Nothing is eternal on this world

Not even this universe itself, but if reality is like a river of illusion then the fishes living in it are the only thing that is real, while all the illusion becomes fake. If you accept with all your mind and heart that you are fake and everything you see is real then something abnormal happens. and that abnormality happens to your thoughts and emotions as they are ever-changing they flow and they never stop, they act just like reality but the body which acts on these thoughts make them real and that is the duality of thoughts and emotions. Thoughts never persist in this heaven and earth they get eradicated as salt gets dissolved in water. But salt in the sea is never eradicated it just exists in a different form "if you think it is fake then it is fake if you think it is real, it is real " that is how the theory worked on Earth, but the salt will diffuse everywhere in surrounding until even Its particle will not be felt in a million of miles. A grain of salt in a sea of salinity does not make a difference but an oil droplet on the water is of a different category altogether.

If you understand this conundrum then you understand that All things great or small have desires and we want all these desires to be meaningful and we want these desires an important purpose and who will be the one to judge this, of course,it will be you but we are the action taker and we also become the perspective it becomes cumbersome and stupid, so you become the person who take action and another become the judge for your action. one carrying perspective and other carrying action. Both make the word called responsibility. an action taken in an order to take more action, and all the actions which we take should have necessary meaning or purpose. Yama or Lucifer both are judges of life in human history or theology. The parchment with yama image becomes his perspective and whole thoughts and emotions become the action and all the thoughts that resonate with you become his meaning.

Life of ours is very small but think of a memory chip, it is also very small but billions of them move an entire internet system. life is a conclusion the universe had reached after countless aeons so no matter how puny you are compared to it. You are still the conclusion of this universe. That is how the raven boy felt.

When he pulled the trigger he thought it was an act of freeing himself from the realty and that what he thinks is the reality was the past of his abuse, his mother broken and bruised body and the lovely smile of her sister these all things make his reality. Death becomes the key to opening his path,'s door. And his path becomes unmovable like a rock and his thoughts persist like oil droplet in the sea for a moment and he envisioned demons, hell and brutality and chaos .so the thought was of derision and madness which resonate in every animal which has life. Any life in this world which can feel emotions and are intelligent can have these evil thoughts, they are quite easily able to resonate with any being of self-harm, ulterior motive or destructive tendencies.

If any being doesn't resonate with him he would be dispersed like salt, but the universe is vast and deep and any probability in this universe is a complete possibility for it. but the thoughts of order and love are not truly immovable as they suffer from same suffering. Suffering happens to all of us and it is true all across this multiverse, so it is easy to open to chaos rather than order.

His body began to dissolve and everything he was to people in this society turned into a droplet of whirlpool with no defining feature, he was irregular and undetectable. And then something resonates with his very being and thoughts in a completely naturalistic way.

As two electrons with the same spin momentum can swap their position in that same way he can swap his thoughts and emotions with the person resonating with it.

There was No white light and no phenomenal God who was waiting for him.To judge his life decision and action., there was merely a change in panorama, his scenery of rubble and black burnt corpses were swapped to the scenery of quaint and quiet castle with irregular bricks and artistic portraitts hanging down from ceiling.

Looking around and seeing the sky , he was completely sure , it was not Earth, as earth cannot have such strange , alien multicoloured sky. and in pure ecstasy he exclaimed with complete joy and happiness.

I did it,I did it. ...yes, yes!!!! 

Ohhhhhhhhhh   yyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My conjecture was right.i thought it was the end.Man!!! fuck those all bitches and geniuses .you just need opportunity and a heaven defying luck to proof anything.

I did it.I reincarnated ,even if I don't have a body even if there is no soul describled by religion.There is no hell where i wil suffer for eternity.if that fucker of a father did not pull the trigger ,I would be living a great life, Fuck!!!!! 

My sister! !!! , my mom! I am sorry! I cannot do more! I am tired of it all, tired of seeing your crying face, tired of holding my depression , tired of holding off these suicidial thoughts,I am tired of it all.i did what I can? I did not want to suffer more.i will live my own life in here ,I will shape my own purpose and reality ,I am free! Dead Gods!!! I am free! I hated my life in Earth except you sister and my mother ,I hated it all.hated that suffering! Hated that condescending eyes of my boss , teachers and friends.i hated it. And top it all i hated that fucker of a father.Earth was never a place for me! Society was like a cage and money and power were stick and carrots.i don't want my life that way.i want power. I want strength.i want that strength which will always be mine.if it gives me opportunity,i will destroy that humanity and we three all will live  happily everafter.

