The older I am, the more I aware how precious time is. 

I ever hear that 

" Life is like a trade, You can gain profit or nah " 

Others said

" Time is money "

It's funny on it own way. 

Cuz, only I know for sure how I use my time. 

How much I waste and throw away that precious money called time. 

How unwise I am managing that money called time. 

How much loss i would gain in the future cuz my current habbit using my money called time. 

Cuz of that,...

I begin to think... 

What can I do?

There are many hobbies and habbits that are only "wasting my time" for sure. 

But, I like that... I am happy with that...

And I do aware how stupid and unwise I am at this moment. 

Many people close to me even go as much as giving me soft to hard-to-accept advice. 

And each of them has their own truth and fact.

And so, I read a sentence today

" Others advice is one of much ways how God warn and guide you "

And so... I am thinking again...

Deeper than before...

And try, 

even it hasn't been practiced maximally, 

To hold my self from every thing I like... And thinking about it's bad side that can make angry. 

Ya know, such when gaming. 

Today games forced us to have good Internet connection. 

But, there is no perfect and 100% stable connection.

In critical moment, that unperfect connection can bring a fatal result to my game play.

Lagging...

A stuck...

Etc... 

And so I lose.

I Will angry for sure cuz my skills can't be shown 100% because of that very short problem that appear in "perfect moment"

Plus, a chanc of the enemies arrogance and online fake allies which resulting in bad-mouthing me make it worse. 

There is no Happiness at that very moment and the chance of that happen is quite high. 

As if the God said to me.

" See? Is that a happiness that you are looking for? "

No, 

at that very moment, I won't feel happy at all. 

I have failed to gain the happiness with the money, a.k.a, The time, I have invest to play game. 

That's no more than wasting my time. 

That's my loss.

My stupid addictive losses in my life. 

I do hope

My self and whoever reading this Will be wiser and better in using our very limited "Time"

Aameen.