"You'd better not be about to say 'I'm Sorry'."
Madoka and Toshi sat on the bench long enough for one of the zoo employees to come over and check on them. The employee quietly stepped around the tree to catch Madoka's attention. He made a concerned expression and Madoka shook her head slightly to indicate that they were fine. The employee made the okay hand gesture and walked off. All Madoka did was hold Toshi while he had his very subdued breakdown and occasionally stroked the bunny. Toshi finally calmed down right around the time when the rabbit finally leaped out of his lap to go scampering off. He was opening his mouth to take a breath when Madoka cut him off with her preemptive admonishment.
Instead he said nothing. Madoka continued, "I'm assuming that's what you are going to say. Or something along those lines. Something about how you ruined the date or some such nonsense and blah blah blah which is based on the assumption you ruined the date."
Toshi kept leaning on Madoka's shoulder for a few moments more, thinking about what she said before he finally spoke, "Didn't I?"
"Ruin the date?" Madoka pulled her head back a bit so she could look down at Toshi, "I don't consider it ruined. Got to go to the zoo... spent some time with a cute guy... got to pet the bunnies..." She paused before adding, "Got a history lesson on chairs." Toshi snorted in amusement at that last line. Madoka gently caressed the top of Toshi's head, "That's a good sign."
Toshi straightened up, rubbed his face, then leaned forward to put his elbows on his knees and his face in his hands, "I'm so embarrassed."
"Only three people came by to record a video of you and upload it to the internet." Toshi looked at Madoka out of the corner of his eye. Madoka added, "And one news reporter." She held up a hand, "I believe tomorrow's headline will read..." She slowly moved her hand across the air between them, "Breaking News! Toshi is human!"
Toshi frowned and turned away, keeping his gaze towards the ground as he shaded his eyes, "Not funny."
Madoka shrugged and looked sheepish, "Sorry. Trying to be." She leaned forward so she could look up at Toshi from below, "And, it's news to me."
Toshi peeked at Madoka from under his fingers, "That I'm human?"
Madoka nodded and straightened up, "Yeah. From over here you are like this... monolith. This dispassionate ice king who never shows any emotions. You are calm, cool, collected, and utterly expressionless." She jogged her head to the side indicating the entrance to the zoo, "I'm used to my father who is an expert in guilting me into doing things for him." She rolled a hand in the air, "Or boys pouting to get their way." She glanced over her shoulder and muttered, "Frickin' Kingo has figured out how to weaponize tears, I tell you."
Toshi thought about it, then straightened up, "Boys cry a lot?"
Madoka squinted and opened her mouth, then immediately covered it with her hand. She looked away, "Sorry. I was going to say something sarcastic." She looked back and folded her hands, "Yes. It's a genetic thing. Women have this inborn instinct to... well... mother. We see children and want to protect them. We see tears and we want to make them go away." She pointed both index fingers at herself, then at Toshi, "We love men. We do. I know there is all this crap out there about how men have to worry about being oppressed and stuff, which does happen and has happened, but the vast majority of women just... love men."
Toshi sighed, "So men take advantage of that."
Madoka squinted, "You make it sound sinister." She reached out to pat him on the knee, "What? You never helped someone who was feeling bad?"
Toshi blinked, "Uh... sure I have."
She nodded, "Feels nice, huh?" Toshi nodded. Madoka held up both hands, palms up, "Well, girls like helping boys. I mean..." She looked at the ground, "I'm not claiming we're all saints. Some girls do it and expect things in return." She looked away, then back to Toshi, "My mom explained it like this. There are good girls and nice girls. A good girl does the right thing because it's the right thing to do. A nice girl does the right thing because it's a transaction. You now owe her." Madoka nodded slowly as if remembering a past event that confirmed her mother's advice, "A nice girl then expects something in return. When she doesn't get it... she stops being nice and feels like she was cheated, even if the transaction was only in her mind."
Toshi sniffed and rubbed his nose as he thought, "That's... profound."
Madoka nodded, "I lucked out with mom." They both just sat there in silence. The sounds of the zoo drifted over the both of them as the leaves overhead rustled in the light wind. This caused the shadows around them to flicker and shift in a mosaic across the hard-packed earth. Madoka broke the silence first, "Want to hear something embarrassing?"