Yes ! Yes! Yes!!!!! I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!wooaooaahhhh!

After venting out his emotions he looked at the strange world he had been dropped into.

Looking around there was a beautiful picturesque scene but all the colours were different amd strange , the sky was not blue, the earth was not brown and people were not humans upon that thought he  looked at the magnificent castle he had been dropped to,, there, a beautiful bizarre figure with feminine charms with blue hairs and well defined red verticle pupils with eyelashes of green, wearing an unusual strange outfit, she was furiously scratching the round thing( which look like a pillow) with her extended claw while her other hand was holding a parchment-like a thing.

But I was not able to stay coherent with my thoghts it looked like my droplet of sanity will crumble at any second.  An inner sense of complete wrongness cling to my thoughts and it tells me to do only one thing, it tells me to abandon my thoughts and become emotions, and disperse in this reality of illusion.

But I walk the path of deathless and I walk the path of chaos and madness, and I am free from the prison of society,I want to live ,I want go live no matter how insane I become. Madness is attained when you feel ruthless and you become ruthless if you don't have emotions. Emotions are needed to control this madness and order is needed to control that chaos.

So I will be my thoughts and that feminine stranger will be my vessel for emotions. I will lose my sanity this way but I will be alive with my insanity.

As I decided and confirmed my decision I began to separate my emotion from my very own thoughts, a gut-wrenching pain with no bar of limits assaulted my mind but I continued as I don't have the luxury to feel that pain ,I continued cutting my emotions deeper and deeper, my lovely sister, my mother crying face all flashed by my thoughts but I did not give them more thoughts, I had done this a thousand times, after all, you cannot laugh in this world if you cannot stop your emotion of humiliation and rejections clouding your mind. you need to focus on your work and excel in it.

He had stopped his grief and depression thousands of times when he was playing with his sister, when he was putting her abused mother in her bed and when he was stealing the anti depressent medicine, cutting the emotions was difficult but not hard enough. The only thing he did not cut was responsibility and a sense of justice that came with that responsibility. He separated himself in two which were joined with a thin thread of responsibility and justice.His thoughts became numb, monotone and unforgiving .he became a husk of a man with no emotions to carry. and his other half wanted to disperse to this reality but he hold them with his thoughts of preservation and placed them near the feminine stranger. She was just completely oblivious to the gut-wrenching pain of a now apathetic boy, the emotions seem to sense an outlet begun to trickle down to that feminine stranger. 

Some people say emotions have power, some say it is only our mind doing its chemical exchange, and some says it is, what makes us humans and seperate us from beasts, and as a conclusive evidence, the wrath he felt all his life entered her body, and the pillow in her hand was completely torn in half. Her arteries began to swell and blacken due to her blood rushing to her heart. she was in the first place agitated but when his emotion began to mix in her meta sense perspective everything turns to nonsense. Her body became hyperactive, her eyes dilated on the verge of exploding, her eyes began to bleed and her mouth began to drool, her joints began to creak like a wooden door, muscles popped and screamed .she was confused and terrified nothing made sense to her. The only emotion she felt was utter revenge and annihilation she howled at the top of her lungs and began to punch her bed, the bed was not able to take the constant barrage of hits, it creaked and broken down to splinters, next came greed, the nature to make everything their own, she took the parchment while cursing a few Time and she stomped the earth and slashed the door open with her claws, the doors which were closed, were slashed broken in timber and splinters with pure fury and  she marched to someplace he doesn't want to know and neither he cared for. He is aloof, unbothered and apathetic nothing can move him but the responsibility urged him to move forward. so he moved as he neither have emotions to ignore that urge nor have the thought to be thinking about ignoring that urge. He just have to think about moving and he would move, and if he had to move towards his destination, he thought about that stranger and the reality did the rest he was transported to a dingy corridor where two broken and battered creatures with funny clothes were lying in a puddle of green fluid. A feminine stranger with blackened veins was in the process of breaking open someone corridor. and seeing that it was not budging from its place she kicked the door with all her might and fury, another feminine stranger with a more developed body was staring at her like looking at a prey but when she saw her face from the Illumination of a candle flame. That female stranger yelled and wanted to escape but was not ready for what happened next, a punch reddening with fury greeted her despair filled tragic face, a crunching of cartilage and smashing of muscle sounded ,all the jewellery and even the funny clothes she was wearing was taken down and placed in a neat pile. Every nook and cranny was broken and searched for shiny articles and they were placed in a neat pile like someone is suffering from OCD.

