“……”

“……”

I thought to convey my feelings to Muriel-sama in a honest manner, but with influence of previous event, I was upset.

Wanting to say it with vigor of kamikaze special-troops soldier.

“Ah, some insect had flew in.”

I was imagining the feeling of the soldier. But It was me right now.

I am more irritated than sad now, although I am full of feelings to return.

However, Muriel-sama did not say anything after that, didn't leave as if tired, awkward silence continued.

Instead of trying to cope with it, I grabbed the edges of the futon, stopped all the way trying to turn around, as expected I couldn't, and returned back, in order to not show my bright-red face I covered it with pillow, while I couldn't relax, I felt a hint of smile from Muriel-sama's side.

Staring backward, Muriel-sama unusually loosened his lips softly, looking at me with kind eyes.

To the sweet expression I saw for the first time, the heartbeat jumped to a level of bad sickness.

Muriel-sama gave a small laugh and stroked gently trying to calm my trembling.

A slightly low body temperature and the feel of the hand are familiar and comfortable with what I am used to, since long ago.

He took a deep breath.

“I had a dream,”

Muriel-sama gave me a light tap on my back with a constant rhythm as if it could help me.

And Muriel-sama told me about a dream that he saw when he fainted because of a headache.

Dream? Muriel-sama, who tilted his head at an angle to keep his eyes matching mine suddenly with a turning point of conversation, continued talking to me. [I met you]

I came out in his dream, starting from a very young figure, and gradually becoming an adult.

“You were constantly doing stupid things."

The voice was echoing from the side of my ears, and with trouble regained calmness destroyed with pulsation.

I Listen to Muriel-sama’s dream while being excited.

In that dream, I was doing only useless things.

He thought objectively that I was an idiot, running at the sharp corner of the desk between my toes, dashing at the closed door to enter the room, it never looked like I had my memories from childhood, being lazy all the time. In addition, he felt like Melba in the scene was angry.

“While you were doing stupid things, there was always a man similar to me by your side."

Muriel-sama's dream is about a monster who spend time with me, who no longer exists.

Amazed expression, tiresome sigh, even those hands that would surely help me when I'm in trouble, suddenly making me feel warm happiness, is still in his memories.

“Even though you were always laughing, the you, who appeared at the end – was crying. A man similar to me on some balcony of the castle, far away from you. And yet while you were crying, a man stretched out his hand. Seeing you in pain, he regretted terribly. I felt like I knew that scene, it looked real despite being a dream."

” … …. ”

Muriel-sama’s dream ended with a balcony in Rugnand palace.

The place where Melba was last seen. The moment when there was no Melba who I thought will be by my side forever.

I remembered the feeling at that time, I held down the area around my painful heart, but I felt Muriel-sama’s voice, and it made me feel even more bitter than that pain.

“I thought to leave it as a dream. It was just a man looking similar to me, but the unknown scene flows in me with unknown feelings and overlaps. The feelings of the man who regretted seeing you crying, overlapped with regret while waiting for you, who was shot by the arrow and did not wake up … I thought that it was my fault, that i'm a fool. That you are important, me and the man in the dream didn't notice it until we lost it."

The power of the gentle arms strengthened and hugged me tightly enough to make it painful.

Even the long speech, the voice swayed with regret, pained eyes, were not usual for Muriel-sama, I remained this way not resisting the pain.

It felt somewhat real, but Muriel-sama who fell on my hair felt a bit uneasy, I noticed that he was exploring my body temperature, I spontaneously put my arms around Muriel-sama's back.

Muriel-sama, who remained silent for a while, eventually muttered something.

Keeping his face on my hair, so it was difficult to hear, but I managed to pick it up owing to the scene and the hospital room.

“I thought it's okay for me to die whenever, but since who-knows-when, I thought if it's to live with you, it could be not bad.”

Muriel-sama hugged me strongly and muttered something just like that time in Rugnand.

We now overlap with the end scene in Rugnand.

I don't know what he said at that time, but I wonder if he said the same thing.

“I made the same mistake twice and felt the same regret, but I will definitely make no mistakes from now, Man in my dream, and me, we both think that way, I want to live with you … "

” …! ”

Had Melba also thought the same way as me. Wanting to stay together by my side.

And now Muriel-sama too, is thinking like that?

Tears came out suddenly, but I couldn't afford to wipe them.

The tears flowing with big drops are not from sorrow, but they are also a bit different from happiness, it was such a suffocating feeling that my chest squeezed tightly.

“At first I discovered an interesting insect, so it was a slight interest to observe it, but"

Just leave that insect-analogy alone! I wanted to cut in, but I didn't make it to words due to the tears flowing steadily.

However, feeling my dissatisfaction Muriel-sama loosened his lips.

"Before I was aware of it, you have become more important than anything and before someone snatch you away, I thought that I want to make you mine."

Looking at my crying face.

And Miriel-sama who finished talking about his dream said,

“I will return to the beginning, but what do you think about me ?”

He returned to the previous question.

“……”

“……li”

“… ….”

“… I like you … ….”

Usually taciturn Muriel-sama, said so many words, all the things I wanted to return stuck in my throat revealing only few small words, but Muriel-sama nodded approvingly, and smiled happily.

My limit of the love matters ​​has already been exceeded long ago, I wanted it to end for the day, but Muriel-sama was merciless.

“It was an opportunity to notice it when you was shot by the arrow, but I was thinking about you as special far long time before that.”

Muriel-sama’s special feelings for me were long before Muriel-sama’s birthday It seems.

I was really surprised that.

Actually, on that day of his birthday, Muriel-sama was bothered by the party, didn't want the presents and was trying to get out.

It's a great courage to say that to all those great merchants from over the continent famous for their connections and influence.

When he was planning to leave the house, he got a contact from military policemen for my identity inquiry.

Just to get out with an excuse, He have gone to that place to stop the restraint of me.

Although it seems that he planned to go somewhere after he got there,

“The pot with the ribbon and the message card made my interest unreal, it was a bit strange to see you dented when you always recover swiftly."

So he planned to guide me a little more, and after that to return back to the party.

What is that! That day I was really depressed.

Curry’s look was sensational, smell and taste were also stimulating, but I thought that it's a big mistake to give it as a present, spending sleepless night I thought I was stupid, feeling of going to the party I was looking forward to, it became difficult.

More than anything I thought that it was bad to disturb your birthday and was getting sad.

But why do you want to see people depressed, bad personality, hey! And when I ask that,

“Because you were cute.”  he returns

“For My birthday that I didn't put any meaning in, you just wanted to say [thank you for being born……I was making this to see you happy…but that….I wish I could make something other than this……with this wanting to celebrate that special day…..] worn out and about to cry….thinking that you are cute I wanted to look a little more. Imagining clumsy you, sticking to the pot at midnight so it will not burn, it was fun, and it was unavoidable being caught by police, thinking that I didn't want to refuse your present."

” … … … Uu~ … ”

Pounding  of my heart is even more restless, but coming here to say that.

I almost got bloodshed.

Muriel-sama who is more tolerant than usual was not kind to my sick heart.