I felt fucking amazing 

Cultivation felt Pretty damm good

Every time I absorbed a 5-coloured particle my body I felt awesome

I felt refreshed, stronger and full of life 

Granny Yu was so right

In my early days, 

Granny Yu used to tell me how the plants and trees feel incomplete without sunlight.

I used to scoff at that 

How could she possibly know what plants or trees feel? 

But every day she used to insist that I should sit close to the plants and trees 

And try to sense how these plants and trees absorb the sunlight and turn it into their strength 

just like how cultivators absorb Qi and grow powerful 

I never really understood her

And day after day I sat in the garden full of greenery feeling nothing for 5 years

After some time I began to complain to her every single day 

And every single day She would just smile at me a stroke my hair 

And tell me how cultivation felt amazing and how I would feel this feeling one day and understand what she was talking about

One day and only then let me leave

I was an educated man from another advanced world

 so I knew about photosynthesis

But I never really understood what granny was trying to teach me

Until Now

Now, I know granny was a super genius who was so right

Cultivation does feel amazing and different 

Not only that 

Cultivation made me feel complete,

Like something used to be missing from my life before cultivation and now I found the missing piece 

I felt truly happy 

But along with this great joy,

 there was this strange and strong rage bubbled up inside me

Threatening to burst from within me at any second 

And there was this sadness deep down in my heart 

I couldn't understand my situation my emotions and my feeling was all over the place 

Anger, joy, sadness I felt all these emotions at the same time

I was confused 

I tried to think and organise myself

My emotions, my memories and my thoughts came to me like a tsunami 

They were slowly merging into one 

I was slowly understanding what was happening

This is was my inner self

I slowly placed and understood my shit

I began to understand myself and what I 'am and what I want to do

All my life this one and the previous one I was a doormat

I was a looser

 a pathetic person

I wanted to change that 

I didn't want to be the same guy before 

I didn't want to be afraid anymore 

I was extremely angry at everything 

And this anger fuelled my conviction to grow stronger to never feel fear again

The anger made me feel invisible

I felt unstoppable

Like no one could stop me 

No one could suppress my will 

My anger is incredible 

But I didn't want the anger to be my prime emotion

I didn't want to feel angry all the time 

I don't want to be controlled by this emotion 

My father used to say:

"It is an emotion of a weak man son, don't let it make you a weak man"

I understood that anger was a part of me now but so were other emotion 

I can't choose what to feel but I can choose what to about with them

Over the past couple of months 

I had left my life in the hands of fate in the hands of other people

In some way, I gave it to the God who brought me here

I was either too afraid or too weak to make my decision 

I've come to terms with my fears, as I begin my journey to cultivate

 

And So, I have made a decision

I have to chos a way of life

My way to live

I will grow up

I will face my fears head-on

I will fulfil my vengeance 

By growing more powerful

And I will share this power with all those with whom I can 

I won't be cruel

But I won't be nice either 

If I see a random person going through some tough time

I won't help him 

They need to solve their own problem

And for one who has too much pain

I will act

I won't leave anyone in pain and suffering

I will take this power of rage into myself

But I won't let it control me

I will never lose anyone I love again without doing anything about it 

I will be happy

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"!!!!!!

My thoughts were interrupted whatever state I was in was disturbed 

I felt like some just came kicked me awake 

I came to my sense with a pain ringing through me

And saw an angry pollux

 looking down on me with a pair of condescending eyes and a disgusted expression

I opened my mouth to answer but I shouldn't have bothered 

Pollux didn't want an answer 

He proceeded without waiting for my reply

" say nothing your voice is particular irritating today," he said rubbing his ears

"Come on let's go we have work to do"

With that once again he turned around and began to leave 

I hurriedly got up and followed not forgetting to act blind 

Just behind me, a heard a giggle then the crazy naked began to single

"Adventure, an adventure we going on an adventure.......

" wait for me, wait for we going an adventure.................

Okay, he and I need to have a serious talk.............

..................................................

"Yes this is a good idea" old bu said in his raspy voice

"Do you agree?" Pollux asked astonished 

"Good then I will arrange it tomorrow"

Pollux nodded excitedly 

But a word from Old bu poured cold water on Pollux

"No"

"No?" Pollux asked baffled 

"No" old Bu agreed 

Pollux looked at old Bu as if he was mad

"But you just agreed that it was a good idea," pollux asked 

"Yes it is a good idea" old Bu said

Pollux looked angry 

"I am confused then why the refusal" 

 

"Since when do I have to explain my thoughts to you Pollux?"

Pollux was started at that and stepped backwards

Old bu chuckled at the man's action

"Yes it is a good idea but the child is not ready yet"

Pollux carefully backed away 

"Then when will he be ready?