, Then the emotion came was envy, the face which was broken by that powerful punch was disfigured beyond recognition by claws and spit, then came pride, she thrashed a beaten the figure till she was satisfied and then she spit a pink secretion from his mouth towards the broken, naked and tattered stranger. A foot with two big digits was placed on her wailing and weeping face, while she began to scream with egoistical curses, next came lust,(he was a teen but it did not count much)she lifted her leg from her crying face and placed it above her crotch area, she pushed the tapering nails of her legs digits to theat forbidden garden and a squeal of pain and pleasure began, loud muscles smacking each other and skin thumping noise accompanied by moaning and screaming of nonsensical curses sounded. Heaven and earth tilted to understand the confusion of the conclusive squirting sound.

then came the emotion sloth, lust and wrath had taken a lot of toll on her body, her eyelids become heavy, her muscles began to relax and she began to snore loudly. On the other hand, the other feminine stranger was badly beaten for no apparent reason and her virginity was taken from her for no apparent reason, all it created was confusion, regret and humiliation but before she can call the guards her pain was too much for her to bear. so she fainted.

 All seven emotions were transferred to the vessel but only one remained to attach him to the feminine stranger, his responsibility and determination for completing that responsibility.

Upon looking closely, she resembles humans but was not completely human. Her figure was that of an Amazonian warrior with powerfully built muscles, they walked on two legs and had two arms ending in five digits but the similarity ended there, and the things which scream alien were their lean body filled with powerful bloated muscles, verticle eyelids and vertical pupil like that of a cat. and two horns like that of a sheep, they have one extra eye on their forehead which is always closed, their hair looks like they have been dyed with colours of  the different colour palate some were black and some were red, pink and orange.it was like a world of anime but with the theme where evolution of dinosaurs taken in motive to evolve like two legged creature motive, all the rest of information was incomplete. the responsibility tell him to sleep just like the feminine stranger,  but he had thought to complete his diagnosis and analysis of this new world.The better he study this world the better will be his survival.

He looked around searching for clues and answers.

His eyes first feel on the trees

Trees look same to me but the leaves can move on their own,,fruits of the trees can run if someone spooked them outright but they can not run for much time and they get shriveled up and die as the fruits don't store much energy in the first place.Everybody I met was not able to detect me. Even if I just stand in their direction of eyes , no one reacts. It look like I am undectable and unrecognisable.

Upon that thought , he looked for his hands and fingers but there was nothing but only thoughts for hands and fingers, so I am really just thin air.

Interesting! Interesting!

He tried to move away from her feminine stranger towards their castle and palaces but no matter how much he tried , he cannot move, the responsibility thread become a noose for him.

How fast a blessing turned into some twisted curse.

interesting!!!.so he looked for how much circumference he can move, it turns out only 10 meteres sqaure area.

Only two and and a half room from my previous earth.

He looked towards the sun from the window.The atmosphere was not of blue hue but it was like aurora just travelling to and fro, and the sun does not always need to fool the protocol , it seems! And It turns out the sun was not , blue , green or yellow it was just a black dot with two event horizon sticking up and down .so interesting.so the only black dot in universe I can think of is black hole dis uused by Hawkin, so....... the thing which is shining down on me is a blackhole with emormous size, how interesting!!!,I have not even seen the images of blackhole in google till today. Scientists will die just to see this natural spectacle.

Interesting,.......I can quote thoughts with emotions, so

 responsibility thread acts a bridging point ,I can sense her emotions but in limited quantity , so to control my madness I can borrow her emotions.it is very very good to know.

So stranger with inhumane eyes.

Trees which can move.

A black hole in position of sun

Atmosphere rich in gamma radiation.

I think I can survive this world!

Nevertheless, it feels somewhat off.it is like I defying some rules here with only my mere presence, may be it is the rule here.so let's experiment a bit,I don't want loose ends after all.

