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Dysphoria, Online Harassment, Panic Attack.

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@Ynixiras2102 5 hours ago (edited)
Okay. I want to preface this by saying that this is not to be taken as a negative comment. My goal here is to provide ways to improve a channel I love to bits.
That being said, I think you should consider doing a face reveal.

Okay so hear me out: I know how it sounds, i know that’s your choice ultimately, ofc. I don’t want to take that away from you. But from a quality standpoint, at this point i think it hinders your style of video not to do one.
To elaborate, I believe we can categorize minecraft videos in two big styles:
- the ones that deal with technical subjects
- the ones that are more focused on the entertainment aspects
And i think the latter category really benefits from having a visual connection with the creator. This increases the engaging nature of the video tenfold. Ergo, a face reveal would be the next logical step for your channel. (Maybe at 100k?)
Sorry if i’m overstepping here, but i thought you might be interested.
Edit: Tysm for the short, I like when you talk about those little things people can easily miss :)
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@rowanelson899 5 hours ago
Bro wrote an essay on a short fr

@truckGabine 5 hours ago
wtf leave him ALONE?? Why does this community have an OBSESSION with his face???

@Ynixiras2102 5 hours ago
@truckGabine Apologies. I did not intend on pressuring screw to show his face. I only wanted to share suggestions on the next step for his channel. He’s free to not take it into account.
I did not know this was a recurring demand from his fans.
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@coocooingberlingo 5 hours ago
Very well crafted suggestion, I like it! And I’m pretty sure that’s already what he’s planning

@mechaenjoyer2883 4 hours ago
@Ynixiras2102 I can understand wanting to help but what you posted is really inappropriate and deeply disturbing. Screw is a person with his own agency, if he doesn’t show his face, there’s probably a good reason for that.

@WharfingOut76 4 hours ago
lol

@Ynixiras2102 4 hours ago
@mechaenjoyer2883 I get that. That’s definitely a component. But, having done videos myself, i can say that marketing is a big aspect of it all. As coocooingberlingo argued, it wounldn’t be far-fetched to assume he does this for marketing purposes. My comment was only intended for the case that he does.
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@mechaenjoyer2883 3 hours ago
lqezkbgqejkk okay, die on that hill if that’s your guilty pleasure instead of dealing with the simple fact you made a rude comment

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@gynamede7549 3 hours ago
Ooh boyyyyy, are we having fun here?

@MOOGGLE-empire 3 hours ago
I always wanted to see what he look like but that’s not a reason to disguise a face reveal request under the pretense of genuine care for his work

@Ynixiras2102 3 hours ago
@mechaenjoyer2883 I have my beliefs, you have yours. If you just want to insult me, I don’t think this is the place

@Ynixiras2102 2 hours ago
@MOOGGLE-empire There’s no pretense here. As I said I’ve made videos myself, I am trying to share tips

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@Ynixiras2102 2 hours ago
@hut7hut wtf. This is just vile. Please get a life

@Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiip88 2 hours ago
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@powerza 2 hours ago
if you want an ‘entertainer’ who shows his face why not just watch RockDivine? Or NESammy? Alexcraft? Seriously there’s so many people that fits your description why do you care about Screw specifically

@Ynixiras2102 2 hours ago
@powerza sonicScrew is one of my favorite channels on this site. I’ve followed him for years now.
I don’t know half the channels you mentioned and glancing at their content I can see that they’re not my cup of tea.
I care because I think screw is a great content creator and deserves more attention and viewers, and i think doing a face reveal would help with that. He doesn’t have to do it, but it’s a possibility
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@plutocracyftw0 2 hours ago
rando on the internet cries and shrivels into a minecraft corn cob when he learns daft punk never showed their faces and were successful

@gentleaxemax99 2 hours ago
Wouldn’t it be fun if Mandel AND screw did their face reveal at the same time? Like, they’re practically always together, I’m sure they could arrange something

@dtljhxzt 2 hours ago
@gentleaxemax99 Mandel posts videos of him playing the piano every now and again on his second channel. And you can see his arms in them!

