my older brother  face was always smiling mischievously was now serious and hardened like stone , next day he leave the empire

My daily life , was as my big brother desire before he left   

The empire affairs was under control, because no one knows that the emperor leave his place to investigate his brother's Murderer, until then

... He hasn't been back for months, and...

when he did return

Ah Ah !Maximilian ! Maximilian My soooooooooooooooooon Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

My mother who was  latterly accepted the death of my first brother, she get slapped in the face after hearing about her second son death, and was beating her chest and screaming as if her heart was being ripped out , and when I try to approached her , she coved my line of sight .

 " don't look , don't look rhea"

".... "

From that day my mother knew that our family had fallen apart

Even thought she acted strong in front of me  , she would always secretly cry and blame herself as if all of this was her fault , and bleeding from her nose and ears , that makes her life shorter than she was , after  one year , my mother passed away but her last words was

   "rhea don't worry about any thing you just need to live , don't care about our family member death , you just need to focus on living your life happier , I'm begging you don't waste your life thinking about death  "

perhaps , after her death , my life became worthless , but her words dug into my ears , and give a special desire for me to live  , but live a life like dead .

    after that I was side-lined ,  my cousin took the throne. He throw me to the prison , and torture me with all kind of torture. i suffered  from psychological and physical torture ,until i lost my  senses and desire to live . and in the end I was sentenced to  death , in front of all the empire .

    I can't help but feel happy, even though I it's going to be the end of my life, I don't know if that was the only way I could be free, or I was the one who didn't chooses the right path.

I don't know if I should blame my family who put much hope in me, or blame myself for not being able to change my fate, or the man I loved so much that I was about to sacrifice the whole world for him, he told me he'll be back, but he never returned, I even refused the offer of  Duke Emel, who promised to protect me. I really don't want to blame anyone for my foolishness, and stone head stubbornness

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