I came to this world,I met a stranger, I separated my emotions and thoughts,I became sometime unrecognizable and undectable but at the same time I don't follow the rules of reality and i alos see the black hole with my naked eyes no only with my thoughts I don't have eyes now..so , ......the problem is with my appearence or my presence.does it means that only people with both thoughts and emotions can exist here. maybe it is a problem with both.

So to manage this wrongness, I need to ...let's see...

He began to snatch the emotions of that stranger and began to shove them down towards its thoughts but they completely ignored his thoughts and begin to just float and disperse and eventually it did not work. So he shape the emotions with different desires in the form of circular ball or cube, pyramid and cuboid and reside in there but the feeling of wrongness was still there. He tried multiple ways, but the strange wrongness began to strongly grip his thoughts, if he dispersed, just like that all the things he had done will be meaningless, all his path will be meaningless. He needs to find his meaning in this haze. Emotion and thoughts exist with each other without one you can not be the whole. Emotions and thoughts both flow but they need a container to separate themselves from the reality so they need a body,  a body which can inhabit all your thoughts said a blob of illusion, so he tried to move towards those brutallylyly beaten guards but he just faze out of them, his thoughts begun to disperse in the atmosphere faster than ever, he tried with another guard but It was the same, the wrongness he thought were just loose ends are become his noose for hanging him to death.his thoughts began to glitch and become incoherentt, so he dived in the tree stem but it was the same he cannot possess that tree,  because he was a human in his first life, so he tried the broken face feminine stranger,  there was a resistance first but he possessed her somehow,  but it felt completely wrong and foreign to him and after a second or two he also begun to faze away from her body, then as a last hope he dived into the feminine stranger he first met.

  if I just dive back in, my emotions and my desire will snap back in place just like two magnets opposite poles, but she is my last ray of hope.I need to do this!!

I need to live! 

I need to live! That was the responsibility and his path!

A blob of unrecognizable chaos met the drooling stranger at insane speed, there was no explosion, no destruction, all the light shining on the female dimmed for just a second, but no one seemed to notice that unusual phenomenon but for a certain blob of chaos it was just ressurection. if you can say half-life as resurrection.

He didn't  completely fail but he did not completely win either. He just like the other prior experiment began to faze out but this time the feeling of wrongness disappeared gradually, a thin thread of responsibility which was joining him with that female stranger became tangible for no reason and it became a mark of pure terror and chaos with black and white bizzare pattern and it was branded in the sole of that female 's feet.His thoughts and emotions became one but they can be more easily separated .

Man! It was good to be back!

It was terrifying, to witness your death with your own thoughts and that ruthless nature is just stereotypical and are still giving me goosebumps.so I am tied to this girl for all eternity.well I did get a body after all! Even though it looks like female and she is completely alive.

I tell ya all those novel telling you about possession is just bullshit.i tried with my own life.you should not believe in fantasy.man! Who I am talking to. It is not like anyone can listen to me.

So,I am able to possess her right now but my feeling tell me it is not like I can posses her forever, the mark tells me it is only when she falls asleep I can wake up. So i in need to form chloroform,and i will be awake in her body forever, but there is different rules governing this world. Physics and chemistry don't apply the same here.then...there is a possibility of magic or physic phenomenon.so the conclusion is when she is awake I need to reside in her shadow or in that mark and when she is sleeping I am awake in her body.

As he was feeling excited by thinking about all the magic and swords, the unnatural mark finally stop revolving and began to fade out of existence from sole of her feet but instead of just dispersing , the mark just turn from tangible to intangible and became a sphere , that sphere attached itself to the blob of complete chaos.

And begun to change his entire existence, from blob of chaos he grew two spindly arms and two spindly legs , and a rib cage followed by head.

STOP ! STOP!

 I don't want to be human! I don't want to be a being from my past life. I will create myself! I will shape my own reality! No one can give me my nature! I am my own nature! Screamed the blob of chaos in anger filled silent voice.

But it did not stop! His arms and legs began to lengthen and and his face grew out eyes.

"I don't want to remember my face! I said stop!" In pure anger he bashed his thoughts to the outlining figure of his body

The limbs get deformed the arms broke and the growing head smashed in.

I DECIDE MY LIFE!! NO ONE CAN DICTATE MY LIFE! 

