This is more than likely going to be deleted tomorrow, and it is just a rant.
EDIT 2: It will no longer be deleted. Thanks for the overwhelming support, I have read through every single comment, and I am thankful for every single one of them. Sincerely your author. ~Azriel.
Hey guys, it's me your wonderful author... It's what I would like to say, I have been having difficulties progressing the story due to poor planning, anyways I am putting in a lot of effort into the story, yes this is a rant, and yes this might sound manipulative. Honestly I love writing, otherwise I wouldn't do it for 8-10 hours a day and get 3 hours of sleep. I absolutely love it even though I am utter trash at it.
So where am I getting at?
I never had hopes for this story, I did not even want to publish it. However after talking with some close friends I decided to do it, it was overwhelmingly well received however, it is a bit depressing for me (I will elaborate on this later), hearing nice comments and feedback cheers me up, it really does. I say this from the bottom of my heart. So to every single one of you, regardless of negative or positive feedback I am thankful.
I am also thankful to you all that read through this awful story as it gets "better", so let us make the question. "Where am I getting at?" yet again, I have been really busy in real life. However I decided that I would do one chapter a day until around chapter 60, which is honestly far off. My drafts go as far as chapter 15, so you can see what I am saying, again I said it was getting hard to progress the story. One of the major reasons is that I suck at writing, and one of those shitty 1-2k word chapter that you guys read takes around 8-24 hours of work, for context chapter 9 and 9.5 took around 40 hours together. It was painful but it was fulfilling to finish them.
It's hard to keep up with the daily releases or the meme double release extra chapter thing, however it makes me happy to read feedback about the story, this is where I am getting at. It's a double edged sword, I understand that my writing is god-awful, that the first 4 chapters are uninteresting and boring, I would even call them trash. However it is honestly kind of painful seeing 1-3 star ratings without a single bit of feedback. This is a childish rant I am well aware of it, I have so many things going on Irl. Only way to unstress myself is through writing, however seeing it "crumble" (Yes, I am well aware it sounds exaggerated) is painful. How did you feel in school, during that one time 'that' teacher looked at your paper, gave you a 5/10 mark and did not say anything about it. That is pretty much how I feel right now, It's hard to keep writing like this, but I will continue.
EDIT: It also makes me depressed seeing the awful 4.0 rating while it's in trending, I feel like I am making you all read absolute trash and I cannot even do anything about it. I believe I am at fault for everything, my story is just bad.
This was something that I had to get out of my chest, since I don't have many people to turn to when it comes to situations like these.
I sincerely thank anyone that reads through this childish rant, regardless if you hate me for it or not.
I will use this also as a Q & A, while I am at it. Feel free to ask any questions.
No poll this time.
I don't think your writing is bad at all, honestly, it's pretty good. As someone else said, if your writing is bad, I'd wonder how most people on the internet passed english in school.
I'd been publishing on Webnovel for a while, and even though I have no life, I still couldn't keep up weekly releases (though my chapters were about 2k words and I was doing weekly releases of two or three different things at once). I got dispirited, and gave up for a while. Since then, I've decided to move to scribblehub after getting a larger stockpile of chapters, and that way I could keep up a weekly release for them all for at least a year as I slowly write more, and decide if I want to write as a full time or part time job. Sorry, I'm ranting a bit myself.
My point is, publish what you can, when you can. Don't feel like you need to fill a quota, that's a way to write worse content slower than you otherwise could write good chapters. And if I may make a suggestion, don't feel like you need to delete this rant. Take heart in the positive feedback you're getting in the comments here, and look at them when you get frustrated or stuck. I did the same for the rare positive comments I got (Seriously, nobody comments on webnovel, and if they do, it's mostly unhelpful comments like "first" or "exp") and they helped me through more than a few rough patches.
And please, do keep publishing this novel. It is currently one of my favorite things to read, and I'd be quite sad to see it go, and so would many others, I'm 110% sure about that.
I really like scribblehub for the fact people are so helpful, comment and are generally nice!
What I already tell people on the Scribble Hub discord server is you don't want your first work to be the best thing you ever write. Cause that means you never improved.
