I have failed in everything I have ever set out to do.

 

I dreamed of a world where everything would go right for me. That is how I arrived here. This place I once thought was spectacular. Everything seemed more simple. More pure. Ordered. But it was populated with the same humans from whence I came.

 

A species of mammal. So fragile, yet so strong. So different from other animals, and yet so similar. So intelligent, yet so stupid. So righteous, yet so abhorrent.

 

And I

 

I tipped things in the wrong direction.

 

When I performed the miraculous feat of traversing worlds, in that moment, I believed myself to be above that of a human.

 

I was a God. Playing as an avatar in a world built for me.

 

And now

 

Even if that world was never so pure as I believed it to be

 

I know I made it worse

 

So, so much worse

 

And I spiralled

 

And I indulged

 

I

 

Assumed that it was all unfixable

 

And I became the very embodiment of corruption

 

With the last of what little good in me is left

 

I would like to

 

Give you a chance

 

My child. My new Avatar

 

To do what I failed to do

 

To live a life where you bring empathy and love to others

 

To put an end to the mindless creature I shall become

 

Scum less than human. Less than an animal.

 

Even if you are born from the darkness

 

A place devoid of all hope

 

I want you to glow brighter than any light could ever shine

 

And maybe

 

Just maybe

 

It’s

 

Sort of a silly idea

 

But

 

Maybe if you can

 

Make this world just a little bit better

 

Then

 

Maybe that old place

 

That blue planet I find myself missing more and more with each passing day

 

Maybe you can prove that there can be a light for them too

 

I’m so sorry to everyone I have hurt

 

Everyone I will continue to hurt

 

But I am the monster that must be slain

 

I love

 

I love ever so much

 

Each and every one of you

 

Goodbye