This one's gonna hurt a bit. It's been suggested that I release it here, instead of hide it away...
Back in 2003, I joined a Website Called Gaia online. The first day there, I met a wonderful person. She liked a little poem I wrote, and asked me to write her a story. She set the themes, and said it was to cheer up a Friend. I didn't know at that time, but her Friend would be the first Trans-girl I ever met. The three of us Would always chat and game together, online, and though they lived several states away, we were close. I was overjoyed when they started dating, and embarrassed when they both referred to me as their Secret Boyfriend. Then 2006 happened... I knew She was Sick, But not How, until March of 06, when she finally told me. Leukemia. It had been in remission for 4 years, and suddenly came back worse than ever. And in November of that year, she was gone... and a month later, I lost my other friend To A hate Crime.
Arianna, My Dear Anna, was 15. She fought until her last breath.
Amber was 17. Killed by a Skinhead with Swastika Tattoos.
They were probably the Only people I've ever felt Anything approaching Romantic love for. Back when I believed in such things.
The story I wrote for them, I've held close since... But a Psychiatric Student Friend of mine has suggested I share it... because, even after all this time, Reading old messages from them HURTS.
So here it is, Uploaded when I can bring myself to do so... In memory of Those Two, beautiful Angels...
Anna. Amber. I miss you everyday.
Matt R.
Rest in peace…
Thank you for sharing your story and the sad tale that comes with it.
May their souls fly in the place where freedom is understood universally…
Here is to your friends, may their next adventure be filled with good friends like you.
The universe is big, eclipsed only by the potential for existence.
Keep your chin up, celebrate their lives, live long yourself and I bet they will be looking forward to hearing all your stories.
I'm sorry to hear that.