It's more important to be able to recognize your mistakes and correct them than to be right there first time.
But it's just as important to not be too hard on your own work. We are our own worst critiques and we have to be able to accept praise at face value.
After all one man's trash is another man's treasure. So even if you think your writing is garbage obviously some people really like it otherwise it wouldn't be trending.
Good luck with your story and getting over these negative feelings.
Your writing's perfectly fine imo, if u think ur writing's bad, im wondering how i even passed english in high school.
As always, thanks for having shared ur story with us thus far!
I look at my reading lists more than the trending personally. So even if you wanted to slow down and take a week per chapter I wouldn't mind a bit.
Honestly for me I don't care if others consider it a "good" story or not. I just know I look forward to every new chapter. Just know that I'm reading literally hundreds of web novels(most of them translated japanese novels) and if one of your chapters are available it'll be one of the first I read that day.
I've honestly enjoyed reading so far. Your story is definitely interesting in my opinion at least.
I really admire all of the effort you go through making this story, and I think l that like me, most of the people who like this story prefer to lurk around (I think it's been described as a bias, but when people don't feel strongly about something, they won't bother with much, so most comments you'll see will be the really nice ones, and the awful ones, because those are the ones with clear motivation).
I think you can see the support you have through what you've already read in the comments, but if it helps consider this: people feel more strongly about failures than triumphs, so duplicate the amount of good comments, because that's the real ratio of good to bad in your mind, and we lurkers are many.
I personally consider anything rating 4 and above to be potentially good when looking for good stories to read (before I’ve actually read them) so I don’t think the rating your story has is too bad plus some readers tend to be hypocritical and jealous of others so sometimes rate things worse then they are.
I think your story is quite decent so far. Also considering your plan to do one chapter every day if it gets too strenuous or stressful you should slow down. The more you push yourself too hard the worse it gets.
It's not too hard, but like I said, it just feels like I put a lot of effort into something only for it to be thrown into the trash. Might be too far-fetched, but I am the type of person that gives up easily, due to personal experiences. Anyways, thanks for reading this far.
@Azrie As long as you don't go the way of Druid King, you'll be fine.
4/5 is not a bad rating. especially when you yourself dont even think that you are doing a good job at it. Nobody can expect his/her story to just be a massive success.
wait wait wait. Since when is 4.0 "awful"?
Azrie, it would seem you and I are not all that different when it comes to writing. I have had a story, an idea in my head for quite some time, but could never work up the courage to properly write it. Whenever I did start, I would get to my character layouts and just... stop. And yet, here you are, someone who is writing a story just to put it out there, even while you struggle with not giving up. You have gotten further than I ever have, while being quite similar, if you will allow me to say as much, and it is the main reason I try to offer whatever advice and help I can when commenting on your chapters. Because in all honesty, your writing isn't perfect, my writing isn't perfect, no one's writing is perfect, but that is part of being human. We are not perfect, but we can improve, we can learn, and I personally feel you are. More than that, I feel like your story so far has just been fun, it makes me smile reading it, and sure, it can be better, but what in life can't be.
There is a story I enjoy which had quite the terrible rating when I first found it, and it honestly kind of deserved it. The writing was somewhat all over the place and it seemed to struggle with making sense, but I enjoyed it and followed along. Over the past few years, the series rating grew as the writing and basis did too, finding itself and improving. Honestly, if you enjoy writing as much as you seem to, then just write.
I can't make up for those who leave behind ratings with no feedback, nor can I help with the feelings it causes. But, if you can, focus instead on the feedback you do get, from those close to you, from those who care about you, and from those that wish to see you go further. If you are struggling with the story, perhaps you could ask for input from others, whomever you deem best to do so. If not that, you could always take a break, or rewrite parts, whatever you want to do. You could even stop with the story and start from scratch, but no matter what path you may choose, if you love writing, then just write. Sure vindication is great, but so too is just enjoying life, so please dear author, just do what it is you want to do. I hope you have a wonderful day and good luck in whatever it is you choose to do!