The dream that came to you was something you didn't want to see.

All throughout today you tried your best,

you probably knew that you wouldn’t succeed.

 

“I would just go to see.” A memory pops.

“I should say something positive to her.” You hear your voice.

“There are going to be some consequences.” Something tells you.

 

You acted as if there were no distortions, no middle man.

But the reality for you was different.

No matter how much you wanted to escape, you fell into the trap.

 

“Everything here is happening just like in the novel?” You asked yourself.

“I saw this scene already.” You noticed.

“I should help her, that’s what a normal person would do.” You decided.

“There is no way that this…” You lamented.

“I will prove that I can control my own destiny. You shouted.

 

 

It was simply too naive and quick to think you could simply live your life here.

At every step and word, you were reminded that you were in fact inside of a novel.

 

“Did you really have to do that, Minorta?” Someone said.

“You need to be careful not to break any books here, Minorta. They are full of love, like people’s hearts.” Another said.

“To be happy for them? What do you mean Minorta?” A girl’s voice echoes.

“You have to understand, killing is not the solution!” A scream filled your find.

“I will hold onto…you.” A sound lingers.

 

You knew that the world around you was fated towards one direction.

That no matter what you did you couldn't prevent events from happening.

 

“This is your hopelessness.” Someone tells you.

 

That no matter what you did you knew what was going to happen.

That no matter what you did you were an outsider, a reader,

 perhaps an observer, but definitely not an actor.

 

“Do you feel like others are able to tell you better how you feel?” A voice reminds you.

“I wanted to help Ellien.” You explain. “But in reality I was helping myself.”

 

You wanted the story to change you, to tell you what is the right thing to do.

 

“I will protect her, I promise.” Another voice mentions.

“No Minorta, I tried to protect myself.” You answer. “I tried to prove that I could control my destiny. That is why I came with you.”

 

You wanted to be able to change the story to suit your needs.

 

“Okay, but don’t do anything dangerous, okay?” Yet another voice.

“What I was really afraid that I couldn’t.” You utter. “I knew from the start that no one would die. I faked my fear.”

 

You wanted to become a person who protects her friends, a normal person.

 

Your new life is precious, isn’t it?

You don’t want to lose it, right?

You want to continue on living, no?

 

“I will hold onto…”

The line repeats itself.

 

But in the end you were reminded of your place.

The spirits told you that you don’t belong here.

They made you fear that the truth about you can be revealed.

But lucky for you it wasn’t, not yet at least.