Chapter 271

Miriam was sluggish, she raised her head and stared at Kyle, her eyes glistening. She was pouting, it was sweet, cute, and Kyle gulped. He decided to turn his head but Miriam grabbed his head, cupping his cheeks. 

"Look ast me!"

She mumbled, she was glaring and dissatisfied. She hiccuped and moved her face closer to Kyle. Her breath which smelled like alcohol was alluring to Kyle. He recalled that moment when their bodies were so close to each other that they almost melt. He couldn't help but remember that moment, it was the time when Miriam and Kyle showed their vulnerable sides to each other. 

"You hiccup, did you regret it?"

Miriam asked, her eyes were teary. At any moment, she might cry and slap Kyle. Or she might put her lips on his.

"…"

Kyle didn't speak but he knew that she meant. 

"Did you regret… having a child?"

"…"

He couldn't answer, he was tense. Kyle was traumatized, his past was haunting him despite fixing the problem. Kyle knew it, no matter how much he tried to hide. In this timeline, he knew that he killed his wife and son(technically). Killing Celine means killing his son, yet he decided to go with that.

'This is for the better.' He kept saying these words. He was trying to find the justification. And now, Miriam was asking him about it. Miriam was asking him if he regretted having a child in the past and the present. 

"I… I don't know."

It was an honest answer. He was happy to hold his child, Lemar, but he was afraid at the same time. 

"Miriam?"

Kyle sensed that Miriam paused, she was looking down and Kyle couldn't see her face. Then, without any signs of moving, Miriam glared at him and pushed him to the bed. Kyle stumbled and landed on the mattress, he was shocked by the sudden gesture. He stared at Miriam and he could sense that she was angry. 

"I don't know?" Miriam hiccuped. "What the heck ish that?" 

"Miriam, I think you need some rest. Come, I will take you to your room."

"No."

Kyle tried to stand up but Miriam didn't let him. She straddled on the bed and sat on him, her hands pushed him down the bed. She was using a tremendous amount of strength and even Kyle couldn't move. 

"I want to know the truth, do yoush regret it or not?"

She was tipsy and almost bit her tongue but her gaze was strong and stabbed him. He couldn't look at Miriam like this, he decided to look around to avert her gaze. However, Miriam was already tired of his actions. She grabbed his chin and made him look at her. Miriam's deep black eyes stared at Kyle and waited for his answer. 

"Tell me, no more acting bullshit. I don't care if you are corrupted or not. If you are acting like this because of your corruption then all I have to do is to beat you with my body."

It was a vague declaration but the idea was clear. This means that Kyle would be fucked up if he doesn't answer honestly. 

"Do you regret it or not? This is important to me."

For a moment, Miriam's unfocused stares regained concentration. Kyle, who was deep in his thoughts, understood that there was no running away now. He swallowed the emotions stuck in his throat. 

"… I don't regret it. I don't regret having a child… It's just that I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I will fail again."

At last, he opened up his heart slightly. Kyle was still hiding a secret but it was enough. For now. Miriam nodded, she sighed in relief as she closed her eyes. That was the most elated thing she heard this year. She was feeling the burden, thinking that Kyle didn't have any feelings towards Lemar.

She couldn't help but think negatively, Kyle only showed his face thrice in front of Lemar. He didn't call them, communicate, or check them at all. She was anxious that Kyle's heart won't open for Lemar. As a mother, it was one of the hardest things she experienced. 

She was kind of sad that her parents showed their affection towards her and her brother. But Kyle is different, he always hides his emotions and Miriam can't read him.

She was elated to hear that Kyle doesn't dislike Lemar, it's the best gift she can have. She weakly lowered her head, perhaps because of too much tension Miriam became tired. She rest her head on Kyle's chest and inhaled a deep one, she could hear Kyle's beating heart. Perhaps she was really drunk because she could hear that his heart was beating so fast. She smiled and rubbed her cheek on his chest. 

Kyle who was listening to the scrapping had hidden his emotions. He looked stoic like a tree, calm, and not affected by anything. However, his heart was saying the opposite. 

"T-Then… what about me?"

"Hm?"

Kyle heard Miriam, she stuttered and bit her lip. She was too shy to ask again but she understood that she would lose this courage after she became sober. So right now that she was intoxicated in alcohol and had an excuse, Miriam swallowed her embarrassment and opened her mouth. 

"What about me, do you regret being with me?" 

She moved her head and stared at him, her eyes were teary but she was definitely cute right now. Sheesh, Kyle might sin right now if he continued staring at her. She was expectant and her glistening eyes kept staring at Kyle, he couldn't look at her like this so he covered his eyes using his arms. 

"I don't hate you. I can't."

Perhaps because of alcohol, Kyle was a bit tipsy too. The way he said those words were deep, they all came from his heart. 

"I will never hate you."

Goddamnit!!! It was a downright confession, in a way. It was a unique way of expressing himself, perhaps Kyle is a tsundere all along!! 

"Fufu, thanks."

Miriam smiled, she was happy, she was grinning. The burden from her heart was released and she could breathe well now. She put her lips on his chest, slightly smelling his scent.

"Thank you… this means that I still have a chance…"

Miriam slowly closed her eyes and dozed off, her body rest on Kyle and she slept peacefully. There was a smile on her face and she was lovely. 

As for Kyle, he was gritting his teeth and endured his urges. He just embraced her to make sure that she won't fall. 

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