Pollux asked 

" When I say he is" was old bu said

"Now go away before I change my mind about killing you"

Pollux just turned and flew away 

Old Bu just snorted coldly

A very pregnant mature woman materialized out of thin right next to Old bu

"Why don't you just kill him father " the woman spoke in a melodious voice

Old bu smiled kindly at the woman

"He has his uses" 

The woman pouted that made which made her more charming 

The woman started to stroke her belly 

"Will all this be worth it?" 

"I hope so"

"for all our sake I hope" old BU said his face visible withered 

"How long before this child is born," Old Bu asked 

The woman's pout disappeared and was replaced with a motherly kind smile

"6 years," she said

"Then I will have delay for as long as possible"

"The child will be a monster," she said with a sad tone 

"No, it will be not"old bu said sternly

" I will make sure of that"

The women looked at old Bu with sympathy

"You are putting a lot of trust on a child's head father"

" haaaahaaa" old Bu started to laugh

"You underestimate the heavens daughter"

.the woman frowned 

"The heavens? Father I'm talking about the child"

"You will see, you will see"

Old Bu said cryptically 

"We should concentrate on training the boy, "old Bu said

 he seemed to have lost his trust in me"

Old bu said 

"What will you?"

"What I can do for our salvation" 

.................................................

I had failed and miserably so

I had thought that anger wouldn't control me 

I Made a promise to myself that it wouldn't control me 

That I won't let it be my prime emotion

But try as may any other emotion was either too weak to overcome the anger or not required at all

The closest that came was sadness but it was quickly transformed into anger 

But it has been a year now anger was the only driving force within me 

Just a few months ago I tried to unlock my leg acupoints which 

I quickly realised that to successfully do so 

I was required to simulate my legs 

So I asked Old Bu who told me to run on the walls

I still didn't trust old Bu at all but I had a sort of a lie detector now 

As I found out that at The lake that formed in my mind 

I formed a projection of myself and whatever practice I did there was not done in real life 

that meant I could practise any technique sutras mantra there seeing all its flaws correcting them even if I died I could know what to do

I had already corrected  perfected and adapted all the techniques to my suitability 

No matter the technique advice I would first do it the lake and corrected the flaws if any 

Over the time frame an year, I found except for the technique first given to me by Old Bu everything was up to code

So I started to ask for advice from him but I never trusted him 

To stimulate my legs 

I would run from one end of the training room where Polluxwould usually  train me in physically combat 

Towards the wall 

I took several steps up the wall with my momentum then flipped over to land on my feet 

I did this over and over again with burning pain running through my legs

I wanted to stop, if I missed a single step I would fall badly a couple of times my neck nearly broke 

But every time I tried to stop an unstoppable rage took over forcing me to continue

This rage had completely taken over me and as I got better with pollux and old bu training

 I developed a useless sense of pride that wouldn't let me back down

My pride didn't even allow me to hide that I couldn't see but I still did so with great difficulty and convection

I felt scared

 this wasn't me 

sometimes I felt someone was taking over me

I asked old Bu for help he told me to meditate and Find inner peace 

So I did

 I tried to abandon the physical training but after a few days it felt restless

 I couldn't sit still 

So I went back to it

Now I divided my day into two sections 

In the day I would try to kill myself with physical training from sunrise to sunset

And at night I would meditate and try to absorb the 5-coloured particle

Which turned out to be 5-elemental Qi

My soul root was a 5-element mountain 

Which I found by reading the books Old Bu gave me

Reading with my new eyesight was a bitch my vision kept going in and out of focus 

I had to practice for 6 months before I got the hang of it

I had opened 641 appoints in my body

All the acupoints would palate with cool energy causing my body to radiate with this cold energy

Causing no shortage of headache as I had to hide most of my strength from Pollux and old bu and anyone who came to check

I even had Julia beat me up every day without fail 

I was so strong that I was able to crack open large boulders dig a tunnel and run really run fast

I was becoming a real-life superman step by step 

Even so 

that the difficult regimen of 5000 push ups and sit ups didn't even phase me

The only time I relaxed was when I slept

For some strange reason, I was only able to sleep for 3 hours 

No matter how tired I was 

how fatigued I was

A 3-hour sleep 

And I would rise up like a new man 

In one year many things have changed I made a friend who is a fucking Ghost

The dude name is or was Sam he is a very highly educated practitioner of something called 'the light sword'

And every day he would warn me when someone called the priest would come to watch me

He also taught me meditation techniques to find inner peace 

He was a little cuckoo but who isn't 

"The priest is here, the priest is here............

Right on Que Sam started to shout 

I took my 'I'm a harmless small stupid child' look 

And pretended to struggle to meditate 

My life was totally weird now ghosts mediation  hide and seak and what not