Toshi looked up, "About you?"
She nodded, "About me."
He shrugged, "Okay. Sure."
Madoka leaned in close, cupped a hand to her mouth, and whispered into Toshi's ear, "I want to be a veterinarian."
Toshi quirked an eyebrow as Madoka leaned back and stretched her arms out along the top of the bench, "Yup. Silly, huh?"
Toshi eyed Madoka, "People find that silly?" He scrunched up his nose with confusion, "I don't think that's silly."
Madoka snorted and smirked, "You'd be the first." She looked off out over the fence to the rest of the zoo, "Guys are vets. Guys handle animals. Girls aren't vets. They're doctors or something like that." She looked back at Toshi, "You know you have to go through MORE schooling than a doctor to become a vet?"
Toshi shook his head, "No I did not."
She nodded, "And there aren't a lot of schools for vets. If you want to go to the best, you have to go to America."
Toshi thought about that before asking, "Are you going to do that when you graduate?"
Madoka looked out over the fence again, "I wish. Oh, I got the grades... maybe I'll get a sports scholarship, but chances are I won't have enough money." She glanced back at Toshi, "Mom wants me to be a doctor, like her."
Toshi nodded, "If you had the money, would you do it?"
She gave Toshi a harsh look, "Duh. In a heartbeat." She looked away, "Sort of why I haven't been dating. It'd have to be a guy who is willing to move to America and wait the twelve years it would take for me to even BEGIN my practice."
Toshi responded in English, [Do you need to learn English?] Madoka responded, [I am get more good with it.] Then she looked surprised, "Wait a sec... I didn't know you spoke English. You're good at it. You sound rather fluent"
Toshi shrugged, "Eh. If you need someone to practice with, let me know."
Madoka's face went blank as she stared at Toshi. He stared back. Eventually, he looked away, "What?"
She looked away as well, "You don't fight fair."
Toshi glanced back, "Huh?"
Madoka smiled and laughed softly, "Never mind."
Toshi frowned, "Uhhh... no. Explain." There was a long pause, "Please?"
Madoka stared back for quite a while before she shrugged, "Okay. You asked for it." She started counting on her fingers, "You don't just know baseball, but can play it. You are easy to talk to. You aren't a manipulative bastard. You paid for the food and didn't expect me to cover for it. You like animals. And..." She looked away, "You're wounded."
Toshi looked surprised, "Excuse me?" Madoka glanced back, "You have this sadness about you, like you're broken, but you have too much pride to admit it. You're this beautiful, wounded stag who refuses to be caught... who rather die than show any weakness." Madoka bit her lower lip and smiled ruefully, "And I think I already made it clear that I want to be a healer." She looked at her hands, "And then you tell me you can speak English. Your sister raves about your grades. You're good enough to get into Cornell... in America."
Toshi's eyes slowly grew wider as he listened. When Madoka finished, all Toshi could say was, "Oh."
She nodded and kept looking at her hands, "Oh."
Toshi nodded slowly, "I guess I don't fight fair." He looked down at the ground, "Didn't even know I was fighting."
Madoka let out a bark of laughter and covered her mouth as she grinned at Toshi, "Yeah... that's part of your charm. You aren't even trying." Her smile abruptly faded, "I think I need to get you back home."
Madoka stood up.
Toshi looked a little confused at the sudden change in the atmosphere, "Uh... any particular reason?"
Madoka looked down at Toshi, with just a hint of fear in her eyes. She offered a hand to Toshi to help him stand. He took it and allowed her to pull him to his feet. Madoka held onto his hand for far longer than she should, slowly caressing Toshi's fingers before abruptly letting go with an announcement.
"It's getting late."
She turned and started walking off, saying nothing else, and walking a hint too fast to hold a conversation. A short time later, they arrived at the parking lot and got into the car that she borrowed from her mom for the date. As she fumbled to put the keys in the ignition, Toshi reached over to put his hand over hers, "Whoa. One sec."
She stopped, but didn't look at him, "What?"
Toshi slowly let go, "Did I do something?"
