Our nurse negotiated one last day off before the assignment, which I needed to accommodate. After that fight with XX07, I returned to our dorm. My brothers had all left, tending to their business, leaving me alone in bed. Naturally, curiosity got the best of me.
As I leaned forward, I explored my new slit with gentle curiosity. There wasn't much to see from that angle. My teeny tiny dicklet was still there, though buried deep inside puffy outer lips. I could feel with my fingers that I barely had any inner labia. As much as I hated not having a proper penis, my pussy still looked very cute. It was satisfying my curiosity more than any sex ed so far.
I spent some time contemplating these changes with conflicting emotions. I caressed the whole thing in a nonsexual way, which felt relaxing. With my index finger, I reached the entrance of my vagina, recognizing that things were different now. A hymen was there as well, sealing it. Of course, there was no way anything or anyone would ever take my virginity away.
"Looking for minerals?" asked XX04, entering the room.
I quickly took a blanket and covered myself. "I... Uh, what are you doing here?"
"Can I talk to you?" he asked.
"I'd rather not."
"Why not? You want to see mine?" he asked, pulling his pants down and showing me his mini penis.
"That's not necessary," I replied, looking away. "Can we not talk about this right now? I need some time to process everything."
"I don't have much time left for what I want to discuss," said XX04.
"Which is?"
"Leadership," he said with a solemn voice. "I don't want to be squadron leader."
"Well, good thing you're not," I joked. Surprisingly, XX04 didn't laugh. "I didn't want either. You guys needed me, and there I was. I never asked for it. Now, they will need you. That's all."
"But I'd be a better bait! I could protect our brothers!"
"And then, who would be the leader? Seven? I'm pretty sure he'd want that."
"Disaster!" said XX04, and we both chuckled.
"Exactly! Anyway, welcome to my world. Well, my former world. I bet you'll find it challenging, just like I did," I sighed.
"Really?" XX04 asked.
"Actually, I might have been deceiving myself a little. Sometimes, I embraced it as well."
XX04 looked more determined than ever. "So you still think I should lead?"
"Of course!"
"Will I be your leader too?"
"Well, why not? Should I call you chief?"
"Sounds odd... Just keep calling me Four." An awkward silence followed. "Any advice?" he eventually asked.
I sighed and took a moment to think. "One shot?"
"One kill!" He smiled.
"Yeah, you've got this. What strategy will you use out there?" I asked.
"Bait, of course. Do you think I want to end up like you?"
"Then who will you send in first?" Not XX02, I hoped.
"If I was a moron, and we both know I'm a moron, I'd send Leggy. But that would be the best way to lose a brother for free and pick someone else anyway. So, I don't know. Nine?"
"Good choice; Nine is composed and has a strong mind. I'd have picked him too."
"Honestly, you might face more trouble here than Nine out there. I'll be able to watch out for his back, but who will watch yours? How will your 'I'm still a fighter' mindset end up?"
"But I'm still a fighter! What would you want me to do?"
"Be a carer? Pair with me?"
"Pair with you???" I asked, shocked.
"What? What's so wrong about it? Think for a second!" XX04 seemed enthusiastic about the idea.
"I was thinking more about partnering with Two, actually..."
"Two? Have you seen how pathetic his cock is? I mean, no offense, but look at how I've developed! Think of all the fun we could have!"
"All the you could have, you mean?" I replied.
"Why are you becoming so self-centered all of a sudden?"
"Self-centered? I'm self-centered?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"Of course! Why won't you show me your pussy? It doesn't cost you anything!" Without warning, he pulled hard on the blanket. I was sitting cross-legged, so it immediately revealed it. I closed my legs to hide my crotch again.
"See? Selfish! But I saw it!" He grinned.
"Don't you think what you just did was selfish?" I asked, getting upset. "Don't you understand that I'm feeling insecure? That at any moment, my closest brothers could turn into sexual predators and stab my pussy with their dicks from behind? And what do I get from all this, huh? What's in it for me? You're all selfish! And I'm left with nothing!"
"Well, you could have dicks!" said XX04.
"I don't want your dicks! I want my own!" I shouted.
XX04 didn't reply, and I calmed down. For minutes, he just sat there next to me, looking pissed.
"I just hoped one day you'd be mine," he eventually said, sounding sad. "We could have, I don't know... A special relationship? I always wanted that, even before you became a woman. I mean, you understand."
I sighed and put my hand on his knee. "I understand. I hoped for the same with Thirty. But you can't give me what I want. And I can't give Thirty what she wants," I sighed. "This whole system is so fucked up. The genders, the roles, and the rules... Why can't I be a fighter and a woman? It makes me want to tear everything down and start over."
"What now?" he asked. "Since I don't see this changing anytime soon."
"Why don't we... just take one day at a time and see what tomorrow brings? Alright?"
XX04 nodded. "If I don't pair with you, who will I pair with? Did you ever think about that? There are two of you and 28 of us."
I shrugged. "What's your point?"
"I did the math. We're all going to die. And in five years, you'll be lucky if you can pair with any of us. When I saw what the General did to you, I hated him. For the pain he caused you. Then, I thought: I should thank him for allowing me to pair with you. Now, I think I hate him again."
XX04 left, and despite disturbing me like nobody else could, I explored my pussy again. More discreetly, that time.
thanks author another good chapter i liked it.
now i don't get 4 this was a very weird discussion and it had many omissions.
If I was a moron, and we both I'm a moron,
i think you should add "and we both know i am a moron" this .
also i don't get this too
my pu**y with their d*cks from behind?
OK that is all i found but some explanation for this weird chat or i don't know something to talk about next chapter i don't get it. also why don't they send 7 as bait since he like sucking the general's balls so much.
Ouch, you're right! Typos everywhere! Thanks for letting me know, I'll fix this right now!
That's gonna be one hell of a decision...