‍Yesang sat at his desk holding an old small blue teddy bear. He looked at it with such volatile emotions but in actual fact his heart was pouring out to the agile toy because it belonged to his brother .

He has not seen him in so long but he still sees him in his dreams and the most traumatizing part is that he seems him as a child carrying a small teddy , dressed in the same clothes as the last time they met which was when there was fire that mercilessly claimed his family`s lives

Sangon had been with his brother in the backyard . Yesang was in the backyard because  he was uncomfortable with the awkward tension that his father created . Basically he didn't want to be near the man who always assumed preposterous things about  Yesang , implying that he is a bad influence on Sangon and the family in general  .He was paranoid by the extreme level of a lack of emotion that Yesang always displayed and he paid too much attention to it after the teachers and Hyunki suggested that Yesang could be a very `different `from anyone . All throughout his childhood , Yesang didn't want to engage with everyone. At school , when they played he never smiled or laughed at the jokes , if anyone offended him , he would simply look at them in a condescending and calculating manner and walk away without saying anything .Onto of that he was an extreme perfectionist , never wanting to get dirty , never wanting to work in art class and hating all sorts of group activities with noise and socializing . The other kids even called him scary. But they never told him because they were petrified of him nonetheless Sangon didn't find anything offish about his brother , maybe because he was still wet behind the ears . 

His mother only though it was that Yesang had a delayed speech development and might be shy about it . The grandparents were a bit unsteady because they would defend Yesang when his mother said it was anxiety but then they would agreed with Hyunki when he said that Yesang was built with different ingredients.   Furthermore these two old people didn’t treat Yesang as they did Sangon. Sangon was always approached with a soft tone but there was always a hesitation when they interacted with Yesang . Everyone in the house knew that much including Yesang but he didn't care and they probably knew that he didn't care , which made them even more uncomfortable.

On that particular forsaken day ,he remembers that he talked to Sangon for a little before Sangon ran into the house and he left. He cant recall where he went nor why he left but when he came back,  the house was on fire . There were a bunch of people  including paramedics, firefighters and police outside the house . He watched the team take out stretchers from he house and he partially knew that was his family members but can’t really say that he acknowledged it . The police car gave him a ride to the station to ask him some questions but he didn't say anything . At that instance they assumed he was mute . One officer asked him to write his name and he instead wrote that he wants to see his mother. In that instance someone called the station , that they had managed to get a hold of Hyunki and he was heading to the hospital . The officer took Yesang and they all went to the said place but it seemed that they arrived before Hyunki .since they were journeying to the nearest hospital , it didn't take too long.  When Yesang got inside , he was shown the room his brother was in . The doctor gave him the toy and told him to wait but he went outside and he just started at the window.

Hyunki found him there and like Yesang`s father, Hyunki started to spew bad words that  Yesang heard before but never knew what they meant ,. 

The two of them went back to a motel and throughout the whole two days , Hyunki kept Yesang locked in the next room. The little did nothing all day but stare out the window. At one point the officers came and announced that they don’t know what caused the fire but it was probably a gas leak. The officers mentioned the issue of Yesang`s deafness which shocked Hyunki but he nevertheless agreed to it . After exchanging some contacts for a therapists , the officer left . The afternoon that they returned to their ancestral home , Hyunki wasted no time and he locked Yesang  in the basement . Months later ,he decided to unlock him but that day Yesang ran away from home .Whether  or not Hyunki issued a missing person's  report is unclear but he probably didn't because of how much he had always been hostile against Yesang .

Yesang lived off doing things that no one his age would do. He would collect road kill and at one point he was so hungry that he actually ate some of it . Fortunately he only got some mild stomach ache . Three months passed as he lived eating from the garbage that he got tired of everything and he went into a church . 

The pastor opened his hands to him but he was quick to judge Yesang and said that he needs to speak more . He would give him food and a bath but then afterwards he would give him a mouthful of lectures . Yesang hated this but he didn't have a choice so he stayed there for a while . 

