Rey said as if I, Ana, and Rai had met her. But I don't remember it at all. In addition to what Raihand said earlier, he meant Rey?. Am I really forgetting something?. I guess when I get home I'll have to check my old childhood photo album. I really want to know the truth, and when did I ever meet Rey.
I have to discuss this with Rai and Ana. And again this morning Rai said that he was looking for a transfer student he might know. If Rey was the transfer student he was talking about, that would be a solid clue. Rey even said my name the first time we met. Doesn't that mean there's something he's hiding, or something he doesn't want to say and makes us all remember it ourselves without him reminding us?.
I looked for Rai in Ana's class, but she doesn't seem to be here. I really wanted to know right now, so I asked Ana who was in her class right now.
"Ana, Rai was here, right?"
"Yes but he is not like usual" replied Ana with a sullen face.
"I mean, unusual how?" I asked in confusion.
"He asked things about the transfer student, to be honest, I was also curious, but the transfer student didn't know where he was going" answered Ana.
"What's the name of the transfer student, by the way?" I asked to confirm.
"I call the transfer student Ian," she replied with a smile.
Ian? not Rey?. Wa.. wait a minute. Then Rai is just curious about the student whose name is Ian, not Rey. If so, who is Rey? Has he been in this school for a long time? This all confused me. But if you think about it, Rey never said that he is a transfer student.
"SYENA!" shouted Ana.
"Oh, what's wrong Ana?" I answered in surprise.
"Why are you daydreaming all of a sudden?"
"Ah forget it, I don't think it's important hehehe" I replied.
"Syena before you go, I just want to ask you something" Ana put on a serious face.
"What's that,……Ana?".
"Do you feel like you've met someone but forgot about that person? and when you try to remember it, you still can't remember it at all".
The question made me even dizzier with this situation. What she's making is Rey?. Earlier, Rey also said that Ana also forgot her, right?.
"Honestly recently I felt the same way. So if you ask for a solution I can't help, because I also need a solution." I answered honestly while smiling at Ana.
After saying that to Ana, Ana's smartphone notification goes off. He saw the message he got and after that, he said to me.
"Syen, it's okay if you don't have a solution. Looks like I'll have the answer already." Ana smiled at me.
Ana's smile is very sweet which makes my heart a little calm. And also, if he already got the answer. Does that mean the person he's referring to isn't Rey?.
I left Ana's class and walked towards the classroom with a gloomy face. The pain and fear that had been forgotten suddenly returned. How can I forget this fear and heartbreak? I really love Rai. Since childhood, he has always made me smile. He gave me courage and confidence and even saved me from death. How could I not fall in love with him after what happened then? I love him, but I have to give in, or Ana will do the unimaginable. Moreover, Ana once said that He did not hesitate to kill me. Thinking about it all. Made me sad and depressed.
After school, I walked to a deserted beach where no one was passing by. Only the sound of the ocean waves could be heard, and a slight sound of the wind blowing. There I stood on a large rock. I wanted to scream with all my might and let out all my heart. I felt tears fall from my face. I'm sad that I can only see the person I love with someone else. I could be selfish, but the stakes are lives. I decided to scream to calm my heart.
"GOD!!..., WHY DID YOU GIVE ME THIS BAD DESTINY?! if loving him is the cause of this pain!!... I know moving on and forgot about all of it is the only way. BUT WHY CAN'T I RELEASE MY LOVE!! WHY I CAN'T FORGET ABOUT THIS FEELING, THIS..... It's like a curse. What sin have I done that...make me get this curse... AAAAAAAAHHHHRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!!"
I let out all the feelings of anger and sadness that were inside of me. I shouted out loud, even knowing no one can't hear me because my voice is swallowed by the sound of waves. While sitting on the rock and crying. I slowly felt suffocated and tried to wipe away all the tears, but these tears continued to flow relentlessly. This sadness is only caused by a broken heart... it's because of love. I know love is stupid, crying about it is also stupid. But I can't help myself from being consumed by it. Just in case... just in case I find another one.
But I can't forget Raihand at all. My heart is locked to him. Why do I love him? I hate this love. This love doesn't give me happiness there at all. This love only gives sadness. If only I had never met Raihand. I guess if that happened, I would be out of this world of sadness now.