I WALK THE PATH OF DEATHLESS

I WALK THE PATH OF MADNESS AND CHAOS

I WAS BORN EMPTY , AND I WOULD RETURN EMPTY

NO ONE IS ETERNAL BUT MY RESPONBILITY

I WALK THE PATH OF DEATHLESS

I WALK THE PATH OF TRUE MADNESS AND CHAOS!

he shrieked with all his thoughts ,heaven and earth resonate with him.He was the taker of responsibility and he will shape that responsibility.

so he thought , what a true deathless and a true chaos! Feel like!

A figure made out of nothing but black wires mismatching crisscrossing each other always changing always flowing, no heart , no kidney , no liver , just a husk for his thoughts, three to eight , eight to ten ten to infinity, no limit to his  limbs or his body, he is undefinable and unrecognizable he is a pure terror of darkness and earth , ashes as his shadow and feet of brangled roots.

He is a ghost , he is a husk and he is chaos!

So the outling of the figure became warped! The face shows anger ,humiliation and hatred! But settled into a smiling face with pointy teeth bared and a barbed tongue dangling from his mouth, his skin became mismatching ,crissrosing metallic threads layered upon each other, his feet grew roots like that of octopus and that of a spider.His body has no joints and no skeletons to speak off, he grew out a tail entirely made of threads which extends to millions and billon of threads ending in stingers filled with poision, he did not have eyes but only eight empty sockets in his faces two at his prior eye Sockets and other circling theose two hollow eyes .His two hands were of humans ending in talons,but two more hands grey out ending with a spear of fire and a spear of Ice.

A mark of responsibility with black and white threads always mismatching and crisscrossing branded upon his forehead .

A pattern unrecognizable resonated and hymn with his thoughts and that outlined body .but it did not fade out existence , as telling the reality that it will be someday eternal and finally a cloak made entirely of ashes covered his whole figure, which screamed only terror and madness.

And utter chaos.

His thoughts and his new grown body became one.

He sighed in relief for talking back control of his life, 

But in the next second, all his grown body he worked hard for, became a pool of black and green goo .and began to seep into the body of that female stranger.

He was surprised and utterly terrified, of this disaster.

He dived back in the stranger to possess her but was bounced back, he tried and tried again but nothing worked.so in despair he begun to wait and screamed for this felony! And waited for his death but nothing happened .no universe declare him dead and no godly presence demanded his dispersal.

So he tried again to dive back into her body but this time with the attitude of just being a friend. It was so easy, just like breathing In water.

But when he just try to even think of possessing her the mark on her sole shine with irregular rhythm,and resistance begun to creep up destroyed his partial possession tight then and there.

"So it means I can just only borrow her body! What the fuck! Where is my freedom? !where is that black and green goo by body turn into gone?.is it only despair in my life?.No,,, I have not surrendered in my previous life and I will not surrender in this life.Even if there is no way now it does not mean there will be no way In the future. I should cheer myself for making out alive , even if there are restriction someday i will find a way to break them."thought the lad with some cheerful tone.

"Let's see what it look like to control this feminine body from the thoughts of a male teen human".exclaimed the boy with some accomplishment in his voice.

He tried opening his eyes, but all the images which he could see was not apparently clear so he tried again and  this time, another eyelids opened,(niticating membrane)

And the image he could see were so clear that he can even see the dust particle rising because of his breathing.but he could not able to maintain the thought for long.an excruciating discomfort assaulted his mind, which make him dizzy and breathless,his entire body was in full panic mode , every major muscles were in discomfort and his claws felt unimaginable pain, his brain throbbed in his skull.Excruiting pain was coming out his crotch area.The  pain was like a truck had just crushed and flinged his entire body like a rag doll. His muscles were screaming in protest , his jaw and tongue were in pain due to sheer yelling she had done with his mouth.

When he tried to put his palm on his head to provide some stability he almost poked himself to death.The claws were so sharp and elongated that no short sword of Earth can be compared with it.

He tried to push in the claws with his other hand but they were not going in.so he just gave up and smashed his head on the floor and just tried to relax.The tensed muscles of his physique which were contorted in sheer agony begun to popped back in place and relaxed.The extended claws begun to recede back in the fingertips just like that of a cat or wolverine.

His head which was throbbing began to calm down , and after half and hour of rest he begun to just breathe in and breathe with eyes close.