Madoka shook her head and quickly replied, "Nope. Nothing at all."
Toshi looked at her for a while, then looked out the windshield, "If you don't want to explain, it's okay."
Madoka closed her eyes. She reached back up to start the car but stopped. She sat there a while before she finally spoke, "Look. I'm good at fixing things, and helping people, and being part of the team, and making sure everyone around me is good. I like that. I like being in control. I like being the shoulder to cry on. It drove my mom nuts the way I would bring home wounded animals. I found a half-dead, nearly frozen baby squirrel when I was going to school back in elementary school. I kept it in my backpack most of the morning trying to save it until the teacher wondered why I kept looking in my backpack. She freaked, mom was called, and I wound up spending the next three months raising a squirrel in my bedroom."
Toshi slowly turned to look back at Madoka. He sat there, listening quietly.
"It would escape from the cage and tear up my room. I was the only one who could get it back in the cage. Eventually, I had to let it go. I was sad, but I knew I did well. So I made a little compartment." She tapped her chest over her heart, "One side of my heart is for me, the other side is for helping and then letting go." She nodded for a bit, then abruptly made a fist and pounded her heart once with a hard thud, "This." She looked at Toshi out of the corner of her eye, "I don't deal well with this. I deal well with everyone else's pain but-" She looked away, "I only let things into this side, never the other side, because only on the other side can I get hurt."
Toshi nodded slowly, "I... know the feeling."
Madoka nodded, "Oh yeah. I get that. I get it so well. I have this feeling that you understand me... very well." She swallowed, "I'm not prepared to have anyone in my life. I thought I was just taking you out to help you adjust. To re-learn how to socialize. It was a favor." She glanced back at Toshi, "I think you might be the first guy I ever met who might... understand me. If that makes-"
Toshi cut her off by taking her hand and squeezing it. Madoka looked down at his hand and then up into his eyes. He was smiling back, "I get it. I do. I understand entirely." He brought her hand up to his mouth, "Thank you for talking with me about all this heavy stuff. Thank you for helping me to sort myself out. Thank you for helping me to relax." He gently kissed her knuckles. She took in a sharp breath as he did, surprised at how fast her heart was beating.
"Thank you..."
"For a fun date."
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Madoka - The White Knight Votes: 9 34.6%
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Mieko - The Shy Hero Votes: 2 7.7%
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Abi - The Suspicious Tsundere Votes: 2 7.7%
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Ruri - The Nerdy Best Friend Votes: 1 3.8%
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Naora - The Bad Girl Votes: 12 46.2%
We haven't actuallyseen some of them interact with him like this yet.
So: 'Story: introducing three of seven characters in a manner where you actually learn about them'.
Author: 'Please pick one of seven for shipping.'
Me: Please properly introduce the others first.
I'm just curious. It'll be interesting to see if anyone changes their mind later. Unfortunately I don't really have the option to drop the next twenty chapters THEN make a poll.
Hell yeah
Regardless of how I personally like any of them, I'd say Naora has a major lead in relationship points. I mean their relationship is literally at the point of star crossed lovers! They would be likely married if they were a bit older, and didn't have the criminal drama.
None of the others are even officially girlfriend material, yet. Madoka is getting close, and has potential go far in the right circumstances.
Ruri is quite close in a platonic sense, and likely could be an option once things quiet down. Really it seems like she backed out because he was not in the right stage for a romance with her. If things finally stabilized she would definitely reconsider.
The other two are really just strangers at this point, but both have good potential.
Beautiful chapter <3
Love this story
Naora seems like the only one who'd be a romanitc interest given the large focus on the MC retaining his traditional masculine role in a relationship. The crime/family feud is in the way, but a lot of that might be solved with money.
Madoka, Abi, and Ruri are all endearing, but come across as best being friends and or working together.
Mieko from what we've seen so far has a lot of potential to upset, the initial impressions are good but we've yet to see how similar or not she is to the world's common sense from further personal interactions. There will be the constant tension of not wanting to move forward though because Toshi is already in a thing with Naora.