He grew up quite well for someone who struggled very badly .Although he was enrolled into a school, he never once set foot in the place but no one bothered to check because the contact details that Yesang provided were fake and always went to voicemail. He carried on coming to the church very once in a few times. When he hit his teenage years,  the growth spurt once again favored him that he caught the eye of a rich man `s daugther when she came for prayers with their mother. SHe fell for his looks and masculine presence . One thing lead to the other and she invited him for a party at her place and bought him clothes for the occasion . At that ball , he was dressed so intimidatingly that he looked way older than he was and resembled something more like a sexy vile beast than he did a person 

At the same event , he caught the attention of a mafia princess . She cajoled him and by the end of the night, she offered him money to copy some documents from he mansion . The amount she offered him was a little too much but he nonetheless did it because she was too tantalizing to have her requests declined. Plus the non-monetary reward she proposed lured Yesang like a fish on a hook

He did as he was told and delivered the copies to he agreed place . The deal went smoothly and was topped by a very steamy night between her and Yesang . After they were done , Yesang walked away with a quarter of a million dollars in hard cash . No less than fifty meters away he was robbed and attacked . 

That is when he sold his soul to the devil.

He hunted her down , forced to confess her backstabbing then made her take her own life in the most cruel way possible . In the world that her family is in that sort of death wasn’t anything shocking but in the innocent eyes , they only saw a depressed young beautiful girl .  Next he tracked down each and everyone of the guys that attacked him and made sure that they pay for what they did .

One of them worked for Kwangsun`s family .  Discovering this fact made it seem like he had opened a big can of worms because the guy was already dead and he died on duty during a mission. Yesang had unknowingly intercepted a large syndicate which is punishable by death if not worse  .

The guy`s colleagues found Yesang after a hard struggle but instead of punishing him , he suggested that he work for them , proposing that he can work much better . He confessed to killing some people and with that he got the job as the official cleaner . One thing lead to the other , that through every mission he would build connections. From personal feud , all the way to professional personnel , he cleaned them off the earth and remained unconstitutional every single time .Within no time , he became the continent `s most deadly man with a planned kill count of two thousand and sadistic count of five to eight thousand .

As if that wasn’t worse enough, he went to the pastor that gave him a place to stay nd he induced a heart attack in him .He didn't attend his burial because at that time he was tracking down his uncle to lock him in his mansion .

All in all ,he has been doing this for long enough that the longest he had kept anyone on his hit list alive is as long as Jinyoung had stayed in his house , which is not very long .

He closed his eyes .

He had so much emotional blockage that he can't even feel anything that wasn't temporary. 

He can't really tell what he will feel if he ever meets his brother in . He is not even sure if he will be able to recognize him or if Sangon will be able to recognize Yesang . Over fifteen years have passed since he last saw his three and half year old brother. At the time , he still ate his fingers and played with toys such as this one on the table . Right now , he must be a grown man and probably on his way to university like Jinyoung.

Ms Jun knocked on the door and she came in carrying a newspaper. She handed it to Yesang who took it emotionlessly

It was his next mission and it was from Taeson . That means he might want him to  foil some of foreign mogul's plans . Additionally the coordinates and coding in the paper , give a location in the far side. 

He threw it on the table and he placed the bear once again in the desk before he asked about Jinyoung.

"He had gone to buy food . he is currently sleeping in his room!", she answered and he nodded but saw that she has something to say .

"His injuries won't heal ! I tried to add some medicines but I think he spills it away ", she complained , taking out some cream from her apron that she brought when she was out collecting the newspapers .

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He kicked the door open and he startled Jinyoung who jumped and he hugged his legs on the bed .. His face was puffy like he had been crying . The look of distraught and instability show he hadn't been able to sleep

He scrutinized Jinyoung but didn't know what to say or how to start the conversation.

" I went to buy food ! ", he stated and Yesang moved closer but Jinyoung jumped a little .

He ignored that as he persisted in moving to him . Just as Jinyoung was about to relocate away, Yesang caught him and he rolled up his T-shirt . Indeed the wounds were looking worse .

He took some medicine from his pocket that he got from Ms Jun and he applied it carelessly on his back . he knew the wounds probably hurt but it was not his business.

"If these are not healed by next week , I will add more !", Yesang casually  told him 

"Next week?", he wondered if that means that he is allowed to stay here .

" I need to go to Istanbul and probably Ukraine so the earliest I can return is next week. ", he stood up and Jinyoung was confused .

" I cant bring you with me unless you are going to help , which we both know you can't ", 

Jinyoung pulled his shirt down and he stood up inform to Yesang. Only now was it apparent that Jinyoung was a bit taller .

" wanna bet? ",