The Eighteenth Reply - Nine Years Prior
To Sonia, whom I have great seasonal compassion for,
Winter has joined Bellchester in full force, and as I stare at the powdery white blanket which has covered all, I am thinking a great deal about how much more suffocating it must be in frigid Tuscovy. I hope you spend the whole season comfortably by a hearth, drinking fragrant tea and waiting out the dreary weather; and with the knowledge that had I the means, I would be overjoyed to share a cup with you and chat away the months. As pleasant as your written company is, I am just as sure you would make excellent conversation in person - provided your oral lessons in Emrish have been as successful as your written ones.
I must say that while I do appreciate your suggestion of how to ease some of my loneliness, I cannot, in my present state, truly consider it. I suppose I have no particular qualm with the concept of a servant - here in Bellchester we refer to them as “collars'' in reference to the leather bands they don around their necks - nor do I struggle financially to such a degree that I could not afford the burden of care. However, I find a history with servants in my life which compels me to avoid taking one into my own home.
It is not a particularly unsavory history, not a fear of crime or hostility or any of those terrible stories you hear circulated upon occasion, but rather that I possessed a very close friend who was a servant in my family before I set out on my own. She and I were close as can be, inseparable as if we were dear sisters, and I trusted her in a way I have never trusted anyone before - and likewise, so did she. Until, that is, my own ambition set me onto a path which cast her aside without much thought - an unfortunate sacrifice I was willing to make at that time. I harmed her greatly, and in her pain, she likewise stung me back in such a way I am sure I will always feel the scars from it. All of this is simply to say, I do not, at this time, desire to court such possibilities again.
I am learning to accept that to be Cordelia Jones is to be, as a matter of fact, lonely - save the brief holidays I receive from this state of being, such as receiving a letter from you. My reputation as a detective, private but in the hire of notable persons, has finally begun to settle in earnest, providing me with a stable and fascinating supply of scandal and intrigue. On occasion, I feel I contain secrets powerful enough to topple a scattered handful of prominent names within Bellchester. How could I possibly have time for anything else?
With great esteem,
Detective Cordelia Jones
Fascinating to watch how her valediction and signature change as she does!
fun little word games in letter writing :)
I am learning to accept that to be Cordelia Jones is to be, as a matter of fact, lonely
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Poor baby just needs a hug
@Ms.Appropriately And she has to wait eight more years to get it! 😭