I'm sure Mieko has some interesting family dojo thing going on and Abi will be a sweetheart with a compelling backstory with Toshi's sister, but it seems like a helluva high bar story wise to get Toshi to dump Naora, or do so and not choose to be single. It'd spit in the face of all the build up of his character, as being opposite of the dude who just sold himself all the time.
Oh Yeah! That's what I forgot. I got to have Ursagi show up.
I really want to see the date with Abi, Toshi's little interaction with her was very fun
we need a none of thee above option.
Naora is a friend with benefits, unlikely to be public or permeant. The family issues she is dealing with, and the different family issues Toshi would have to deal with are both big barriers. she still got my vote for now.
Ruri is "just a friend" and too intimidated by him to be a partner. she would be a good support for him, but is trapped by "traditional gender roles" and unlikely to set them aside to be what he needs.
Meiko hasn't been shown but I suspect will be more traditional than Toshi will put up with.
Madoka would make a great friend, but needs a support to become what she wants to be. Toshi is another primary and is too involved with his own issues to focus on what she needs.
Toshi may stay single after the manditory dates or play the field, but I doubt he will settle down with anyone that has been shown... maybe partner with another world swapper?
That's what the comment section is for.
I agree at this point the story is incomplete, but I'm just curious as to how it looks from your side of the internet. I have my own impression of how the story is going, but I also have my own hang-ups. And I will repeat, I haven't figure it out yet. I'm an organic writer. I'm like the architect from the matrix. I created the equation and I have to solve every line of the equation in turn.
I have a hard time seeing past the next step in the equation.
I'm trying to be realistic about the characters (as much as one can given the absurd situation), so I am trying to stick with the main point of the story (Here's what the world is flipped on this axis), while still letting the characters be 'real'. I have rules and I follow them. I have 'values' for the characters and they conflict and have to make choices that affect outcomes which in turn affects other characters... etc etc etc...
I always hated it when an author decides the 'ship' before hand so in order to make SURE the ship goes down without too many readers getting pissed, they deliberately assassinate the character of the 'alternates'. I always felt insulted by that. The characters are what they are and I should do my best to have them act according to their 'axioms'. I shouldn't tear someone down, to keep you guessing, but build the others up, to keep you guessing.
For example, Madoka is the white knight, with all the perks and flaws that go with it. She has a plan to become something special and devote herself to her career, but also wants to have a family. Toshi appeals to her on the level that he'd actually be able to keep up with her, but at the same time appeals to her Martyr Complex. His 'broken' nature is like catnip to her.
Not the best reason to be with someone.
It'd be a good fit for some reasons, bad for others. Same with all of them, I think. If I'm doing my job right, I'd like the poll to come out to fairly even. Anyone that doesn't get voted for clearly is someone I need to focus on for development. If by the next poll they still get no votes, well... That says something as well.
And I think I said I like my relationships like tangled up Christmas tree lights covered in cheese wiz and fire ants. You see... this isn't random. This isn't even 'the red string of fate'. There are agendas at play and Toshi is a major piece on the chessboard. God might have a hands off approach to humans and value free will...
But God isn't home right now... is he?
@TheEldritchGod Hope your work is going well, was thinking more about this story and came back to reread the comments.
Wanted to say that from my point of view you're succeeding in your goal of showing how each character has their own values and how they color and weight their decisions, and I appreciate it as a reader.
@BDF2 - The project is stretching on longer than I anticipated. I expressed this issue and then was promptly offered additional pay. Ironically, I wasn't trying to get more money, but more TIME. Alas, I am a man of my word and intend to finish this. I'm not unhappy about the work. In fact, far from it, but... well...
It's WORK. Writing this was fun. Ghost writing is work and with it being work becomes non-fun. On top of wanting to get back to this, I had someone approach me about HKN. AND a friend came to me asking me to repay a favor and I feel indebted to him, so that's going to take up time as well. Let's not forget it's getting to summer and I'd actually like to enjoy time with my family. (Not to mention all the house work I have to get done.)
It'll get all sorted out. I will return to this, I just have no ETA at this point.
@TheEldritchGod How dare you! I demand a full refund.
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I might have to check out HKN as well, be well in your endeavors and thank you for replying =)
@TheEldritchGod maybe also add a paypal or patreon and get some shinies, no strings attached, your story is nice