Oups, I think it was my writting erors.
So no, I don't hope for his suicide but I write there was a possibility he attempt to commit suicide after seeing his dysphoria, but it is just a theory, and personnally I want him go smoothly with his transformation, but author at already decided a hard path for the MC
Don't worry I am not sadistic at this point.
I will reread myself to see how did you missinterpreted my comment to make some correction.