@Ynixiras2102 2 hours ago
@plutocracyftw0 The Daft Punk did show their face though. If you want to be rude, at least try to be smart about it

@plutocracyftw0 1 hour ago
You’re missing the point. Daft Punk never made big publicity around it, it was only something someone could know by searching for it in the first place. Most people were content with them being faceless. It didn’t make them less entertaining, in fact, quite the contrary. You’re building a mountain of excuses just to feel right or see a childish fantasy come true or maybe both
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@TheBigMoonFae.h14j 1 hour ago
Why the fuck is this the top comment?

@sonicScrew 1 hour ago
This is getting way out of hand.
I appreciate the concern about the wellbeing of my channel but I’m not planning on doing a face reveal any time soon.
Now, some people made truly hateful comments today, so I deleted them. Please keep it civil, thank you

@Trbl101 1 hour ago
the king has joined the chat

@Ynixiras2102 1 hour ago
@sonicScrew Thank you so much for clarifying that. I’m sorry for the assumptions I made.
I’d be curious to know as to why you don’t plan on showing your face?

@_Farrow07 20 minutes ago
omg screw hi!!!

@sonicScrew
As someone pointed out earlier, there are reasons behind this choice. I believe this is not something that would benefit the channel in the long run. It would spoil the air of mystery I’m trying t|

No. 

I looked away for a second, stretching and thinking about how to deal with this. 

Then I deleted everything I wrote.

@sonicScrew
I don’t feel comfortable with my appearan|

No. That was even worse.

And inexact.

Truthfully, there was nothing wrong with my face. People had said it was conventionally attractive, but for me it was simply pure boringness painted on a skull. It was not so much that I wasn’t comfortable with it, but simply that I did not see the point. Besides, I couldn’t talk about that kind of feeling in public; that would be really unprofessional. I needed to keep a safe distance between me and my viewers.

@sonicScrew
This is a private matt|

Ugh. 

This was too eerie. People would think this was a way more serious situation than it was. Someone already hatched a whole theory about me being secretly a cinema celebrity dipping his toes in YouTube (it was nonsense, obviously). Every little crumb of info I laid down could be turned against me. 

I fidgeted with my mouse wheel again, going up and down the comment section. Maybe I didn’t need to respond? 

My general guideline regarding interacting on my socials was to try to answer every question asked in good faith, and thank every positive comment. And this genuinely appeared to have been asked in good faith, even if a bit weirdly and clumsily. So it’d made sense to explain my position earlier. But it would be foolish if I ended up sharing personal info when my primary goal had in fact been to not do that in the first place. Should I stop saying things, preventing myself from slowly becoming my worst enemy?

Yeah. Probably.

A new reply came up.

@CanopyAllie4264 0 second ago
@sonicScrew Oh gosh, it’s really you!! I’m such a big fan, i love everything you’re doing here. Keep it up!
And about this whole shebang I just wanted to say that whatever you decide don’t let the comments get the better of you. Do your thing -- you’re really good at that! -- and take care

Tears were starting to well up in the corners of my eyes.

I wiped them, closed my eyes, and breathed.

I didn’t realise how deeply glued to this comment section I had been for the past hour. Why was it all getting to me like that? I used to be able to shrug it off. Now, every time someone mentioned my face, it just got to me.

The worst thing was, my best theory as to why it was affecting me so profoundly was because I’d started dating Mandel. I’d started spending time with someone, and I’d started thinking about how they perceived me; I’d started being aware that I had a body. Now every reminder of that fact felt so real, so important. Even when I was with him, it was getting harder and harder to ignore.

And then the thing about orangetech…

Ugh.

@sonicScrew
Can we please STOP talking about this. For here on out, I’ll delete every comment ab|

@sonicScrew
You know? I think mechaenjoyer was right. Some of you are outright disgusting to bring this up again and again. I hate yo|

@sonicScrew
No one was like that with orangetech afaik… So why do you care? Why do yuo care?? Seriously what can my face bring to your life? WHY DO Y|

@sonicScrew
Suuuuure, I’ll do a face reveal!! If you give me 100k euros and I get to modify it as I please beforeha|

@sonicScrew
Breaking news: the world is unfair. I’m ugly as shit and no one can do anything abou|

I started sobbing.

