A Sad Joke About The Weak.

When we talk about equality , I have a question from where does this concept of equality emerge from?

does it emerge from the pity or conscience of the strong ?

does it emerge from the petition of the weak?

No

it emerges when the strong can no longer ignore the weak and when the weak, as a group, corners the strong . 

what about a person who doesn't want to die but doesn't want to live?

When I was young , I was fascinated with the ideology of working hard and achieving my goals .

The more I grow the more I lost the will to live.

but in reality no matter atter what I do , I'm nothing special with a slightly trashy personality

by the time of my final year in my school, I had everything taken away from me . I became a hollow person

Regardless of what hobby I started to satisfy my emptiness, soon I would get bored of it.

while all the students were laughing and few crying with their parents on the day of graduation. I was standing all alone since I was a orphan 

I didn't even had anyone pick me up .

I walked to my Home with my crippled leg. Since it was the end of the year , it was very cold and was snowing. my weak body couldn't stop shivering.

my vision started fading in and out. every step I took forward made my whole body spasm.

I felt my whole body touching something cold.

Hah , I triped over.

I tried stand up but I could not rather I had no will to stand

I simply watched pure white sky in its most beautiful form

I felt a emotion closer to love for some reason.

seeing this snow made me think of her.

A girl with the palest skin , the whitest snowy hair along with her crimson eyes and those glossy lips

She was the love of my life also the one who made me a hollow husk with her absence 

the snow was covering my whole body.

-Lucas

a voice which was neither a female nor a male. A voice which was too similar at the same time foreign

-You are not what you think you are 

-what is this fucking bullshit?

I shouted towards the reaper

-I guess even A reaper has something say to me. huh

-...

Yes this person is a reaper .the reaper looked up and closed the eyes

-. despite the darkness that came your way, you still shine like those distant stars.

I felt something strange.

-I'm not a reaper nor any existence you know

What

-I'm a watcher , watching every life that exist and will exist.

Hmm?

-yours's not still finished

- what bullshit . do I look like I want live.

I was getting annoyed at this crazy person's words

All I received was silence in return.  .

snap!

I saw everything disappear after a single blink.

***

people hair and eyes gave somewhat of hint to their abilities and power.

typically it also indicates the species.

most vampires have a shiny white or gold colors

Lucas is an anomaly , not just as a vampire, but as being itself. since his black hair is rare and somewhat bewitcching

This world was ruled by monarchy 

I looked at the clothes laid in front of me. it was all black. with the symbol of the central academy. 

Lucas was similar to me

it exists to help the people to control their power and encourage co-existence between gifferent species

I dressed up and went to the dining hall

There sat a family .

Who all had the golden hair and eyes with their fangs exposing themselves a bit

One woman had bloody red eye these were my family members.

Unlike me ,Lucas was actually a good person who really loved these people.at the beginning. that is

But he was all was alone . Just like me

As I sat down. No one spared glance at me . As if I didn't exist.

The food was already served.

I guess I'm late.

Despite being a vamipire , they could eat normal food.

In this world , a vamipire would only drink the blood to become powerful.

This has to be from the person you love.

So in the table only my father had a glass of blood, presumably, from my mother 

Hmmm. Do they get anemia?

Probably not

In the book I read called as the End of the villain. Lucas belonged to the Duke family.the family of black rhoden.

 Lucas did not show animosity to MC . They were strangers  at first, who later became enemies.

Why?

Because his family wanted to adopt the MC and make him the heir.

It is scary and terrible when a good person loses his patience and love.

Lucas was already trying to get the attention of his family through vulgar act and creating trouble . Haaa you were just lonely guy weren't you?

Even that desire soon got exhausted and Lucas merely became indifferent to everything.

Thing about his past that was explained in the book .

It only mentioned him has a person who commited crimes in the past and was to be punished.

Lucas, he himself didn't cause harm to the MC

He was defeated with his bones broken everywhere.

But he was not weak. He was very fragile.

The food consisted of bread and potatoes.

It was delicious, regardless.

The taste was making me smile out of pure joy.

-hmm 

A weird moan came out my mouth .

A sharp gaze came out no where.

It was from the woman with the red eyes.my sister, Stacy

Despite her eyes, she was one of the people who pitied Lucas .

But her way of showing affection was pretty harsh.

-...

I just started to eat. Silently

Other then Stacy,my younger sister .The others were 

Duke rhoden,my father

Silvia, my mother

Peter ,my little brother

None of them have any type shared history with Lucas other than the fact that Lucas was related to them by blood 

In the book,it pretty much showed Lucas was the only one who tried to be family with them.

Lucas had no one to say what is wrong or right.

He became a gray person with a empty shell as a personality

After he was defeated in the book it showed him committing suicide.

If I was him, I would have done it long back. Truly a pitful bastard

After finishing I stood immediately and left without sparing a glance

I had to go to the academy

People join the academy when their 14 years old. Lucas was 15 years old.

Today was the first day 

despite  being a fantasy world , it had the modern elements which I was familiar with. there were cars running and building were pretty similar to European countries.

the people were a mixture different species . all having different colors . it would pretty hard for any type of color discrimination to take place.

the path from the duke house to the academy was short.

the academy was the biggest building I've ever seen . I couldn't see the top of it 

all the students were assembled in a big colosseum. in the center of it was the head of the academy. He was a dragon in his humanoid form 

He  was the only person other than me to have black hair . his eyes shining with a purple light. his skin was paler than most vampires.

in this world vampires don't have the weakness of sun. their only weakness is white blood from the angels.

