disgusting. It was the scent of semen.

“What the…”

I then cursed inside, but my body felt weak, I couldn’t help but stumble as memories started to flood my head. Only to feel my eyes hurl tears from suddenly throwing up.

{QUEST FULFILLED!}

-Retrieving Lost Memories-

The system’s voice rang inside my ears but…

“Bwaaahhh!!!

AUGHH!!! BWAAAHHH!!!”

I vomited.

A fleeting moment but I couldn’t help but tremble from the memory I saw, a memory where Alfonso was being defiled by adults in this place. Because of his beautiful face as a child, a pedophile raped him when he saw him alone.

Just thinking about what happened after was enough to make a grown-up man like me feel my stomach twist and knot in disgust. As if it wasn’t enough to just rape him, he even called other people to…

“Bwaaaa!!!”

I puked again and again.

<Just why the fuck this was not mentioned in the game? I didn’t know that this body had such a story. That explains why he is so disgusted with commoners… I thought he was just some usual horrible third-rate villain but this… This is too much!>

“Brother???”

Alice who was behind me shouted in worry as she approached and assisted.

“WHAT IS GOING ON? LORD BROTHER???”

She said in panic but I quickly gestured my hand to stop her from assisting me as I wiped my mouth with a handkerchief. My eyes which were hazy then soon returned to their normal state.

To be honest… I’m still thinking that this shit I’m living on is a game. This explains one of the reasons I’m so reckless with my life when I saved Valentina, thinking that… If I die… I’ll probably come back into reality. But after I experienced how it felt near death’s door again… I thought that… Maybe I’ll surely die this time. However, I do not regret saving Valentina for I finally did something I’m proud of… Compared to that old me… I did nothing but taint my hand with blood. For me to see Alfonso as a truly human being and not just some third-rate villain character these memories of him reminded me that this shit is reality.

“Let’s go home, Alice… I think I need to rest. I’m sorry for letting you see such a pathetic side of me.”

I spoke like I didn’t feel something horrible earlier. Though, my head still felt like spinning, my perfectionism urges got the best of me.

“Y-…Yes Lord Brother”

Alice replied, she wanted to ask and pry deeper as to why I suddenly puked but her mouth was kept shut. I could only speculate that she knew that I won’t talk about it. However, to ease her worries,

“Don’t worry I’ll leave the recipe on how to make the ice cream with the maids. Just once I come back again promise me that you master sword auras”

I spoke. With her eyes that still contained worries, her chest soon let out the air inside her, as the tension surrounding us cooled down.

“I promise Lord Brother” She replied and after that, we kept talking until we got home gradually making the heavy atmosphere around us lighter.

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New_Leaf

As always, I'm open to any criticism... Especially the interaction... It felt kinda bland hmmm