I made an account.
It is in a writing site called Scribblehub. I have visited this site a long time ago but I never considered registering. I am that type of a person who just visit a site, read and exit after. I never considered making accounts wherever I went. I am always just a passerby.
When there's a story that I like, I just keep on reading. When there's a story that I don't like, I just close the tab and forget the tittle of that story. That's just how it is for me. I never wrote a feedback.
When I don't have anything in mind to read, my brain often wander around. There's always this little characters playing inside my head. Probably because of the things I've read so far. Scenes that keep playing in my head and I often wonder what if they had a story of their own? What will be their ending?
There are some circumstances that I wish I could find a story just like that but in the end I'm just lazy to search. I don't know where to ask, Mr. Google doesn't really give me the things that I want. Or maybe I just don't know where to search to begin with. But even so, I keep on reading.
I've read a lot of novels but it can't be compared to other people. There are only few novels that I can name because I've forgotten about them. It might be because I didn't like it or maybe it's because the title. Well... maybe.
Titles... Maybe it's kind of difficult to come up with titles. Now I'm kind of scared thinking of titles for my future work (if I ever publish one). I don't really know what kind of titles I would come up with but I guess goodluck to future me.
Sigh... I lied. I actually have registered an account to a writing app. I never published there though. I registered it a year ago but I never published my writings. I read it again and again, I even thought of their endings. It's just... I haven't thought of their journey. There are bits of their stories but I didn't want to write their struggles. It feels like I'm torturing them and I kind of don't want to hurt them. But even so, I think I'll try writing their stories. After all, isn't that the author's responsibility?
I am scared of publishing my writings. I'm not good at grammar and I don't know if someone out there would like the things that I wrote. I consider myself as average so I tend to think that maybe the things I want to write exist somewhere that I'm not aware of. Or what if someone told me that I plagiarized the things I wrote? I am weak at heart (I don't have a heart disease) so I tend to over think.
But even all of that, I want to challenge myself. I want to try things that I never considered trying before. And so... I made an account.
Hello! If you don't mind, I'm just gonna share some of my thoughts real quick...
I started out much like you, reading many stories, and having them all swirl around inside my head. I read them because I was interested in seeing how other people would convey their ideas to their audience. I've spent a great deal of my life consuming various forms of media and entertainment, and doing so has made my creative desire grow and grow.
Everyday I find myself creating new characters or environments or weapons or stories in my head. It's so rapid that I can barely keep up with it, and find most of it being left in the furthest reaches of my mind. Luckily, I can still retain some of it.
These constant ideas caused me, like you, to have a desire to create my own work and spread it around. I resolved to do so, and have created an account. Sure, right now I'm in the beginnings of only one story when I have ideas for much, much more, but I think it really has helped me.
Frankly, I was nervous like you are, but when I published my first story, seeing just a single view made me so happy. Every time, it makes me think, "Wow, someone was interested in my work!" and it keeps me moving forward. The great thing like a platform like this is that people can offer their thoughts and criticisms, and you can improve as a writer by listening to the people. You can even create polls and plug in author's notes. It allows writers to make mistakes and fix them, as well as ask for feedback. It's all great for growth.
So, I encourage you to publish that story. Those characters dancing in your head should dance through the words you place in your writing.
You say you have bad grammar, but grammar shouldn't be a problem if the story is intriguing. People will read you story if it clearly has passion put into it.
You say your story might seem generic, but if you put in the time and effort, and display your personality as an author through your writing, then things that could be similar to other stories might become strengths, or other aspects of your story will cause thoughts of "hmm, this is generic" to be blown out of the water.
You say you want to challenge yourself, and that's great! Having the resolve to go ahead and publish an account means that you are serious, and up for whatever comes your way.
...I tend to ramble, so sorry for the long response, but the point is, charge forward! I'll be looking for anything you might do, hopefully you take the next step. Good luck!