Angels are mythic beings whose existence was not clearly mentioned in the book.

the only mention was about the origin of the MC. he was a child born between a vampire and a angel.

even though he was a vampire at the beginning , the angel bloodline did away with  his vampire side making him a complete and pure vampire. after this , I did not read the book due to my school exams .

until his awakening the story is pretty much a story of a munchkin novel.

but for some reason I was obsessed with this story.

-good morning, children. I am lucifer

The Dragon's tone for some reason irritated me.

-welcome to academy. here you will become the stars which illuminate the world in the unforeseen future.

This tone!

-you'll guided to your rooms by our little fairies. your classes will start tomorrow . today you will be choosing your curriculum based on your power and weakness. then please get yourself comfortable with the surrounding.

The dragon vanished into thin air

rooms? I never heard about it in the book.

in the book, it only showed the daytime and the classes. I guess it was never mentioned in the novel.

-Fairies are allotted to you based on your nature and species.

Hmm. Fairies are similar to summoned beasts. each person has their own fairy. The fairies allotted are actually a trap set by the academy to monitor the students

The book never spoke about Lucas's fairy . that book really skimmed over a lot of detail. It had way too many plot holes.

-hey

a cold voice came behind me.

-at least behave properly , you will be left alive

my whole body shivered. It was the dragon, who only few moments was smiling and left 

-if any of the student were to be harmed, I will end you.

why?

-...

Even though the pressure starting to break my bones. damn this weak body.

crackcrack tak

I simply stared at the dragon.

I kind of expected this sort of behavior. Because in the end I'm just a villain.

If it weren't for fear of getting hurt and pain, I would have killed myself over a million times.

I'm a person who doesn't want to live but at the same time afraid of dying out of pain

but if death came knocking on my door , I would let myself taken away.

-listen here

I started to speak.

-I'm sorry about my previous behaviors .please forgive , sir

I put on the most saddest and regretting face. in truth my face was as cold as it possibly could get.

-you..

The dragon, Lucifer tried to say something but didn't.

I went to my room . it was shabbier than other's rooms and was dirtier.

it was a obvious sign of discrimination.

but hey ?

isn't the management forgetting something ?

I'm a trashy villain

and what do villains do?

kukukukukuku

***

it was regular morning in the duke's household 

the master and family were in the dining hall .

I'm the maid that was assigned to 'him'

that XXXing trash

-Young master Lucas , it time for supper.

This young master was pathetic.

despite being a vampire, he is fragile. His bones would break when he exercise. his hair and eyes were even more ominous 

and the Master deemed him as unworthy to be a member of his family , the household treated as if he didn't exist.

First I pitied him, but when he started sexually harass the maid , beating and sometimes crippling people, thinking he would get attention from his family

It was humiliating to even see him.

eventually he became a something that was not human. his eyes which used to shine like the night, now became a dull and empty black stain.

he act as if he wasn't guilty about ruining people life . as if we were mere toys.

when I raised my head look at him my whole body flinched. His eyes..

His eyes gained a red tint in his eyes

his gaze was much more suffocating . it was similar to a lifeless eye.

when he entered the dining hall. his attitude was way different than yesterday . 

he looked at his family as if seeing a mere painting.

he then turned towards his sister. their eyes met each other.

he stared at his sister was if she was a thing.

None of the former familial love was evident in his eyes. there was only the gaze reminding me of the time I nearly froze to death in the north during the winter.

maybe the duke and the family didn't notice the change since they were never really interested in him but all the staff and maid felt it

The young master himself was behaving like a being higher than everyone

after finishing his food , he left as if he couldn't be bothered more. he didn't even greet the duke .

he didn't care about the ethics . the duke didn't notice it

but young lady Stacy definitely noticed . as her face was filled with horror and heart wrenching expression 

***

ever since I was young I pitied my brother due to his weak nature.

but I also loved him for his personality. despite treatment he received from us he loved us more than I ever could .

But this love soon evaporated .

He became a vulgar scum. I understood the reason but I can't condone it

but I couldn't hate him. nor did I tried to help him

 I simply pitied him.

I never involved with his life and simply left him to suffer.

I thought I would move on with my life.

but this morning, everything about him changed.

He looked at us as if we are somebody, who were not a part of his life.

he looked at me as if I was passing by stranger.

I know I don't deserve to be treated as a family by him , whose suffering was this family 

I couldn't get rid of this feeling of a terrible foreboding.

and that feeling was true .

***

in this world the abilities are either imbedded in the soul or earned throughout their life

in order for me to create even the little disturbance, I need power.

the only way for Me , a vampire to get power is to drink the blood of a person who I love.

it is a big problem for me who doesn't have feelings towards anyone.

currently I was laying in the bed that was covered in dust.

-hey fairy

A Little fluffball rushed towards me.

-are there newspapers in the academy.

-no sir . instead the students can spread any information in the notice board.

-notice board?

Hmmm

it would be really easy to spread the news that my room is this degrading. but if it Lucas's room, everyone would complain to the management that I should be in a even worse room

wait a second, Isn't there a person who would fight against the injustice the world?

isn't that person a hero who will protect the weak, me from the evil, this world?

ah. there is. 

it is my soon-to-be stepbrother.