He remained there for one or two hours just calming his nerves down and begun to check his new partially possessed body.

He opened both of his eyelids and see his newly possessed hand.They were just like human hands but covered in minute fish like scales ,and that creates the illusion of smooth skin.

Next he checked arms they were slender but quite agile.

But thinking of the muscles popping up from her body when she was in agitated form he shivered at the thought.

Next , he moved his tongue along the floor of his mouth.it was covered in ridges, and they have the same 

Teeth set as humans but front incisors are replaced by canines.by looking at the canines I can say that they are heavily depended on carnivorous diet.

Next he check the neck ,no Adam apple was found. But there was a ring of cartilage running from ventral to dorsal vertebrate , it look like I am wearing a dog metal collar under my neck skin.

Next he checked his chest, there were some fat deposition just like the breast of the teen girl but looking across the another figure with a broken and disfigured face he can tell that they will grow back eventually in time.

He just blushed feeling that inappropriate thought.

Next he check his solar plexus ,nothing strange there.

Next he checked his hips, they were rounded just like of the human teenage girl.his thought ended then there , so she was a teen just like me. What the fuck!! Resonance need so much similarity.i did not know that.

If I was a old guy does it mean I will be only able to possess the old guy. This conjecture is twisted and does not make any sense. Well ,I better get my analysis done before she wakes up.

He tried to stand on his feet but stumbled. And then he tried again and failed again, it was impossible to even    find the centre of balance of a complete new body, all his coordination skills of humans are not applicable to this new body, so he just sat there , heaving and sighing.

"I need to take baby steps now."he said to himself.

While thinking about his last comment he thought about his legs he checked for the newly branded mark on the sole of his foot.There it was shining in blacklight just like a beacon of hope but the problem is he can only see half of it.

"The other white half was no longer visible to me. so it means each person can see the mark of different colour mine is black so she should be able to see white.How can colour be so specified?" Haa! This world is giving me surprises after surprises" he exclaimed while exhaling air.

Then he get on all fours and began to just crawl like a baby until he stumbled up to the window.

He lifted his one hand put it upon the corner of the window and pulled himself up until he was capable to stand upon only two legs , he lifted his right leg ahead but began to fall again, .but his grip on the window was firm so he did not collapse like a house of cards.

He tried to find right posture of balance , he leaned his body forward , then backwards but it did not feel right.

So he just filled his lungs with air and take a ram rod posture with back straight and chest puffed out.

It worked! Somehow! And to walk first he took a stance of karate and he stretched his legs like that on taichi.he began to feel the centre of balance, 

Breathe in! Breathe out. He wiggled his foot , then his arms and then his head. And he concluded that the problem was in his head actually it was in his sense of hearing, called ears.

This body's ears were just pointed like that of elf in a video game, sticking out just like a soar thumb and they have the ability to move up and down and side to side like that of the cat.

"So he just took his posture he used when he was a human and try to ignore the signals send to his brain by his ears and he was walking fine.Their foot is just like that of ostrich and human blended together to create compatibility of both."he thought with amusement .

He tried to run, but almost fell over , so he began to jog in the room , did some punches and he felt great but when it came to kicks well let's say he was a immature in earth  and Still is immature in this life as well.

He begun jumping up and down , tried planks and pushups.all motor skills were just perfect and well coordinated and even 15 minutes of cardio with pain was no longer was a problem for stamina of this body

It was conclusive that this body was only made for survival of the fittest.

Sharp canines

Powerful muscles

Lean figures

Claws like short sword

And feet made for running.

Even a gorilla would run for his money if he met a body like this in a fight.

Let's see what was that third eye in their forehead is? which always remain closed.He tried opening it but no matter how hard he thought and wanted to pull open their eyelids it remain closed.

"Let's see snake also have third eye but their eye is for heat radiation detection.but in this world gamma rays are so much prevalent that their eyes will burst even if it open for a second.but it feels like my conjecture is wrong.

Let's see, human need eyes to see, to see you need eyes..eyes takes information so the eyes in their forehead is also made for receiving information.

Fuck!!! Why there is a need for a third eye when there is two eyes in your socket. It is complete bullshit". Thought the boy

I stand up feeling pissed off and marched towards that unfortunate woman who was disfigured all over.