It went on for a few minutes. I used the back of my hand to wipe the tears as they went down, like I was trying to force them back in.

I kept thinking about it.

I thought everything was going to be fine. But opening up had been a bad idea. It hurt. It was not healthy. If I continued thinking about this, I would slowly destroy everything I worked for. My channel was more important than all of this. I needed to push this down.

@sonicScrew 0 second ago
@CanopyAllie4264 thank you so much for your kind words. I’ll take your advice!

I closed the YouTube tab and went straight to bed. I needed to breathe, to think of something else, to push this down. I tried to empty my mind and think about Minecraft cats.

I let out a long groan into my pillow. It was no use.

My phone vibrated.

@Ynixiras2102 15 seconds ago
@sonicScrew Did you see my question? ^^’

Shut up. Shut up. Shut the fuck up. I tried and failed to break my phone by clutching it with all my strength. And when I understood that wasn’t gonna work, I aggressively opened Discord and started typing.

sonicScrew Today at 22:05
hey
Amaury can you come
I need help
I’m sorry

Mandel Today at 22:06
I m here

I could hear the hasty sounds of his slippers echoing in the street, the sound of a stumble, and the few swears that followed, and after a few seconds, he knocked two times.

I wiped my tears one last time and tried to say ‘come in’ but my voice gave out nothing more than a croak.

He opened the door, and moonlight briefly illuminated my room. As I rolled to face him, I saw his face switch from worry to relief. “You’re safe,” he said, and he approached the bed. “What’s going on? Did the meal with your parents go wrong?” 

Oh, that. Well, it had gone… as usual. Dad was fun, mum was worried, my cousin was weird, my uncle was nice, I was quiet — my mind was elsewhere — and my parents’ waterzooi had the healing effect of a golden apple on my palate. But to the mild disapproval of my dad, I’d left early to see how the short I posted on my channel earlier was doing. And what a bad choice it had been.

I hoped a weak shrug was enough to communicate all of that.

“Okay, what is it then? Is it— I mean—” He closed his eyes, breathed, then looked at me again, with a reassuring smile. “Okay, first: do you need to talk about it? Or did you just want me to be with you?”

My mouth felt heavy, I couldn’t say a word, so I simply patted the sheet on my side, hoping it would make my intentions clear.

“Okay. We can talk about it later. I’m going to sit here. Can you nod to tell me if that’s okay?” I nodded. “Okay, here I go.” He carefully sat cross-legged on the bed to my left.

I went to grab him but stopped before touching, flashing him a questioning look to be sure he was okay with it.

“Of course, babe, come here,” he gently said and gave me the warmest hug. I closed my eyes and let the emotions take over.

We stayed like that for a few minutes, give or take. As he snuggled himself more comfortably, I continued faintly crying on his shoulder. 

After a while, he spoke, barely above a whisper. “Just breathe slow and steady, in and out.”

I tried that, and slowly, not without setbacks, my breathing stabilised. I extracted myself from him, sniffled, and wiped my tears.

“Wanna talk about it?”

I nodded.

“So… what happened?”

I took out my phone and started writing something in my notes app.

‘i m not sure i should talk about it,’ I wrote, then showed him. He nodded. ‘promise me u wont tell anyone,’ I continued.

“Oh, yeah, of course. I promise,” he said.

I opened the conversation I had with 40bees yesterday.

40bees 23/12/2023 23:28
I’m sorry but this is a private matter.
I do know that orangetech is doing well. Orange has really good reasons for the break, but I cannot say much without asking directly.
I guess I can tell you Orange didn’t want to talk about it with the CC members except me and glob.

sonicScrew 23/12/2023 23:31
Omg, I'm so sorry. I didn’t realise this was something that serious. Forget I asked.
um
If that’s possible, I just wanted to thank orange for his time on youtube. He’s been a great help. I wish him well.

40bees 23/12/2023 23:33
I told him (edited)

“What’s the issue?” he asked, handing me my phone back.

I suppressed a sob, then switched to the note app and started explaining with shaky fingers. ‘before editing t he message  40 wrote I told her’

 

 

Moral of the story: you should not wear YouTube shorts. (Have I understood this correctly?)

Thanks to Fanny and Luna_C for their help on this chapter.

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