I know there might be a lot of questions on how why I suddenly disappeared for so long. I really really am sorry. During the month of June, my father got Lyme disease. He had fevers, headaches, and he felt really weak. The doctor misdiagnosed it as a bad flu since the bite mark wasn't the typic bull mark and he mistook it as a rash and an allergic breakout. With that, my father was given the wrong medicine as well as healthcare. As the month went on, his condition improved at times and turned for the worst at times.
Just a week ago, he collapsed and rushed into the hospital. It was found that his heart was unstable as well as not working so he needed to get a pacemaker. Being that he couldn't speak English, I had to be the one to always translate. It took a strain on my mental health as it began harder and harder to tell him his health was deteriorating. So from this time, I began really unstable emotionally and mentally. I just graduated from high school so I was already feeling a bit lost. Adding this, it became a strain.
Maybe because it's that I'm still young and not experienced, I couldn't cope with it well. I wrote a lot of chapters just to delete everything. This was a cycle I couldn't get out of. I wrote, I deleted it.
My father's a lot better now although he depending on the pacemaker 100%.
I'm more stable now.
There was a reader who reached out since I was quiet for so long and I realized how wrong it was of me to not give a warning. Maybe I really haven't matured enough. I should have said something so you, as my readers, wouldn't have to come back constantly to find no new chapters.
Also, I should be clear. I won't drop this novel. I just won't.
It's a personal promise and a promise I made because of another reader.
I hate breaking promises because I know how it feels on the other end.
With that note, I really hope you guys forgive me. I can't ask for more. I'm still learning and I'm trying to grow. The good news from this experience is that I went through such a chaotic time and I'll recreate it within my writing.
Please enjoy the next chapter.
Havent matured enough? Shit, the vast majority of us wouldnt have even been able to deal with that unfortunate situation. If anything you should be commended for having your priorites right and focusing on family over trying to please us strangers. I hope your situation improves, and im glad to hear you want to continue to write this story. Your health comes first though, dont overexert yourself!
Go and get yourself some cookies!
And thanks for the chapter!
Thank you for your kind words. *noms the cookie*
*sends all the positive energy at his disposal your way*
You've earned more than just some cookies milady, you've earned the admiration and respect of your readers.
Admittedly, that may not be as comforting as cookies, so I'm going to second this notion, and simply bury you in cookies and yummy things!
*backs up a dump truck loaded with goodies and tips the truck bed skywards*
As a reader, I just wanted to extend my support, I hope that things get better soon for you and your family! And I also wanted to let you know that there's nothing to worry about! As you said, you're young and were going through a difficult moment, it's more than understandable you were unable to write anything you felt satisfied with or just, well, write anything at all.
Idk...what I'm trying to transmit is that there's really nothing for you to feel guilty about. At the end of the day, you don't really owe us anything tbh, and I'm saying this as both a writer and reader myself! It's already more than enough that you've shared your story with us ?
Either way, I hope now that you feel more stable that you take the time to relax. Don't feel like you have to make up for lost time or something, and just take it slow. Otherwise you might end up feeling frustrated and / or burning yourself out - and at the end of the day, your health is the most important.
Sending good wishes to you and your family ?
First off, I’m glad that your father is doing well! Also, the mere fact that you had to deal with so much on your shoulders is stressful enough. I wouldn’t have even thought of continuing to write if such a thing happened to me.
Secondly, what goes on in your life is definitely more important that writing a story (in my opinion). Some readers often forget that authors are people with their own lives. That being said, I do hope that all is well with you, dear.
Thirdly, I personally don’t think that there is anything to forgive you for. You had a lot to deal with and you have no obligation towards us. We come for entertainment but I don’t what that to be at the cost of your happiness, health, sanity, etc.
Lastly, I just hope that you’re doing ok. Please take care of yourself and family first before anything else.
- ❤️ A Heartfelt Fan
P.S. Looking forward to it favorite MC screwing with people ?
It's a blessing to have your story, please take care of yourself first. Readers can tell when an author feels pressured (or gets burned out), it shows in the writing. We'd all rather it take longer and still come from happiness in your heart.
With that said, thoughts and prayers are with you. And thank you for keeping your stories going.
I hope that that your father and yourself is getting better each day. Health - mentally, emotionally and physically is important.
I think you are really brave and strong to face the situation with your father.