I checked all over body but found nothing so I marched towards the neatly piled gold and jewellery and took it all in a cloth I snatched from the tables.

In  pile of Gold, a golden ring caught my eye , on it, a carving of Tortshaped structure was done in neat fashion.there were small gems surrounding that turtle.

I took it in my hand and wore it in my ring finger as it was beautiful and it did not screamed danger.

I wore back the clothes which were removed during the act of passion.ahem ahem he coughed lightly with embarrasment while trying to make sense of the clothes, they were not so different than that of European style they just have two many frills and you have to tie too many knots. there is no bra and no corset.it was good. Otherwise I would have just worn the cloth of that guard. Man ! It sucks to a women.!while thinking this line .i became a prim proper lady with a swagger of a man.

Feeling amused by my own petty jokes I walked back to the castle with a hand made bag filled with gold and treasures hanging down my shoulder.upon my way , I looked back at the two badly beaten figures.i wanted to dissect them to better  understand their physiology but i need to wait for the right opportunity.

Upon walking through the corridor ,I happen to meet another stranger figure which was muttering in completely another language and dialects I don't know.

"Fuck! I don't understand their language, what do I do now! I think I will just manage by  gestures and a glare it worked well with foreigners in Earth when those fuckers tried to robe me."i thought with serious contemplation.

I just walked past that figure and he did not even saw me coming.look like the standing of this girl is to low in this society. I marched on! Feeling the urgency to just understand the situation I have been dropped into.

Upon my way there, I lost my way three times but ended at my beautiful strange room.

I walked up to the bed which was broken beyond repair.

I took the blanket and mattress from the bed and spread it across the floor just like a egg roll.

I checked the room , it was completely made of brick with a glossy surface just like ready cut marble piled together to form a pyramid .There was dressing table ,  and many books lining neatly in the bookshelves and a study table. Some useless junk of love letters and a dustbin and a broken door.

Fine ,there is a need for privacy for what I am going to do next.

I took the curtains from the window place  and placed it near the the door hinges .then I moved the entire dressing table towards the door.Finally some privacy achieved.

I took all the books from the bookshelves and placed them in the neat pile and begun reading.

I opened up the first book the letters were just too much simple means too common to even understand.

I need someone to translate them. But where will I find someone? Well fuck it.

I am going with children style book reading.

I just looked at the pictures and diagrams and try to make a sense out of them .in first book there was no pictures means it was a novel , diary or dictionary.

I placed it aside.next it was a old book with covering of leathery texture, that book had too many pages to even count.so I just flip them according to my desire , and i found a jackpot.A pot was drawn with a brown frog jumping out of it.the pot was designed with floral artwork but to me it look like the work of Pablo picasso.

I flipped the pages again and found a picture of sun.with two event horizons and some things were written in red and marked with black.but I cannot makes a head or tail out of it,it was just too non sensical for me.then I flipped more and more pages until I find a map.

It shown Three irregular triangles with a half cut rectanglish land joined with ridges and mountains. A name was circled with a red ink which I assume is the area I am living so there is a river passing through the mountain ridges into this rectangulish area, people like to live near the river so it will be highly populated .i will need to go there and check it myself.

And at the last page of the book there was a drawing of big black centipede with a mouth of Godzilla.

Did people here created a chimera in lab in this world I thought .

I need to find something about magic, swords or any physic ability. I need to find it otherwise I will be drowned in my own sorrow.i flipped all the books , many images were uncovered but they were worthless and useless for me.

And as i was grumbling in my mind a page with a diagram caught my eye.

There was an image of a elf face with her forehead eye opening from which dazzling light was coming out and it was further classified in twelve different categories but no images were drawn further to illustrate it.

So it means their forehead eye can be opened. But when I tried to open my forehead's eye It was like I am trying to break my arm with only  sheer thoughts .maybe it is a difference between them and humans. Well! If that eye gives power I have eight hollow sockets in my newly made body but i dont know where it is fucking hidden .

So I need to find a way to pry open that eye. Newton was able to poke his eye with a needle so what I am caring for. this body is not mine anyway. As he was just going to find a needle to poke his forehead eye.

A loud blood-curdling scream sounded from another room and his consciousness began to recess back to the mismatching intercrossing mark.

And only a last thought remained in his mind "my magic! I will be back !!"