[Huh?]
When I came to, the sight that welcomed me was an endless sea of darkness, as far as the eye could see. I looked around and saw nothing, just an empty void with me floating at the center.bI could feel the cold, I could feel myself drifting into nothingness, infinitely, without any direction.
[Where am I? How did I end up here? What's going on?]
The questions came one after another as I desperately tried to calm myself down.
[I need to keep my cool.] I thought to myself.
The last thing I remember was the feeling of a thousand knives stabbing me.
[My name is.. Ryouma Satorou. I was.. A college student.. A history major? We were on a boat trip in Antarctica.. I was at the deck of the ship, playing that old game of mine.. what was it's name? I can't remember. Then I.. slipped?..]
Fragments of my memory were forming inside of my head, slowly completing a picture.
Then I remembered.
[No.] I said to myself. [Someone pushed me and I fell into the freezing cold water.]
I could remember the pain I experienced, the worthless struggle to grasp at anything, I remember the cold, and then the darkness.
We were on our way to study a newly found ruin in the Arctic, they said that it might hold the origin of men, not that I believed them though. But I could still say that I was excited.
[So I died huh? Damn, that's a bust..] I chuckled to myself as I scratched my head.
Well, it's not like anyone will care anyway. My parents had long since cut ties with me, I have no girlfriend, no friends, nothing. I guess it doesn't make any difference that I died anyway. It's just a shame that I wasn't able to see the ruins.
As I drifted deeper into the darkness, I wondered whether this was the place where all souls go to when they die.
[If so, is there a chance that I would encounter my old mentor?]
I found some semblance in that thought, though I doubted it. Maybe this is the place where worthless people like me end up when we die.
I still couldn't see anything, there was nothing but darkness. I refused to believe that someone like my mentor, who was full of kindness and compassion would end up in a place like this.
And so I continued to drift, without direction, without aim. Just the emptiness that is this void.
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How long has it been since I ended up here? One week? Two weeks?? I couldn't even tell anymore. I spent my days just drifting about in the nothingness, like a driftwood lost in a vast sea of ocean. I did everything I could just to entertain myself, I sang, I counted, I even tried talking to God, but no one answered, why would they? I'm just a worthless trash who wasted my life away.
Even more days passed like this in this dark empty world. I could clearly feel my sanity slowly breaking. I felt that if this continued, I'd lose all semblance of my former self.
That was until one particular day, or night I don't know. I felt something strange, suddenly, a faint glint caught my eye. I thought for a moment that I was hallucinating, but I saw it again, a faint flickering light.
Though it was far away I could clearly see it. Seeing this I did everything I could to try and move towards the light.
As I got closer, I felt something new, something I hadn't felt in a long time, warmth.
Just then, the light suddenly became bigger, like an explosion of sorts.
It was so dazzling I could barely keep my eyes open, but I could see that there was something there, something leaving.
As that something left, I could feel my self getting pulled in by the light. Slowly but surely, it was drawing me in.
I got closer and closer, until finally, I saw just what it was that was leaving the light. A young boy, barely at the age of five from what I could guess, his body was so thin he could even be mistaken as a skeleton. He had his eyes closed, but I could see sadness and suffering in his face.
[Hey, boy! Where are you going?] I tried calling out to him.
[There's nothing there! Come back here! You're better off in the light!]
I yelled at him to try and get his attention, but there was no response. Just like that, we passed by each other.
[Hey boy! Come on! Wake up! There's nothing there! Come with me!]
I tried to get his attention again, but there was still no response, at this time I was still getting pulled in by the light, the warmth I felt was so comfortable I wanted to bask in it forever, but I couldn't just let the poor boy wonder into that nothingness all alone, I don't want him to feel the same loneliness I felt while I was drifting into the void.
And so I decided. I desperately fought and squirmed and inched my way towards the young boy. The pull of the light was not that strong, so I was able to fight it. I chased after the young boy and grabbed his arm. It was so slender it felt like it would break anytime. I pulled him closer to me and hugged his body.
[You're not going there, it's lonely there, and cold. You're coming with me]
Maybe seeing the boy all alone reminded me of my own pitiful self. Back when I was alive I had no one, I spent my days alone.. and lonely. I wouldn't wish that to anyone, much less someone like this boy who looks like he's suffered so much.
I held the young boy as I was pulled in by the light. Once more, I felt the warmth so comfortable, it was as though I was melting, but that was just the thing, we were actually melting. The boy and I were melting, figuratively and literally. It was though as if we were merging, not just our body, but also our minds. I remembered everything the boy had suffered through, I could feel all of his emotions, his sadness, loneliness, pain, suffering, everything. His memories were flawlessly merging with mine, as though creating a new self.
It was scary, it felt as if I was going to disappear. But I didn't, I didn't lose anything, in fact, I could say that I gained something.
As we got closer to the light, the warmth gradually decreased. It continued to do so until I felt a coldness that was even colder than the void. But it was too late now, I braced myself for whatever is to come and went into the light.
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As I blinked my eyes, I could see the night sky littered with dozens of beautiful stars, small droplets of snow fell to my face, instantly making me feel cold.
I was mesmerized, how long has it been since I've seen stars these beautiful, and snow too.
Although my amazement was short lived, an intense feeling assaulted my entire body. I was cold, wet, and very much in pain, then the foul stench entered my nose, it smelled of blood and garbage, when I tried to move severe pain assaulted me from all directions.
[What the hell is this?! Why is my body so painful? And weak??]
I thought to myself as I tried to get up, but then, I remembered, I was beaten to a pulp by those degenerates. They beat me up then left me to die like I was some form of animal
"Those fuckers"
I cursed as I spat a mouth full of blood.
[It's no good, I'm gonna die if I stay like this, all that time wondering in the void would have been for nothing]
With this thought in mind I mustered up all my remaining strength and stood up. I could see the many cuts and bruises I had in my body, I was bleeding very badly.
[At this rate I'm gonna be back in the void in no time, wait, what if there is no second time, what if after I die here I just cease to exist?]
"Shit"
I unconsciously cursed as I thought about me dying again and ceasing to exist.
[I've already died twice, fuck if I'm gonna let myself die here again]
Anger and frustration welled up inside me.
"I'm gonna live, whether you like it or not! I'm not gonna die anymore!" I cursed into the night sky.
I took my first steps forward. The alley that had once spelled my death was now the place of my rebirth.
It's kind disturbing knowing he'll get together with multiple girls as half of a child wouldn't that be the same as child molestation/rape? He'll he want even brought to that world willingly which is even worse.
I kinda explained at the end that his two memories synced with one another, forming an entirely new persona, so he's not exactly half of a child. He becomes his very own persona, but with the memories of modern Earth.
I was no longer Ryouma Satorou, nor was I the boy from the slums, I was something else, and I wanted to live.
@TachimeSan I see that’s a lot better than what I thought was going on with his soul/body his big will his harem get besides the princess and his overly spoiled master?
@Animelovernumber1 heheeee we'll see
@TachimeSan I hope you don't decide to make it so big to the point where some girls are forgotten or become side characters. Also between the princess and spoiled master the MC has his hands full so for his sake I hope you don't make it that much bigger I don't even want to imagine the mental burden he would have to go through each day dealing with all of them.
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