*Charlotte POV*

"I HATE YOU! "

That was the last thing I said to Mama when she went from her mission.

It was a word that I don't mean at all but regret in the end.

I was waiting.

Waiting for her to go home.

Waiting for her to hug her and cry while apologizing.

I keep waiting and waiting.

Looking out the window hoping that I will see Mama's appearance.

She said that a week before the day of my birthday come she is already at home with a gift for me.

I don't need to celebrate my birthday,  what I need is my mama.

I want to say sorry for what I have said.

I want to say that I love her.

Hug her and selfishly say that she has to be with me for a month.

But that didn't happen.

Everything was too sudden.

What did I feel back then?

At the time of my birthday party was about to start.

I was already hoping that Mama will come.

(maybe she is just a bit late,  maybe she has to buy a gift for me. )

But none of that matters as long as she is here with me.

.....

"Liar... "

Some people come on my birthday.

Talking to Ms. Lily while Jun is next beside her.

I saw their shock and pain.

Jun looked down and almost lost consciousness.

I saw her looking at me but at the same time isn't.

Lily started crying.

At their sight,  I couldn't help but also cry.

Something happens.

It was too heavy.

I hate this feeling.

What do those people give to them?

I hate it.

I don't like it!

Mama is still not here and they are destroying my birthday!

If Mama saw this she will be depressed...

......

That was my last thought after finding out their purpose for coming to my birthday.

And my birthday supposed to be a happy occasion turned into mourning for the loss.

...

"You Liar... Hicc... "

But what I hate the most is the words I said to her.

"I hate you! "

A word that I don't mean,  a word that will become my darkest nightmare.

Three words soon turn to regret.

"I hate... Myself... "

I locked myself in the room.

Not eating.

I even hurt my friend,  Jun.

Throwing something whether it was a pillow or solid objects that could break easily.

But I did not care...

What did I feel back then?

After knowing her death.

My mind went blank,  I couldn't say anything, I just smile with a hollow laugh.

Maybe they are joking.

Yeah, maybe that was.

It is not funny.

That was my thought back then.

They couldn't even take my mama's body.

Her remains are unknown.

"Jun... "

One day she stopped coming.

Maybe she hates me now.

After what I have done.

I look at the door.

I stepped out of my comfortable bed.

My appearance is too messy when I caught a glimpse of my figure in the mirror.

But I continue walking.

I'm scared.

If Jun hates me,  it is also my fault.

I grab the door handle...  Twist it but at the moment of opening it.

I hesitated.

Maybe she was there waiting,  standing and ready to tease me.

With that thought in mind.

I open the door widely.

Presenting me with nothing but a tray of food for me.

She's not here...

I don't know how many days I locked myself.

The food is now cold but I still ate it.

"..... Delish... "

Despite not having an appetite, a nostalgic taste came to my mouth,  Jun's cooking is top-notch.

And this feeling of missing like it was gone for a year.

"I'm sorry... "

I decided that I will apologize to Jun.

I hope it's not too late.

I don't want it to be late.

I'm scared of doing something late.

I need to be right on time.

With that in mind.

I fell asleep.

However,  the next day.

I got a cold.

I couldn't contain my consciousness.

My head is so painful and every time I open my eyes,  I feel dizzy.

I even want to vomit.

I tearfully cried.

Until I heard Jun's worried sound.

I wanted to speak.

I wanted to say something...

(I'm sorry... )

But I lost consciousness.

...

....

....

I have a dream.

I was in a weird place.

I move and move not stopping from what I'm doing.

There are a lot of papers.

A keyboard and a computer.

I keep typing nonstop, till midnight and I will go home to rest.

Then,  I open my Cellphone and read something.

"The Hero Return"

It is a story.

But it shocked me.

I saw a familiar face on the cover.

"... Jun? "

W-what?

There is also a man who has Dark purple hair and yellow eyes.

I couldn't help but stare intently.

The next moment,  I read it.

.......

.........

".... Wha-huh?  No,  Jun isn't like this!... "

In the story,  Jun is one of the heroines.

It was a harem story.

It's ridiculous, why am I reading this?

I cannot control myself.

What's worst is that in the story I was a lunatic bitch.

I couldn't contain my panic.

I was confused about the revelation.

What if you found out that your life was just a story?

A life that was already orchestrated towards the end of your life,  your fate,  your action,  and even the words you wanted to say.

What if...  Your life is just meant for the important characters to shine and be trampled with.

"What is this bullshit! "

What's more,  I am abusing Jun?!

Physically and mentally abusing her to the point of her death.

I don't remember doing it to her!

It is wrong!

That is bad,  Mama said that hurting others is not right!

But sometimes you have to hurt them when it's necessary,  I don't understand it but that's what my mama said.

And I can't hurt Jun.

And why am I crazy in this story?

Somehow,  I ended up reading it until the end of it.

I found out how I died.

I died by getting stabbed in the heart.

By my maid.

Jun.

*

I was been woken up by Jun.

When I look at her,  I saw her other self.

Her future appearance of being an adult.

She was looking at me with cold eyes with her lustrous black hair and beautiful amethyst eyes.

Her hair is long and it stopped at her back shoulder.

And wearing a uniform of a militia.

I felt strange and weird,  I don't know her.

But once I blinked,  It was the Jun I knew.

I got confused about what was and then a painful headache come to my head.

All the memories of me reading the story got stocked,  it remain in my memory not letting it disappear.

I don't if I'm that person or if I just become the person in that dream.

Is it past life?

If it is.

I don't know.

It was weird.

I ask Jun which date it is now because I feel like I was in a coma for a long time.

But Jun...!

She is a pervert!

Horny!

She has a slutty mouth!

When did I become such a hot temper?

But she was smirking!  Weird!

I always see this but I can't help but shiver and think of something about killing me!

Did I got influenced by that dream?

I cannot tell if it was a dream or a memory of my past or a memory of a person.

I don't even know that person's name.

Or is it my past life?

Agh!!!  I don't know!

And more importantly!

JUN IS IRRITATING!

And she is different from the story!

Should I also avoid her?

But then I shivered,  I feel like if I do so,  I will regret it,  I wo der why...

But she is annoying!  Why is she doing this? 

She even fed me out of nowhere

Ughhh...

Annoying perv...

Then she become sentimental,  I couldn't help but reply awkwardly.

That's right,  The jun in the story is different from the Jun I know.

And I am not that person in the story.

I am me.

And me only.

After realizing it.

I look at Jun and was about to speak but...

"... June 26 3075 will be the start of our school Lotte. "

"... What? "

REALLY ANNOYING!